Letters From My Mind

15/04/2023

DILEMMA ON THE CROSSROADS-5

I asked her, do you really want me to call her', and she said yes, that I should if I had nothing to hide... she went on to demand that I out the call on speaker so she can get to hear what she'd be saying. I was reaching for my phone when I had it ringing, I pulled it out of my pocket and boom... It was Christine !.

The expression on my face gave me away, she knew it was her.... I gave that "what should I do " look to Kaka'. He has been in something like this before so he was equipped with some knowledge on how to handle this type of situation. He didn't say a word but I could read his facial... He was saying "Pick it".

Speak of the devil, Rita said... pick that call already and put it on speaker. I did and as she demanded, I put the call on speaker and said hello, she replied hi and then ; " I haven't heard from you like you said so I thought I should call back and check on you, can I come over to your place later today so we can talk about it"?

No , I said... I'm sorry but that can't happen. She asked why? Christine, am with someone else now and we are going to get married soon... I'd appreciate it if you didn't call me again. I ended the call. She called back but I rejected it. Then Rita asked me to give her my phone, I did... After few seconds, she returned it back .

Then we sat , only two of us... And I narrated the background to all of this. My previous relationships , how I proposed to Christine twice and she rejected... to how she called me last night and everything she said . It was when she showed me what Christine had posted on her WhatsApp status. It was some old pictures of us that she still had

I could understand why Rita felt the way she did, maybe I gave Christine the wrong impression from the call , I should have been more clearer. But , here is someone I genuinely loved.. enough to have proposed twice. I have move on, and have transferred those feelings and energy to Rita, however, there must have been a trace left....and Christine must have sensed it during our conversation.

This must have given her the hope of a reunion....but even if there was no Rita, I was not going to jump right back into her arms. I don't know why she is back....and I can't say for certain if she really means what she's saying....she could just be settling for me after failing to secure the main price. I would have taken my time...the same way I did before proposing to Rita...and am without a doubt that she's the one.

11/04/2023

DILEMMA ON THE CROSSROADS 4

We got to her house, she was visibly restless, I took a quick glance at her finger, thankfully the ring was still on. Now I have to say things to her that'll guarantee it stays there after this talk. This was no time for pleasantries, so we got to it right away.

Are you going to answer my questions now ? She asked. Sure, that's why am here . Am listening, she said. Uuuh, ummmh , alright, I do know Christine, she is my ex, I was with her last before you... But we broke up and I haven't seen her for a long time.

She, then how can you explain the statuses?, I don't know know..... No... I mean, yeah .. errhh , she called me last night on my way home after I dropped you off. She must have retained my number all this while.... I didn't have hers, so I didn't know it was her otherwise I won't have spoken with her.

She, what did she say? She said she wants me back but I refused.... I mean, I said told her that I'd call her back. She : call her back? Why? Well, you know, cuz I was driving and I didn't want to be on the phone whilst driving so i told her to let me call her back.

She; so your ex that I never heard anything about suddenly calls you on the night that you proposed to me , asking to get back with you and then goes on to post these romantic statuses, on what bases ? Anyways, hence you promised to call her back, call her, right now right here!

10/04/2023

DILEMMA ON THE CROSSROADS -3

The night was long, I kept waking up only to be told by the clock that morning was still hours away. I spent the sleepless minutes thinking about what just happened, the accepted proposal and what it would be like been a husband..... Living together with your wife.. I didn't know how to describe the feeling... I don't know how it'll be like but I was happy and ready for it.

Morning came, I was awoken by Rita's phone call, I picked up and we spent 30 minutes talking, going over the moments and looking forward to the life ahead.... She was very happy and that made me feel good. She was a hard catch. Never disrespected me but never let her guard down, never compromised her morals and values.... She's a real virtuous woman.

After we finished speaking, I batched, took breakfast and then called IPJ, the blue Igwee...he thought I was calling to talk about football, how Real Madrid will destroy Chelsea in the ucl... but told him it wasn't none of that.... explained everything that just happened. He laughed and then told me to stick with Rita; " go with the one who loves you more than the one you love more".

I thanked him and headed off to homey's crib (Kaka'). There, we spoke... He was there last night, when I proposed... He went home in a separate car that's why he didn't witness the call from Christine.... Told him everything she said.... He didn't need the history he was there, he knows everything about her. So we spent hours going about the, why's, what's, how's, ifs, buts and maybes.

As we continued talking, Rita called again, but this time she sounded nervous, who is Christine ? She asked, and why are you on her status, saying all sorts of things about you. She demanded answers. I was like, wait, what? Where you know Christine from? And what's she saying? Then she hung up. I called her her , wait for me am coming over right away.... Kaka'jumped into my car and we rode off. I gotta tell Rita something, not necessarily the truth but something logical I guess?.

09/04/2023

DILEMMA ON THE CROSSROADS

I was confused, I mean how could this be happening. Few months ago I was like the most unwanted person alive, I felt so alone and loveless..... But now, am in between two beautiful women.... who both want me to marry them.

How did it get to this?, Christine rejected my proposal twice in the past.... She said she wasn't emotionally on the same page with me the last time, (meaning she didn't love me enough to marry me). First time, she said she wasn't ready to settle yet... that she needed more time.

So after the second dismissal, she decided to breakup with me all together.... she made it look nice by saying " I think we need a break to figure out ourselves" and as days went by, she became more and more distant, no calls or text , nothing. I knew she was gone for good.

That period was hard, I never felt that way in my entire life..... I went through all the phases of grief.... And I can say I barely escaped depression. After weathering the storm, it was time to take in the sun again. So I picked up my hook and headed to the riverbank.

Fast forward, I met Rita and after the chasing around, she took the bate , ate and followed me out of the water.... And is now on the verge of becoming my livelihood. Only for Christine to perform an unforseen sabbatical. Which leaves me wondering, is this real? Did I move on so fast? Could I have fought for her more?

Too much ifs and buts.... Too much for me to make sense of. So am gonna go home, spend the night savoring this moment of finally finding a willing woman.... Then in the morning, I'll call Mr IPJ the blue Igwee and Kaka'my brother from another mother, they'll help me pick the right turn.

04/04/2023

Dilemma on the crossroads

And I took the knee, said the words "would you marry me"?
The seconds she waited before saying "Yesss" were as long as forever.
I dreaded another rejection.

As we embraced in celebration, my phone was ringing..... But I wasn't gonna pick it. Not now, it's barely the time to be distracted.... I didn't even check to see who the caller was.

Fast forward, I took her home at around midnight.... Driving home, I remembered the missed call. So I pulled out the phone and saw that there were 12 missed calls and a couple of messages.

12 calls, all from the same caller, I opened the messages....and they read; "pickup it's urgent" " we need to talk" " please call me back asap"
Then I called, I was curious and kinda nervous.
So I pressed call back and she picked.

Hello, what's up I said.....and she was like; " am sorry that I rejected you in the past, but I'm ready now, I have realized what a wonderful guy you're and that after all I do indeed have feelings for you".

She went on, I was just in the wrong world but now am here, marry me and make me your wife.... And I was like, wooow!! Wait , what! Christine are you okay? Did anyone hurt you ?
No , she said am fine and I know what am saying.

If everything you ever said to me was true, here am I for you. Show me all the love you professed...all the wonderful things you said you would do for and with me.... let's do them together, forever.

Christine, I said, imma gonna have to call you back. Now, what's this about, I just slid a ring into a lovely girl's finger.... lovely in every sense of the word....I can't undo that, I won't . I know first hand how it's like to be betrayed and disappointed.

Yes, I did profess love to her, I loved her....still may be....but I can't, I just can't. I do feel for her, I'm really sorry for what she's going through and how she's going to feel after I tell he no...it's not revenge, it is not personal...but it's what it is....I went to her at the wrong time now she's here at the wrong time too.

28/02/2023

Standing by yourself is the first step to having people stand by you.
*The spirit of Kunta kinteh is general*

24/01/2023

There's is time after nine
The pain isn't mine
Though i wrote a similar story line
Criminal is a ring-less sixnine
Parole is an inevitable nine
Don't make it a life doing time
I hear them cry
Feeling like land of mines
But so many diamond mines

16/07/2022

At the dark of the night, the eyes provides the light and the teeth showing the delight of a pure heart, triggered by the company of love... The highlight of an all night highlife that had no twilight... The heights of the mighty myth.

23/01/2022

Hey there,
You may have lost your soulmate......don't give up, for you can find a mate fit for your soul...stay positive.

08/12/2021

22/11/2021

After becoming President, I asked some of my bodyguard members to go for a walk in town. After the walk, we went for lunch at a restaurant. We sat in one of the most central ones, and each of us asked what we wanted. After a bit of waiting, the waiter who brought our menus appeared, at that moment I realized that at the table that was right in front of ours there was a single man waiting to be served.
When he was served, I told one of my soldiers: go ask that man to join us. The soldier went and transmitted my invitation. The man stood up, took the plate and sat next to me. While eating, his hands were constantly shaking and he didn't lift his head from the food. When we finished, he waved at me without even looking at me, I shook his hand and walked away!
Soldier said to me:
- Madiba, that man must be very sick as his hands wouldn't stop shaking while he was eating.
Not at all! The reason for his tremor is another - I replied. They looked at me weird and said to them:
- That man was the guardian of the jail I was locked up in. Often, after the torture I was subjected to, I screamed and cried for water and he came to humiliate me, he laughed at me and instead of giving me water he urinated on my head.
He wasn't sick, he was scared and shook maybe fearing that I, now that I'm president of South Africa, would send him to jail and do the same thing he did with me, torturing and humiliating him. But that's not me, that behavior is not part of my character nor my ethics. Minds that seek revenge destroy states, while those that seek reconciliation build Nations ′′

Nelson Mandela

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23/04/2021

The painful circle

Life is a cycle.... from the situation of been born
To that of dying...one makes us laugh ..the other puts us through immense sorrow.
We can never get used to death.
People die everyday...but we can never get used to losing people
The reality it serves is painfully unacceptable

No more shall we see that person again...a trip of no return they have embarked upon.
They don't feel the pinch...they just lay there lifeless
We, full of life, are in so much anguish...so much misery.
How dare you do this to all these people. How could you put us through this pain...why ??

We are not angry, we are only confused....we love you and yet we can't do anything about your fate....you love us but here you are letting us swallow this cup of sorrow....how selfish of you? But soon it will be our turn to be selfish, we will also lay there lifeless.... careless about what they will feel...

No matter how much distress they feel , we will not rise and walk...how heartless...how hypocritical of us. Makes me realize, it's totally beyond our control...one day we shall all respond to a greater force and there is nothing we and our people can do about it.

Let's be prepared and hope that when we leave this troublesome place, we continue to live in peace in the next space.
R.I.P to all the gone.

30/03/2021

A nest with dead chicks. One thing is clear and that is their mother never returned and was probably killed when she went out to get food. Everyday we come across people just like the mother of these dead chicks but we don't know who they actually are or what they are doing or who is waiting for them or the destinies that are connected to them.
We hurt people without knowing they are the lifeline to many destinies.
Even when people go wrong let's learn to forgive and smile instead of killing them.
Let love leads.

30/03/2021

All good people have one bad day....the day they die.
They make us all sad
They break our hearts and leave us with an un quenchable tast
We will never see them we can never replace them
Never can we get used to death
The pain is un asailable
We mourn and lament for their departue
Untill one day we do the same
Causing others the same pain
When others die, we are hurt
When we die others are hurt in turn
What a misterious life we live
What a more misterious life after here
For the good, we believe the life after here is much much happier.
Rest in piece all the gone....till we meet again...bear with us as we blame you for the pain of your going.!!

25/01/2021

The splendid life of the unsung

As the sun downed- welcoming the night
The king paced around in the presence of his Knights
They were sermoned as they were about to bid good night
For them, a day isn't just the presence of sunlight
They were briefed about the plight
On to the ships they alight-sailed on a really dark night
With only teeth and eyes providing light
As they got nearer, their hearts began raising
The struggles began as the winds were blowing
They couldn't talk loud as the enemy was nearby waiting
On to their blades , they held on tight
These people have no anything like fright
As they sliced and stabbed during the fight
It got settled just before daylight
Ships shattered, swimming to the sore
Singing the song of valor
The men that fell they honored
At the palace they were clothed in glamour
But there isn't a life of splendour
As they opened a map and began to momour
I wondered why only the king gets a sculpture