It Started With Emily Doe

08/15/2024

Credit: .d.author

08/15/2024

07/16/2024

Haven’t been super active here for a number of reasons, same with the podcast (tho I am working on episodes) but I just want to pop in and say I’m still fighting the good fight.

Believe survivors.
Stand up for victims.
Support one another.
And if karma doesn’t get your abuser, I will.

New episode of the podcast coming soon. We’re talking about poetry and how that’s helped my healing journey. Can’t wait to share it with y’all

05/23/2024

Back at it again with another digital zine. This one’s focus is my inner child. My therapist, a few sessions ago, told me to think of my inner voice as speaking to my inner child. So whenever I’d think things like “I’m such a depressed piece of sh*t” or “I’m worthless”, I started to imagine I was saying them to myself as a child. She was innocent and she was not any of the things I was saying I was. This has resulted in a profound shift in my life and the way I speak to and about myself. I always thought I was doing enough inner child work by giving into my inner child’s wants, like buying a ps2 and Bratz Rock Angelz or keeping an army of comfort objects. But that isn’t enough. Engaging with my inner child by speaking gently to her and acknowledging how hard she worked to bring me to where I am today and bearing the burdens of my youth is doing that work to heal my inner child. Modifying tasks and going at my own pace instead of listening to the voice in my head that tells me that’s wrong is healing my inner child. I still have a long ways to go to heal but I can feel myself breaking generational curses every time I speak to my inner child and express my gratitude towards her. So, thank you little me. You were so brave, so resilient and you helped me become the person I am today. I am so so grateful for that.

05/21/2024

My first episode is sitting at 1 play so I’m taking my time to work on the second episode and write a script I’m proud of before releasing it. But I’m thinking of releasing a lil lighter episode this week before I jump back into the horrors. What do you guys think?

Also give the first episode a listen! I don’t mind talking to the void but it’d be nice if the void talked back ♥️

This podcast follows a sexual assault survivor sharing their story of trauma, healing, and advocacy.

05/15/2024

I know I’m talking this to death but inkskinned on tumblr is such a beautiful writer and put it perfectly

05/15/2024

[TW: trauma dump, r*pe, grooming]

I’m feeling some type of way about my trauma so I’m channeling it into art. Consider this a lil online zine of sorts. If you feel any type of way about the trauma that I’m sharing and want to read the full story and/or help me get justice, check my last pinned post. The story, screenshots, and call to action live there. Or you can message me and I will answer any questions directly. Thank you for reading and engaging with my story. And most importantly, thank you for caring. A little empathy goes a long way with this survivor.

05/09/2024

Here’s a collection of photos and art that help tell the story of the first episode, which is my story. I share my story not because it’s depressing and I want you to feel bad when you listen, but to show you that you aren’t alone if you’ve been through anything similar. To show you that you can walk out on the other side scarred and bruised and smiling and angry and scared and fierce and in anyway you are or want to be. Healing from sexual trauma isn’t easy but I am living proof that it’s possible. I also share more about myself to remind everyone and (most importantly) myself that I am more than just a victim or a survivor. I am not what they did to me and they did not take anything from me. I still hold power and I will wield it. And I hope you know that you do and can too.

You can listen to the first episode of the podcast here: https://open.spotify.com/episode/5XcClZoIzrrH8hCZWvO9rS?si=EdG00l1zRQajtWVXrcrXkA

Thank you ♥️

05/09/2024

05/09/2024

Update: I will be releasing it next Thursday, 5/16!

05/08/2024

Recorded the very first episode of the It Started With Emily Doe podcast this morning and will be editing after work! So stay tuned Thursday for the first episode to be released on Spotify and YouTube (channel name: It Started With Emily Doe) and I am working to get it available on other platforms as well so stay tuned!!

Episode one covers my story and a little about me! I figured it was the best place to start. Fair warning: it is heavy because I do talk about my history with sexual assault in detail, so if you can’t comfortably listen that’s okay! Just make sure to share it once it goes live!

Thank you!

05/06/2024

: "Help! I've been shot!"

"What were you wearing?"

"W-what?"

"You weren't wearing a bullet proof vest? You must've wanted to get shot."

Graphic by ❤️

05/06/2024

This man claims to be progressive and this does not sit well with me. After reading that first post I went to his page and read that he is an “activist for progressive values” so I thought maybe, just maybe, that first post was in jest but nope. He bold faced posted that second post where he basically says all of us who are angry at him for saying men “just want to impregnate you” and to “take the compliment” are stupid. Then in the next post he goes onto apologize to r*pe victims because he doesn’t view the men who perpetrated those crimes as men. Well, Stephen, just because you don’t see them as men doesn’t mean that aren’t still men. And how are we, as women, supposed to tell the difference between a man and a perpetrator. We do not brand perpetrators or make them wear signs that say “do not approach, I’m a r*pist” and when statistically only 25 out of every 1000 perpetrators will end up in prison and every 68 seconds someone (primarily women or female presenting people) is r***d in this country. So yes, we choose the bear. We fear men more than bears because bears will simply kill us, or maybe not. But men are statically very likely to assault us, to torture us physically and emotionally, to keep us just barely alive and suffering before killing us. And even if they don’t, we are then left with a very daunting and difficult aftermath of that trauma that requires the rest of our lifetime and lots of therapy (which is expensive btw) to heal from and that’s not even factoring in going to the police, which can be equally as traumatizing (I would know, I’ve done it). All of this is why women choose the bear. And maybe instead of being so offended over it, actually listen to women instead of assuming we’re all stupid for fearing for our lives from a very real threat. Educate yourself on why we’re so afraid and then use your activism to help educate other men. Be an actual ally.

So as an actual r*pe survivor, I do NOT forgive you. Not unless you do the work.