12/31/2025
His favorite was Cardigan. He changed it slightly, made it slower, added a few runs, shifted the melody in the chorus to fit his lower register. It wasn't better exactly, just different. His version, a version that spoke to what it felt like to be forgotten, to be someone's cardigan buried in the back of a closet.
On a Tuesday morning in October 2024, Marcus was in his usual spot singing Cardigan for maybe the thousandth time. It was 8:47 a.m. He'd made $6.32 so far. Not great, but it was early. That's when he noticed someone stop. People stopped sometimes, but they kept moving. After a few seconds, this person stayed.
Marcus kept his eyes closed when he sang. It helped him focus, helped him pretend he wasn't singing in a dirty subway tunnel, so he didn't see who it was, but he felt them there standing just outside the natural circle that people kept around street performers. He finished the song. When he opened his eyes, there was a woman standing about 10 ft away, baseball cap pulled low, oversized sunglasses, despite being underground, wearing jeans and a plain black hoodie.
She looked like she was trying very hard not to be noticed. "That was beautiful," she said, a voice slightly muffled behind a scarf. Thanks," Marcus said, not making eye contact. He'd learned not to engage too much. Sometimes people wanted to talk, and talking led to questions he didn't want to answer. Can I make a request, the woman asked, Marcus shrugged.
"Sure, if I know it, Cardigan," she said. "But can you sing it the way you just did? Not the original version. your version. Marcus looked up confused. That was Cardigan. I know, she said. And there was something in her voice. Amusement. Recognition. I meant Can you sing it again? Exactly like that. Okay. Marcus picked up his guitar again.
This was weird, but weird was better than being ignored. He started playing. The woman pulled out her phone and started recording. Marcus almost stopped. He hated being recorded. Hated the thought of ending up on Tik Tok as someone's look at this homeless kid charity p**n. But she'd asked nicely and maybe she'd tip well if he let her film, so he kept singing. His favorite was Cardigan.
He changed it slightly, made it slower, added a few runs, shifted the melody in the chorus to fit his lower register. It wasn't better. Exactly. Just different. His version, a version that spoke to what it felt like to be forgotten, to be someone's cardigan buried in the back of a closet.
On a Tuesday morning in October 2024, Marcus was in his usual spot singing Cardigan for maybe the thousandth time. It was 8:47 a.m. He'd made $6.32 so far. Not great, but it was early. That's when he noticed someone stop. People stopped sometimes, but they kept moving. After a few seconds, this person stayed.
Marcus kept his eyes closed when he sang. It helped him focus, helped him pretend he wasn't singing in a dirty subway tunnel, so he didn't see who it was, but he felt them there standing just outside the natural circle that people kept around street performers. He finished the song. When he opened his eyes, there was a woman standing about 10 ft away, baseball cap pulled low, oversized sunglasses, despite being underground, wearing jeans and a plain black hoodie.
She looked like she was trying very hard not to be noticed. "That was beautiful," she said, a voice slightly muffled behind a scarf. Thanks," Marcus said, not making eye contact. He'd learned not to engage too much. "Sometimes people wanted to talk, and talking led to questions he didn't want to answer. Can I make a request?" The woman asked, Marcus shrugged.
"Sure, if I know it, Cardigan," she said. "But can you sing it the way you just did? Not the original version. your version. Marcus looked up confused. That was Cardigan. I know, she said. And there was something in her voice. Amusement. Recognition. I meant, can you sing it again? Exactly like that. Okay. Marcus picked up his guitar again.
This was weird, but weird was better than being ignored. He started playing. The woman pulled out her phone and started recording. Marcus almost stopped. He hated being recorded. Hated the thought of ending up on Tik Tok as someone's look at this homeless kid charity p**n. But she'd asked nicely and maybe she'd tip well if he let her film.
So he kept singing. He poured everything into it. All the nights sleeping on cold platforms. All the hunger, the exhaustion, the bone deep loneliness of being 17 years old with no one in the world who cared if you lived or died. He sang about being someone's cardigan, about being put away and forgotten, about wanting to be chosen again.
When he finished, there were tears on his face. There were also tears on the woman's face, visible even behind the sunglasses. She walked closer, reached into her bag. Marcus tensed. You learned to be careful when people got too close, but she just pulled out her wallet. She took out several bills and dropped them in his guitar case. Marcus glanced downand his heart stopped.
There were $300 bills in his case. That's Marcus couldn't finish the sentence. $300 was two weeks of food, a new pair of shoes, a month of subway fair if he actually paid instead of jumping turn styles. You changed the bridge, the woman said, still standing there. The melody in the bridge where you go down instead of up. That's brilliant.
Where'd you learn to do that? Marcus was too shocked about the money to process the question. I just I don't know. It felt right. What's your name? She asked. Marcus. I need to tell you something. She reached up and took off her sunglasses. Then her baseball cap. Marcus's brain shortcircuited. Taylor Swift was standing in front of him in the Times Square subway station. I'm She started....
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