19/10/2022
Forbidden Path
As an adolescent
I believed love was about s*x
That love was nothing less than lust
And I always had a ken within me
Whenever i heard friends in love
I envied people
Because I all the time pictured them
Traveling every forbidden path
On each other’s side
Like how a snake meanders through grass
It’s how I fancied love
And i so much wanted to lay down with a girl
I so much wanted to make love to a girl
But the fear of being not enough
Pushed me to the edges
That I instead lay on an older woman
Yes, she was a tutor, she taught me
But it still didn’t kill away my urge
Because all i ever wanted to walk a forbidden path of a girl
I always thought it tender, wholly and holy
But life never offers such opportunities to most of us,
Life instead pushed me to a woman
Under whose lectures i managed to put a fullstop on my life
She was dying, so she got me to accompany her journey
She feared dying alone, that she lured my innocence into sin
Into traveling her forbidden path
Which was rugged with flowing lava
That a potion slipped onto me and burnt me
I felt her, i felt self betrayal, i felt dislocated
Because i saw my life perishing
Because of this slow desire
Taken to be insatiable yet satiable
I died between the thighs of a woman
I thought I belonged.
