04/01/2024
Sometimes our motivation comes from stories of people who came out from difficult situations. In whatever situation you are going through just know kuti Panobudika.
V Candy
My parents had seen, celebrated, shared , and enjoyed the harvest of my wins and they had weaned me off ,imagine the disappointment of having me as a dependent again this time around the two of us myself and my son, the tension the hurt the anger you name it. Internally I was shattered I would cry myself to sleep most nights, the idea of what I could have become so distant in my imagination.Not dreaming anymore, in that moment I was just trying to see another day and afford the basics ,I needed a job infact any job so I could buy my son diapers and pads for myself , the shame of asking my mom to buy me pads yes pads and diapers those were my priorities not even clothes and hair.My back was against the wall and the walls now closing in on me. My prayer for diapers was answered through my big brother Inno who was now doing trips to and from South Africa, that had never happened he had just been based in South Africa for that whole decade so to me that was a miracle , Inno would come and say hanzvadzi letās go kuma shops pick stuff for mzukuru wangu,he literally saved me , this continued for some months now he was buying directly in SA and would bring my answered prayer in form of diapers.I still needed a job though as a matter of urgency not a job as a presenter or as āMiss V Candyā no any job so I could sustain myself and my son, I started sending CVs via my email and there was no joy no reply no response not even a response to say āwe regret to inform youā my email was dry as dry as a desert.Itās also in that moment that you then realize you donāt know any one of influence whom you can just pass your CV to. I had quit my other job or been āmade to quitā and thatās a story for another day , anyway to even try re engage with my former bosses was a lost cause. Iām a church girl born and raised in church raised by prayer spirit filled from when I was 16 , I had to run back to the arms of God, because hey the light they say is at the end of the tunnel I wasnāt even seeing it flickering it was dark now so dark almost blinding. I would pray and ask God for help , then one day one afternoon I felt a leading to go to a place and thatās the place and moment that changed my life ā¦ what the enemy meant for evil oh boy oh boy there is a God in heaven who loves and is close to the broken hearted and binds up their wounds ā¦ to be continued