01/07/2024
From the moment they left my house, Michelle stopped talking to me. I knew I had exposed our private business and is probably why my family will never accept her even for one day. It hurt knowing that I was continuing to hurt her. I took my car keys and left. I drove until I could calm down as my entire body started aching due to the excessive drive. I needed time to cool down. After some hours I returned to my house and Sam was parked. I went inside and she just stood up.
Me: I didn't ask you to leave.
Sam: Mma let me go, I'm sure my husband is wondering where I am by now. [Passes him and she is heard leaving]
Michelle: I made food, should I serve you now?
Me: why is it so hard for her to forgive me? I want to be there for her.
Michelle: you both have to work it out, I am not going to interfere.
Me: I need a drink.
Michelle: Your back to whisky?
Me: I'm stressed.
Michelle: Alright.
Me: [she dished up for me and went to her room] I'm done with this guest room nonsense, go back to our bedroom.
Michelle: You mean the one you desecrated with Madlamini. I don't think so.
Me: for once I am tired of begging, I love you Michelle I can't do this with you. I'm going to the hotel. [ I opened the door and she pulled my hand as I was about leaving]
Michelle: Okay, just only tonight, tomorrow I will clean the room and move in.
Me: I don't like this you, it's frustrating.
Michelle: You don't know what it feels like to hear another woman moaning for your husband. It's traumatic.
Me: while the whole time I was thinking about you, makes sense. I can't wait to make you moan for me.
Michelle: sounds so tempting.
Me: I love you Michelle.
Michelle: how come you don't call me Ma?
Me: what sort of rubbish is that? Your my lover, your here for me, my sunshine lollipop.
Michelle: is this the part where you kiss me?
Me: [chuckles] No.
Love should always be something to write home about. I picked her up and it felt good to hear her giggling with her breath all over my neck. It was so flippin sexy but then 6 weeks to heal. I wanted her so badly nothing made it better. I battled to sleep beside her, she smelt so good. I tossed and turned until I eventually slept. The next morning I woke up to breakfast and her telling me she has to go meet up with her family which I thought was unnecessary considering that our babies are barely two months. I was just worried about the whole thing, I took a shower and accompanied her. Her sisters were not delighted to see me.
Her sister: why is this ra**st here? I thought you were told that it's a family meeting.
Me: I'll wait in the car.
Her second sister: You have to vomit, this man gave you something.
Me: [I got into the car and they went into the house. They remained like that for an hour and she came out with a swollen face, I could tell she was upset and had been crying. She got into the car and I started the car. I drove us to an ice-cream spot and bought some.] I'm not going to ask you what happened. Are you okay?
Michelle: Why did you r**e me? Why did you just complicate things for me? Is this some sort of obsession for you? Why am I here even when you have hurt me so much?
Me: [she was now in tears and that got me angry. I drove us back to her brother's house and went into the house, I found everyone jolly] I'm tired of this rubbish, that's it. If you people had allowed me marry your sister from the get go, we wouldn't be here, you knew that I loved her, I pleaded with your father for the longest. I made a mistake, I get it, I acknowledge it! What else do you want from me? I can't change the past and I can't keep living in it. I love your sister, she drives me crazy and makes me so happy I can't imagine my life without her! This bitter, stupid attitude you have will not rub off on her because she is kind and strong. I have taken enough rubbish from this family, Listen you all should grow up and stop filling old man shoe…
Michelle: [chuckles and softly smiles]
Me: Stop trying to destroy our happiness because you are unhappy with your own lives.
Her second sister: imagine this chicken that thinks it's a bird, I swear if this cancer does kill you call me a bustard, you are too forward.
Me: [the whole room died down with silence and there was a thick cloud of guilt filled the air. I looked at Michelle who was in tears] Oh is that it? This entire thing was cooked up by you? Oh Wow.
Her brother: everyone should calm down this fighting is not good for anyone, let's all sit down and settle this like adults.
Me: so all this time, you were conspiring on how to break us up? Interesting. For this singular act, I will love your sister even more. I forgive you and wish you well on your future endeavours.
Her brother: please let us settle this matter.
Michelle: we should go please.
Her sister: Oh just tell him the truth already, you don't love this man, you are just with him because of pity. You just feel indebted to him because he saved you from your abusive ex. If you were in your right state, you would have told him long ago that his brother has a thing for you and his uncle was hitting on you. Listen you don't owe this man anything.
Me: [ I looked at Michelle and her face gave me all the answers. What her sister was saying was true which made me wonder which part is true the pity or my brother. I went back and forth in mind thinking hard about it] you are not even worth my energy.
Michelle: I won't retaliate just to please you, hope you are happy with yourselves.
We left there and a lot was going through my mind. I mean why didn't she tell me about these men I mean does this mean that while I was sick she was getting it somewhere else? I just revisited all our memories of late and everything just felt undone. When I got to the house, I set in the garage in silence.
Michelle: I didn't tell you because you would have condemned yourself. If you believe that I am with you because of pity than you don't really know me. While you were going through chemotherapy, your uncle approached me claiming that he wants to step into your shoes until you are well again. Long before you reappeared, I discovered that your brother had feelings for me which is why he made my life a living hell. I declined all his advances and told his wife who considered me a witch. I think he has outgrown it as I am now married to you.
Me: I need some time, please go into the house.
Michelle: just because I cheated with you doesn't mean I have reason to cheat on y… Madlamini???
Me: [ I looked up and she had returned] and then?
Madlamini: please come inside we need to talk.
Me: [chuckles] what did you leave behind?
Madlamini: the pregnancy test came back positive.
Me: Hooray!! We'll go to the doctor to confirm it. [I stood up and it felt so easy to just run into the arms of another woman but the pained look on her face dug a hole in my heart] This has been a really long day already.[ I went to the guest bedroom and rested on the bed]
Madlamini: when did this one start?
Michelle: please excuse me [enters the room] are you done setting up the baby beds?
Me: I somehow cannot figure how to assemble them. Can we get those ready made ones? I'm a bit tired.
Michelle: where am I going to put the babies then? I can't stand for long or sit for long.
Me: after this I am never having another child, God forbid. [ I got off the bed and read the instructions again, after a 4 hour battle, I finally figured it out. By then Michelle and the kids were fast asleep. I stared at them, I wanted to just love and protect them my heart was at peace. I went out and doom a delivery man was by the door. ] How can we help you?
Delivery Man: I'm looking for Ms Michelle.
Me: what's this about?
Delivery Man: we are delivering the king bed order we received last night. Is she around?
Michelle: Oh sorry I thought you'd come tomorrow. Where do I sign?
Me: [ she signed and they placed the bed in the guest bedroom, I wondered why the hell I allowed for her to stay in that room, afterwards they left. I helped get the other bed to the storeroom, the base mistakenly fell on my leg and it reminded me of when we were young] remember when we hid in the ceiling…
Michelle: Don't go there, my father was furious after that, he thought we were you know.
Me: [we laughed for a minute then paused] you drove me crazy then and you still do now. Whatever happens with the other woman please don't give up on us.
Michelle: [tiptoeing and kisses him on the chin. The he lifts her up and they share a kiss]
Madlamini: [clears her throat]
Me: [I just shut the door in and we continued] I love you.
Michelle: I love you too Siya.
Me: [ i place her down and we stepped out, the kids were crying, my uncle had come which was uncomfortable for me. I attended to the kids while Michelle chilled for a bit. They rested on my chest which was so heartwarming. I placed them down] Why has dragged you to my house this night? Don't you have a family and wife to attend to? I mean you are always here unannounced?
His uncle: if you were well behaved I would not have to waste my petrol like this.
Me: my parents are in the grave last time I checked, why are you here?
His uncle: Have you gone to confirm the pregnancy? What does this mean? I spoke to Madlamini that this child should not be raised outside.
Me: you should have called.
His uncle: Ntombazana add my plate.
Me: no need because you are leaving or I might as well call Mamkhulu. If you don't mind, I'd like to address my family.
His uncle: it's true this woman makes you rude shame, this little pride of yours will be your downfall.
Me: Oh is that why you wanted to lie down in my place, what you think you can reach my standard?
Madlamini: [clears her throat]
His uncle: [looks down in shame] did she tell you that?
Me: Oh so you are not even bothered or feel remorseful? Your still asking who told me? Get off my couch.
Madlamini: that is no way to speak to an adult.
Me: why are you here exactly? Here to diaper me finally? Anything like hope fleshed away the minute you ran off and told your people about my business. If you are pregnant, I will support my child as for this marriage it was a mistake from the very beginning. In fact i have lost my appetite. [I went into the room and shut the door]
Everything can always move to a different direction all the time. Finding out that this whole cancer thing was spiritually inflicted on my husband sent me to the cleaners, I couldn't even bring myself to tell him. My sisters decided to confess to him which made me feel like I have lost him. It was the scariest moment but well love has made a way. Now Madlamini and the others happened. He left Madlamini in tears and shut himself in with the twins. I took my time then went in after some time. He was seated on the bed.
Gabriel: what else are you hiding from me?
Me: I consented for my tubes to be tied.
Gabriel: wonderful news, how many weeks are we now?
Me: 6 weeks, their appointment is tomorrow. Will you accompany us?
Gabriel: I won't miss it for the world.
Me: what about your appointment with Madlamini?
Gabriel: leave that to me, I will set it for another day. This bed was a great idea, you know how to surprise your man. You've come to bed?
Me: I want to take a shower and I will come to bed [ I turned around to leave and he gave me a death stare] I don't want to wake th…
Gabriel: don't ever have self-esteem issues because your deliciously beautiful, you are endowed in all the right places and sexy as heaven.
Me: it's hard to believe that when you have a Ferrari out here.
Gabriel: Ferrari's don't move me, I thought you knew that.
Me: [ I went into the ensuite and took a shower. Then suddenly he stepped into the shower with me, I giggled in amusement because this shower is tiny] this shower is not big enough.
Gabriel: So?
Me: [instead of taking a normal shower, we had a memorable moment, after some time I left the shower and attended to the kids. We ended up sleeping after he was done taking a shower. The morning came way too soon. I prepared the babies, took a bath and while he was preparing himself I made the bed and breakfast to go]
Madlamini: at last, you people slept throughout.
Gabriel: Let's get going.
The ride to the clinic was uncomfortable, sitting so closely together. Luckily for me it wasn't long, we arrived and I went to start the queue on the kids side. They sent Madlamini to the same side. They went in before all of us and when they came out. We went in, Gabriel forced his way in. They injected the twins and I read his body language he was so hurt to hear the babies screaming like that.
Gabriel: you can drive?
Me: don't be like this, we still a lot of appointments going forward.
Gabriel: I can't handle the way they are in pain right now.
Me: how did the first appointment go?
Gabriel: she's definitely not pregnant, apparently she has signs of chemical pregnancy. It's unclear whether she was ever pregnant.
Me: Where is she, I thought we are driving back together.
Gabriel: she decided to take an Uber, how do you soothe the pain?
Me: we have a panado at home,I will give them a bath and give them half a spoon.
Gabriel: this is unacceptable, they should find other ways of administering these vitamins.
Me: [ I drove us to the house and the second I parked I knew something wasn't right. I felt uneasy. We talked and went into the house. As we entered the living room Madlamini was hanging from the roof. Shock just ran through me and tears streamed]
Gabriel: let me call security.
The security people came with back up and called the family. The reaction of Gabriel was without feeling. I set down inside the ambulance as they gave me drip because I was shaking of shock. After some minutes her parents arrived and her mother's tears broke me into a million pieces. It hurt, after some time Sam arrived. She was in tears I could tell that she thought it was me. We ended up at the mission house because the house was a crime scene according to police.
Bishop’s wife: you pushed the poor soul to death, you must be very proud of yourself neh?
Me: this is not the time to show your desperate, evil heart. If you focused more on satisfying your husband we would not be discussing this rubbish.what 25, 28 years of marriage and one child not even a son so show for it. Sweety I have birth both male and female children and that is proof that you can never be on my league. Hold yourself and stop running your mouth like a wild old woman.
Bishop's wife: [tears forming]
Me: why are you staring at me are you hungry?
His aunt: Once again we are here and your the instigator.
Me: it's obvious that you are obsessed with me, is it not enough that you snatched away the dreams of a young woman? You thought it good for a young woman who should have been enjoying life to be stuck with a man old enough to father.
His aunt: Don't you dare…
Me: I dare, listen it's not our fault that you are still unmarried at your age, it's also not our fault that you gave birth to drunkards. You will not bully me around like you have birth me because you don't have what it takes to birth anyone like me.
