01/12/2024
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It seems as if I blinked and the entire year passed me by. I remember starting this page and YouTube channel with high hopes and even higher expectations. Life threw me some curve balls. Some of them took me out for an inning or two (that's baseball analogy ⚾️😉). But I'm still in the game!!
Throughout the past year, as I walked through some trials, I would hear myself say: 𝙄𝙩'𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙢𝙚, 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙃𝙞𝙢.
Man, it's hard to remember "it's not about me" when I'm struggling with sickness and chronic health conditions that leave me imbolized at times 🙄. I want to shove that saying down someone's throat in that moment. Especially when it comes out of my mouth 🥴. Because saying it does not make me feel better in the moment. 𝙋𝙧𝙖𝙮𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨. And I do feel better after that. 🙏🏼😊
However, there are those moments when I'm empty and I need to be filled and just saying "it's not about me, it's about Him" doesn't make it better. Honestly, in that moment it just sounds and feels hollow.
There is a beautiful upside to it all. God understands. He loves us in our emptiness. He REALLY loves us in our emptiness. Why? Because in those moments, if we allow Him, He can fill us with all of Himself because He now has an empty container.
I am beginning to embrace, although not gracefully at times, the beauty of emptiness. There is purpose behind the withdrawals. God cannot fill an already overflowing vessel. He can only use one that has been emptied. Jesus wants to empty us of all the burdens we carry. Empty us of the resentment, bitterness, unforgiveness, frustration, unresolved anger and unmet expectations we placed on others. Sometimes the weariness we feel is because we are carrying "stuff" that we were never meant to carry, all because we want to control the outcome. When we should be running 🏃🏻♀️ to give it all to Him so we can be free. 🙌🏼
Is there any "stuff" from 2023 you need to give to Jesus so you can be emptied, then ready to be filled with His love, forgiveness, compassion, mercy and joy?
Let's make 2024 the year of emptiness. Who's with me?? 🩷