
07/03/2025
Ayahuasca Journey 6 – The Medicine Will Always Give You What You Need
🌿💫✝️💙
Last night, I took 80ml of ayahuasca, thinking I needed to go back into battle with my ego from the night before. I thought I was ready. But the medicine reminded me of a deeper truth:
You should never go looking for a fight unless it’s to defend the vulnerable.
Instead of war, I was met with peace.
A quiet, sacred stillness unlike anything I’ve ever felt before.
After some time in that serenity, I went to the bathroom and purged. Back on my mat, the rest of the night unfolded like a prayer. Love washed over me. I thought about the blessings in my life—my family, my friends, the mission I’ve been called to fulfill through Knot Lucky. I thanked God over and over again. For His grace. For His people. For the chance to serve.
I felt the warmth of the church we’ll someday build.
A community built on healing, love, and faith.
Then one of the facilitators said something that hit deep:
“Jimmy, you are pure love. The life you’ve led, the pain you’ve suffered—and you’re still a beam of light around the center these last two weeks.”
That brought tears to my eyes.
If not for the way my mother raised me, I don’t know that I’d be capable of this kind of healing.
I’ve reconnected with my inner child—the sweet kid who loved everyone before the world tried to harden him. I’m bringing that light forward now, and I want it to shine on everyone I meet. Because love cures all.
God created everything out of love. Somewhere along the way, we forgot that.
As I prepare for my final two ayahuasca and two Bufo ceremonies, I walk into these days with a heart wide open. I trust the facilitators, mistras, and mistros at Arkana with my entire being. Their work is sacred. I am so grateful for them.
And to Tim—thank you for believing in me and sending me here.
To Juan—brother, your insight and honesty have changed me. I’m forever grateful for your friendship.
One love. 💙
—Jimmy