06/23/2025
If you had asked me 15 years ago where I thought I would be in my early 30s, "struggling as a working parent, ranching full-time and also trying to fulfill my rodeo dreams" would not have been my first answer.
Honestly, when I was a sophomore in college on the Fort Scott Community College Rodeo Team, I would’ve told you that my future held a career in agriculture, cutting necks (roping) and cashing checks. Trying to fit in 20 minutes of "me time" to ride my horse and doing the majority of my competing in a three month timespan is not the situation I spent hours dreaming or journaling about. In fact, I never thought I would have children, because I never saw myself as a mom or desired to be a one while growing up. Well, we all know the saying about showing God your plans - He laughs!
Life as a working mom, wife, rancher and cowgirl is not glamorous. **Life as a mom, in general, is not glamorous.** Go 12 miles past 'hard,' take a left and drive another 982 miles to 'exhausted' and you'll have a good start on what motherhood is like. And yet, despite its difficulty, I know there are millions of women going through it every day - putting their heads down and getting it done every day to make sure that their family is happy, healthy and as well-off as can be. And wowza, they do a helluva a job conquering the world and raising their littles.
There is quite literally nothing a mom cannot handle:
- Moms are the ultimate all-around competitor. They are the perfect picture of strength, grace, resiliency, inspiration, and more love that is possibly imaginable all while doing all the things, thinking of all the tasks and taking care of all the babies.
- Help their children and family through grief, while suffering debilitating loss? Moms can do that.
- Put their dreams on hold to build a career and a family? Yep, mamas do that ish all the time.
- Get blindsided by cancer diagnosis but continue to rock their career and motherhood? You better believe mamas can handle that [multiple moms in my life are doing this right now and they are strong and inspiring beyond all belief].
From rodeoing solo with a kid in tow to navigating the trials of motherhood amid life's winding road, there is no measuring stick to gauge a mother's love and tenacity. As one of my favorite Bible verses says, "She is clothed in strength and dignity and laughs without fear of the future." - Proverbs 31:25. We don't have time to sweat the small stuff, mamas, we have arrows to raise.
Because it's brain-exploding hard, yes. But also, oh-so-worth it.
- It's worth it when your daughter can't wait to get to the rodeo so she can ride in the "gand entwy" with you.
- It's worth it when she looks up at you with quarters in her hand and says "This is for the Jesus tray. Jesus loves me."
- It's worth it when she reaches to hold your hand while you watch Robin Hood and sing "ooh-da-lolly."
- It's worth it when she runs to the chicken coop to collect eggs because she's inherited a love of livestock.
- It's worth it when she squeezes your neck and says "You are the mostest mama. I love you to the moon and stars and mostest my heart ever."
Despite the tears and drama and stress and tears and frustration and white hair and loss of bladder control and did I mention tears? It's worth it. All of it. We were chosen for a reason.
Nineteen-year-old me would probably not be very impressed with the current version of me. And I'm not really sure how proud of me I am right now. But I honestly hope that 39-year-old version me is proud in 2025. More importantly, I hope that when my daughter is my age she knows that I have no regrets...and that I'd do it all the same way again if I had the chance. Because I'm a mama; HER mama.
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This was originally written in 2020, when I was 34 and had one daughter. Five years later, I am now 39 years old with TWO daughters and I know that younger version of me would be proud. I'm now rodeoing with two daughters, self-employed, have more time and financial freedom and am still chasing my rodeo dreams on a higher level. I'm living my prayers and dreams, y'all, and there's no feeling like it.
In 2030, I hope 44-year-old Buzzard is stronger, wiser and successful so she can be a role model for her daughters.
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Originally shared on Buzzard's Beat by Brandi Buzzard