NuttBoxx

02/07/2024

If we make a conscious choice to look for God, You will see Him EVERYWHERE.
Listen and hear
Look and see
Taste and smell
Feel His presence
He is all over
God is EVERYWHERE.

01/07/2024

Eina
Simply, those who continue to live in holiness, trusting God to bless them, aren’t disappointed because in His time and by His grace, God in His goodness smiles upon them. Life comes after death. Mark Driscoll

Shew, when one takes a look back into their past it can be absolutely horrid. But then again it can also be the ground of where we are able to pick up and find out the causes of what we have to deal with. It is right here, where we find the beginning to deal with in order to move into our future.

Did I make bad choices and decisions. Yip! They were based on the knowledge I had at that time. So, I’m not going to be hard on myself from now on… Emotional intelligence, people I surrounded myself with, mentors and wise counsel. If we are blessed to have wise people helping us navigate life we will succeed. This I am sure of.

Some are not so fortunate and have to deal with the hard, “eina” route. I had both. Wise counsel but also lived the hard eina path. I think at some stage in life we will all have the “eina” to deal with.

13/06/2024

Good morning Father,

This morning I feel a lot better than I did yesterday. Yes, I was cross, yes I was angry at the hard truths that were flung at me. I took everything personally, I was hurt. I didn’t like what my friends told me or what I had heard about me.
I cried and cried… then I cried my eyes out even more.

The pain lingering a little after the last session I had with the accountability club. The fact is the truth hurts. We don’t want to hear truth only “my truth”. The made up truth that fits our own narrative! That doesn’t cut it if we wish to grow. “My truth” keeps us stagnant, coiled up and broken. Factual hard truths make us cry and think! It breaks us free.

We can’t stay stuck. We have to move on from the hurts in our lives. What is your hurt? Loss of a loved one, estrangement, abandonment, rejection. I know it hurts. It hurts really badly but how long are we going to keep wallowing in our own self pity and actually start living life? Start letting go of the comfortable we in that’s breaking us. As we grow we need to let go into a world Father has in store for us.

Let’s get unstuck!
Living Life 🌻

13/06/2024

Good morning Father,

This morning I feel a lot better than I did yesterday. Yes, I was cross, yes I was angry at the hard truths that were flung at me. I took everything personally, I was hurt. I didn’t like what my friends told me or what I had heard about me.
I cried and cried… then I cried my eyes out even more.

The pain lingering a little after the last session I had with the accountability club. The fact is the truth hurts. We don’t want to hear truth only “my truth”. The made up truth that fits our own narrative! That doesn’t cut it if we wish to grow. “My truth” keeps us stagnant, coiled up and broken. Factual hard truths make us cry and think! It breaks us to free us.

We can’t stay stuck. We have to move on from the hurts in our lives. What is your hurt? Loss of a loved one, estrangement, abandonment, rejection. I know it hurts. It hurts really badly but how long are we going to keep wallowing in our own self pity and actually start living life? Start letting go of the comfortable we in that’s breaking us. As we grow we need to let go into a world Father has in store for us.

Let’s get unstuck!
13 June 2024
Living Life 🌻

12/06/2024

Mornin,

I wish I could say it is a good morning, but I had a run in with my girls yesterday. At the moment I am not fond of them at all and worst still, I told them off! Sounds a bit rough…. But it’s exactly how it happened!

We belong to a group we called girlfriends in God. I call it accountability corner. That’s exactly what it is. We hold each other accountable in areas of our lives that need work.

Basically we tell the TRUTH to each other.

Nobody likes hearing the truth. Do they? We think that that person is being mean and doesn’t like me. Sniff sniff sniff… that’s far from the truth. It’s where love fills our hearts by being honest to one another although it hurts. We lacking brutal honesty in this world. Everything is powder puffed to make us feel good but doesn’t help us grow, nor get anywhere. We walking wounded, offended, taking everything personally, type people.

This group of no judgment I think is hard to find but well worth the search. We uplift one another, tell the truth, love and respect one another’s opinions and views. Most of all there’s admiration, wanting the best for each other’s vocation, relationships and lives.

This group has been prayer answered. To find a support group of friends with realness, with truth, with honesty, with nitty gritty and of course with integrity. Society needs more people with these attributes.

I look forward to building on what I’ve had to dig deep into. The hard truths I’ve had to face. Shew, they have been hard.
12/06/2024
Living life 🌻

11/06/2024

09/06/2024

Hi Papa,

5 years ago life changed as I knew it. I was married, teenage children roamed our house looking for guidance. Much brokenness, addiction, control and manipulation swirled around in our property as a tornado grew traction. I packed my bags, leaving with the little I could fit in my car.

I will continue writing about this pivotal day every year. Not because I look back with longing, but because I have the opportunity to see how much I have grown, views expanded and perspectives changed. Most of all I see God working in and through me.

Let my life be a testimony to others who are dealing with loss, addiction, depression, hurt and pain self inflicted or caused by others there is life afterwards.

This day, 5 years ago, I lay on the floor a worthless piece of nothing, deflated, squashed and broken having suffered years of verbal abuse, of believing every negative word spoken, embedded deep within.

Each word a little termite. A nibble. A bite. A teeny tiny little nibble, biting daily at the roots of a once giant flowering tree. To the world the tree beautiful, strong and independent. Another nibble, another bite, another word, slowly gnawing its way into the tree. How long can she stand as she is eaten away? Her branches become frail and trunk gaunt. Another bite, a teeny tiny little bite until what was once tall and strong flattened to the ground.

But God breathed life, breath and I began to sprout. He is working so much good into what was once broken. Now I begin to blossom 🌼. Oh Father you are so incredible.

Living life 🌻
Your daughter.

04/06/2024

Hello Father,

After years of soaking in your Word, learning your Word, listening to your Word! Taking time to understand who You are and what You are saying.

You love me unconditionally. That’s it. You love me, no buts, ifs or maybe! You just love me. I don’t have to give you anything. There is nothing in return. You just love me.
I don’t have to buy you anything, cause you cannot be bought. Actually you bought me for a price. A very heavy price. Jesus precious blood. Why? Because you love me.
Did I deserve it? No not at all. Quite the contrary. I am a sinner, I have made so many mistakes in my life, yet, you love me.

Father, all I can say is, thank you. Thank you from the inner depths for loving me so much. In turn for the love you have poured over me, I in turn am learning to pour over others. It was something I never thought I needed. Just to be loved and to love You back. You are a good, good Father.

I love you!

Living Life 🌻
NuttBoxx.

02/06/2024

The Word
Proverbs 4:20-27
Give attention to MY WORDS, keep them in your heart for out of your heart springs the issues of life.
There’s a little saying, “what goes in, must come out!” Whatever we consume will eventually be exposed. Good or bad. Having lived in a relationship that was unhealthy, abusive and narcissistic, I eventually became the product of what was being said to me.

17 years of marriage, slowly becoming someone I was not! Being bombarded with accusations, lies and abuse. Anti-depressants, my best friend, mind crazy unable to think straight, living a life of misery and deception. The proverb goes on to say put away from you a deceitful mouth and put perverse lips far from you.

You see I don’t believe that Father would want His child to consume this behaviour day in and day out. Through the word of God I began to see and think straight of who I was according to Father, I packed my bags and left. I heard Father speak through His Word which gave me courage and left.

The journey has been an incredible experience. One of faith, love and grace.

Living life 🌻








Godisgood

01/06/2024

When Jesus died, He was planted in the ground as a seed. When we die to ourselves and put on Christ we begin to grow. We are planted together. We grow together, becoming stronger as one. The more we water and nourish ourselves in The Word the stronger we become.

I think the toughest part of the journey is being a new creation. We are on fire! Just loving God! Yet we keep looking back at our past life. We are a little sapling heading towards the light, easy to be swayed and trampled on. Tempted!

Make the time!
Read The Word for 10 min everyday.
Pray everyday.
Give thanks everyday.

We will grow in Him, with Him and through Jesus. Worth the walk. Know who you are in Christ. The walk through the forest He planted is well worth the hike.



Godisgood

30/05/2024

It’s taken me quite a while to write again…. Why I cannot think but today is a good day to start.

I think we feel too many people are watching our lives and worry far too much, feel intimidated to lay out our true feelings and emotions. Bear it all in times of adversity. It’s actually time to show others that there is hope when we are broken and lifeless.
A bit like our country.

We voted yesterday in South Africa, our beautiful country. Beautiful people! Beautiful views. It’s Africa. We are beautiful together.

We know that God is in control whatever the outcome. He knows! Having climbed the mountain, healed from pain and hurt inflected by others. I know there’s life on the other side. Let’s build from the ground up.