09/07/2024
Life sentence/Death Sentence?
When you hear the words (in not so many words) you are terminally ill. You have cancer in most of your vital organs... It has spread from your breast....
Go home to die, there is nothing we can do!
There is an impending doom that suddenly attacks your mind and life. Everyone that love you feels it too.
I am a Pastor, I preach faith in God alone and I preach it hard! I teach it, it is demonstrated in our services!
Because I learned it well. I learned to trust the God in who I preach and in whom I believe! I learned in many trials in this life that HE alone was the only one who will stand by you, stand firm beside you and raise you up out of the ashes. I learned that HE alone is our healer! He makes the blind to see, the deaf to hear, and lame to walk. NOT just in the BIBLE! TODAY! and FOREVER!!!!!!
My own daddy seen out of blind eyes, my own daughter hears out of a deaf ear! I have seen God take someone out of the hospice bed and within 3 days, they were walking out of the hospital, whole, healed, delivered from drugs, and set free from homosexuality.
I know what God can and will do!
Yet, this day.... this was a time of either putting my faith to the test, stretching it to the limits or laying down and excepting what the enemy and Dr's had just said. I am not saying the Dr was the enemy, he was doing his job! He done it well. He was a wonderful christian Dr.... but the enemy wanted me to believe there was nothing to do! My life was over!
I wont lie - it took about a week or so to not roll around in self pity, pity for my kids, the love of my life, and my friends and family... our church family!
You see, God set me up ahead of all of this and I couldn't even see it. I was blinded by my own pain.
1. I had a church family, friends, my family that aren't quitters when it comes to praying for others.
2. I had been given a job that let me have time off to sort things out and then placed me on desk duty for now. All my coworkers have gathered together to do the job I am unable to do rt now. I make the money to pay all my bills and still help others!
3. God gave me a Dr who is a christian and he made sure I owe nothing to the hospital.
4. In June God brought a dear friend of mine back into my life.... We have been friends for 34 years and counting. We have been in and out of each others lives since. Mark has stood right beside me, when no one else knew what to do... he did. He called me, prayed for me, every time I had a severe pain, he called out to Jesus. He has been my drill sergeant too...lol - he made me get up! He said this is not who God created you to be - nor who you are! You are just going to lay down like that? NO! get up and fight! You are a warrior - you are a fighter! NOW get up and trust God! You would do it for any one else.... NOW fight for you! He has taken communion with me every morning the past week and prayed - He has made sure I drink my 80 oz of water a day - made sure I ate all the right foods - and made sure I took my vitamins! Did I mention, he has prayed his heart out for me? Just like many others but he has his heart invested. During the past 4 months God has given us a love for each other that we never (only dreamed of) existed. I never knew someone could or would love me like that or that I could ever love like this. I needed Mark's love through this and God provided. Now, the real kicker is.... we had an affair in 1990, I had a daughter December of 1990. Since I was married at the time, I never thought that my baby girl was also Mark's baby girl. After testing, she is his! Some may look down on this because of an affair - I don't care! Yes, were we wrong? In so many ways.... but 33 years later.... the healing that came to us all 3 of us was something that you can't make up - even in the best - craziest novel.
You see - God knows what we need - He knows what will we need! He is the original time traveler! He can see the beginning from the end. He knew!
He knows your name too! No matter what you are facing today - know that HE is right there! He set you up in so many ways! He has a plan! He has a purpose for it all!
TRUST HIM!!!!!
I am trusting and believing MY GOD for MY healing! I am getting better every day! I even rode a bike today and didn't ware out to bad at all. I ate 3 times what over the past two weeks have been able to eat! I am the healed of the LORD.
Thank you for all the prayers - food - uplifting videos - and love that has been shown to me! I love you all.
