It ain't easy.

27/06/2024

LIFE AIN'T ALWAYS ROSEY
CHAPTER 5

Wednesday came and I went to the interview.It really went well and they said they will call me.

It was a Saturday and I decided to go out and get myself new clothes.I just wanted a makeover and to be out of that depressing house.

I cleaned up and went to the mall.I started getting to every shop but not all had what I was looking for but I didn't leave the shops empty handed .I decided to go and eat and decide after if I will continue with my shopping or...

I was craving for some ribs so I decided to go to Spur.I was ushered to a seat and I placed my order.After a while I got my food then ate.While I was eating I received a call

Me:hello
Caller:is this miss Asivenathi
Me:yes that's me
Caller:well we called to inform you that you got the job at checkers

ohh my god I found myself screaming and I got a few stares and I apologised

Caller:miss are you still there
Me: yes I'm here,I'm just excited sorry
Caller:no it's fine then,you can report to work on Monday
Me:thank you so much.

The call was dropped and I just paid the bill and went on to shop for some more clothes that I was gonna wear at work.I was so excited that after I was done,I got home,ignored everyone a d locked my room.

I got on top of me bed and jumped up and down cause I was so happy.ai took a bath again then decided to take a nap.

Caller

27/06/2024

LIFE AIN'T ALWAYS ROSEY
CHAPTER 4

It was a week now and I was not called for the interview and I was losing hope.I really needed this job and it was promising really.

I deciyti check my emaloand there was an interview from checkers. I accepted the interview because I was not picky in jobs but as long as I would be having a job and some income getting in I really wanted to save and get out of this hell hole.Slowly but surely I will get out and I will never return
While I was thinking,my phone disturbed me and it was an unknown number but I answered anyway

Me: hello Asivenathi speaking
Caller:hello miss,we are calling from checkers
Me:ohh yes yes
Caller:we called regarding to the interview,do you think you can be able to come this week on Wednesday
Me:yes I will be able to come
Called: alright then the interview starts at 10:10 am so be early
Me: of cause I will be early mam thank you very much.
Caller:good ye then miss enjoy the rest of your day
Me:thank you mam,same to you.

I was so excited but I told myself not to get excited so much like the last interview.I should just be neutral and not to think too much cause I don't want to be disappointed yho.Imagine promising yourself a job and you do do not get it.

I really want this job .I would appreciate any kind of job right now but not prostitution or to a strip club.I could never .It can never be me

How I wish I had a man to share this exciting news with but hey I don't have one and you know maybe it's a good thing cause man are a distraction and last time I dated I was f**ken heartbroken yhoo and I just couldn't.

Iam going to tell my friends when I have gotten a job cause I don't know man,I have this feeling not to tell them.Not that they are bad people but I just want to tell them at a later stage when I would be really working

Anyways let me start my day and go make myself somethingeto eat even though I'm dreading that because if the stares and commitments I'm gonna receive.Well my whole famijuce

21/06/2024

LIFE AIN'T ALWAYS ROSEY
CHAPTER 3

Today was the day of the interview and I have been ready by 7 am but the interview is by 9am.Iam so nervous because this interview is the one that will determine if I get this job or not If I would ace this interview I would be the happiest and it would be a big change in my life

I could finally have some freedom.I decided to go wait there than be late.I arrived on the company and it looked so beautiful and I could imagine myself already working there.i didn't think it would be a beautiful company like this

The interview started to start and after a long time I got called.I knocked and I was told to sit down After a while of being asked some hard questions I never expected to be asked of which I answered truthfully,I was told I will be called

I got home,took off my clothes and decided to make something to eat cause I was really hi Gary and those questions made me very dizzy.I don't even think I will get the job.

The way I'm so lonely,I wish I had a boyfriend cause if I had one I would not be so lonely and I would have someone to vent to about my life and how miserable it is,while I was thinking about my life the devil disturbed me...

Mom:wowyou have been disappearing a lot these days,where do you go?
Me:why do you care
Mom:haibo I'm your mother so that means I care
Me:if I was a naive girl I would really believe you but since I know your true self,I don't believe you
Mom:I'm so hurt by what you are saying
Me: Argh stop pretending marn
Mom:I wonder how your dad would feel if he sees how you are treating his wife
Me:I also wonder how he would feel if his daughter would kill herself
Mom:(shaking) how do you mean
Me: exactly that

I walked away and went to my room then through myself on the bed and just cried.This is becoming too much for and soon I will have my breaking point infront of them.Some days are better because I shut down my emotions and some are worse and I guess today is one of those days because why is god punishing me so much.Why is he punishing me for things I don't even know I don't know what I did wrong in his eyes but I guess it's a lot for me to struggle like this while I have both my parents alive.They are suppose to be the people protecting me from bad things instead they are the ones doing bad things to me Iam really tired shame.

18/06/2024

LIFE AIN'T ALWAYS ROSEY
CHAPTER 2

Yesterday I spent the whole day in my room avoiding everyone till it was time for dinner and after dinner I went to sleep.
How I wished the day of the interview could arrive because Monday seemed too far for yet only three days were left

Anyway I should stop thinking too much and just start my day.I went to the bathroom,did the necessary things then wore some comfortable clothes to go to the mall.I had some money on me and I wanted some me time away from the house.Staying in that house does Ng nothing is very depressing and I really don't want to end up getting into a fight with my mom.

I went to some restaurant and just enjoyed myself there and the peace I found there was refreshing as there was no one to tell me that Iam eating someone's hard earned money, something I don't know.

If I could just get this job,it would be the most amazing thing to happen to me and it could be life.changing because I would move out of home once I would be financially stable and I would get away from all the toxicity I get from home.

I have never took my mother's hate and insults but now that I look back, I just realise that the hate is too deep and and I really want to know where does the hate come from and why would she do this to her biological child. I had many questions but only one person can answer to that but hey I won't ask her now ,I will just wait for me to be independent enough to move out of the house if it happens that there is some truth that would come out.Even though I would love to know but I hope the truth won't hurt.

Look at me thinking about me problems in public.I called for the waiter and paid the bill then took a taxi back home.When I got there,there was no one which was weird considering that Nosiphiwo was always home hut I brushed that to the back of my head and I was actually happy for some quietness.

I checked up on my friends and we talked for a while then I decided that Iam going to get some sleep cause I was just tired and I was tired emotional, spiritual an just physical cause I had lost some weight.
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17/06/2024

LIFE AIN'T ALWAYS ROSEY.

CHAPTER 1

I woke up,went to the bathroom,brushed my teeth then took a bath after that I went to the kitchen to make something to eat.I found my mother there and just wished I turn back but it was too late because she had seen me.Me and my mother just tolerate each other for the sake of my father otherwise she can't stand me shame

Mom:no,don't turn on my account, do what you do best
Me:so that's why you hate me,you hate me just because Iam not working
Mom:Don't you think hate is a big word, I just don't like you and you make it worse by me seeing your face everyday
Me:Wow,you just know how to get under my skin
Mom:I don't care so just do what you are here to do or else you will faint

I just decided to make myself some food which can be enough for two people just to spite her and she kept looking at me as I ate

Me:I'm sure you wish I could choke with the way you keep looking at me
Mom:No,not really,I just admire how brave you are,eating food you didn't buy and on top of that you make food enough for two people
Me:I knew you will talk but it's not like I won't finish the food moss,hay une drama Nosiphiwo
Mom;Don't you dare call me by my name,do you hear me?
Me: Demanding respect now I see,don't worry about my respect because you earn enough respect from your precious kids
Mom: wow you are so disrespectful but hey let me go before I say some things I'm supposed to say.
Me: yheah right

Got done with eating,went to wash the dishes then went to my room and took out my laptop and started checking my emails and there was a company which invited me for an interview.

Finally God has answered my prayers and I'm not going to tell anyone in this house.I want my mom to continue to mock me .Iam so excited and I need to tell my friends yhoo.

17/06/2024

LIFE AIN'T ALWAYS ROSEY.

PROLOGUE

My name is Asivenathi Mdlali,Iam 26 yrs old.My parents are Nosiphiwo and Mziyanda Mdlali .My parents have four kids including me.Months back I was fired at work because they said I stole some money and there is proof.That was the most confusing day for me because never thought I would be fired for theft.After all my hard work and dedication on that company for them to just fire me just like like that.I had my suspicions but decided to let it go.That's when my mom's dislike towards me increased,yes at the beginning my mom never liked me as her daughter but all she did was to tolerate me but after I lost my job,she became worse and I cried then made peace with the fact that she will never love me and embrace me as her daughter.

My father always asked her why didn't she love me like all her kids but she always avoided that question and also I have been sending my CV to all companies,at this point I would accept any job .I love my family but sometimes they just bore me because they are always talking about me getting a job as if I'm not trying.I also love my brothers but sometimes I wish my elder brother can just grow and stop listening to mom controlling his life and telling him how to live his life.Then there's my sister,ohh that one doesn't care at all,she's carefree and does not care about mom's controlling and judging self,we get along just fine, she's the second born and I'm the third born.

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