04/13/2023
These are Cameronâs words, shared with permissionâ¤ď¸
*Please know that this is not a story to tell about me, but to glorify God. He is the only one who can, and has saved my life forever. âIf it seems we are crazy, it is to bring glory to God. And if we are in our right minds, it is for your benefitâ (2 Corinthians 5:13)
My name is Cameron. My maiden name is Sadler but just recently (April 6th 2023) I got married! So now Iâm Obando. I was born in Farmington Missouri but I havenât lived there much. I moved around a lot, especially as a child. My fatherâs name is Cory Sadler, who with his permission I will tell you about. My dad used to struggle with drug addiction. Mostly alcohol and opiates, but dabbled in other things like m**h, he**in and other pills. He has been clean from hard substances and alcoholism since 2013 and has since been saved as well. He will eventually be telling more of his story on his own. My mom, who I canât touch much on, has struggled with mental illness from her teenage years due to her dad passing. These traumas have snowballed for the devil to use, and it became detrimental.
Around 8 years old I was âformallyâ introduced to Jesus. My mom introduced me while we were sitting on the couch, and not long after I was âsavedâ and baptized. Now, I still struggle with whether or not that was really the day that I was saved due to the fact that I was so young and I didnât truly understand what that meant. But regardless, I can still see now that God was with me, even because of the seed that my mother planted. Unfortunately because of some pretty traumatizing life events and my own fault, I did not grow up in faith. I did not care about God consistently, in fact I eventually ended up hating him. I went through sexual, emotional, and verbal abuse. I will take this chance to warn everyone who has been through these things that there is MORE than likely evil spirits attached to you from it. I am able to say this without caring whether or not you think Iâm crazy, because I have been through it. By the time I was nearing the end of my teenage years, I had said and done some extremely horrible things. Iâm going to be honest about some of these things, so just a fair warning if you are easily upset or still struggle with trauma, self harm or suicidal thoughts continue at your own risk.
At 14, I had told my mother due to extremely hateful feelings and resentment towards our situation, that I would rather âSlit my wrists open in front of her than to continue living with herâ....From that day on the extreme hatred sat with me, for years...and years...and years. There were MUCH more things said and done after that day, but I can tell you for a fact that was when som**hing evil entered me, and by me I mean my soul.
By the time I was 18, I felt such extreme guilt that I was again suicidal, had extreme rage issues, mood swings, and paranoia. I was jumping between religions, walks of life, anything to get some sense of relief. But at the end of the day I was the same person. And I made the same mistakes over and over no matter how much I didnât want to and tried not to. I went from being 11 diagnosed with general depression and anxiety, to 19 years old on the road to a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). For anyone who doesnât know what that is, it is a mental disorder characterized by unstable moods, behavior and relationships. Bpd consists of an unstable sense of self (whether it be hatred or grandiose), abandonment issues, impulsive decisions, explosive anger and EXTREME mood swings. I have, and will always describe it as the feeling that someone else that you hate is living in your head, but itâs you. You donât want it to be you, you donât know why itâs you, but itâs you. It feels uncontrollable. I want to tread somewhat lightly on this as to not make anyoneâs emotions feel invalid, but if you are not a Christian who is struggling with these things, please understand that you are going through a demonic attack; âFor we are not fighting against flesh and blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil rulers in unseen placesâ (Ephesians 6:12). You are most likely angry, or doubtful of Godâs existence, but I struggled with these things for a very long time and no amount of drugs, or crystals, or health books, medicine, rituals, or food helped. NOTHING except Jesus. This is not a story of âmeâ, this is a story of how Jesus changed me.
In March of this year (2023), my dad invited me to his church and honestly out of pure desperation I went. It took one service. That night, I had to do a self deliverance. For anyone who doesnât know what a deliverance is, it is a rescue from bo***ge, danger, evil spirits or any stronghold on your life. Again I donât have room to care if anyone thinks I am crazy, but this was NOT rainbows and sunshine. It was not an immediate âI can see clearly nowâ. It was an entire night of physical and mental pain. There were things fighting to stay and fighting to leave. I was nauseous, I had a migraine, I had abdominal pain. I canât fully tell you what all of this means. I can tell you it was not fun, and it had to happen. The next morning all of this pain had gone away. Even the thoughts that I would normally wake up to were gone. I immediately opened my Bible in another desperate attempt of confirmation that God had just freed me, and the first verses I laid my eyes on were âI lay down and slept, yet I woke up in safety, for the Lord was watching over me. I am not afraid of ten thousand enemies who surround me on every sideâ Psalms 3:5-6. Aaaand boom goes the dynamite. So obviously I broke down because I immediately knew. From then on I started going to church. Everything I needed to know kept piling on. Every service felt like God was staring at me. I started having pieces picked up FOR ME...BY GOD. The honor I felt for having Godâs attention was insane to me. It still happens every day. For anyone out there who happens to come across this and is not yet saved, look at what Jesus did for me. HE saved ME. And he is here to save YOU too. Not only is he waiting for you to knock at the door, he is waiting for you to bash it in! You are not too far gone. You donât clean yourself off and THEN come to him. You go to him and HE cleans YOU. Sorry, I got carried away.
It has only been about 2 months since all this happened. I feel like a baby, yet I feel like everything Iâve missed out on has been dropping at my feet. I no longer suffer from even a fraction of the thoughts I used to. I still have habits to break as we all do, but I walk around with no more rage, no more anxiety, no more guilt, and no more regret. I honestly look back in disgust at who I was before. I still face the consequences occasionally on earth, but in Jesusâ eyes I am new, and you will be too the moment you come to him. I gave every single deadly habit and evil spirit at His feet and He immediately took it and crushed it into dust. I can say with full confidence that if someone from my past were to say that I am still the same, I would tell them âjust watchâ. Jesusâ will save you from sin, bo***ge, evil, guilt, shame, depression, anger, drugs, witchcraft, sexual immorality and trauma, anything you can possibly name that keeps you from Him will be GONE.
So, I went from a girl who was a satanist, did witchcraft, was addicted to p**n, drank any time I felt like it, cried herself to sleep on a regular basis, raged at anyone, I was a thief, constantly stole out of paranoia that I wouldnât have what I needed otherwise, went through demonic oppression for about 11 years...then Jesus came and all of it...gone. It took enough faith just to walk into a church. Just enough. There is no presentable way to come to Jesus. There is no need for excuses, or explanations, there is no need to look âprettyâ, or to even have anyone on your side. Everyone in the world could hate you, and Jesus wouldnât. If you have even a GRAIN of desperation or willingness, go to him now. It does not matter where you are or what youâre doing, he is there and he is listening. Give him your struggle, give him your heart, lay your life down like an open book and tell him you are ready for change. He will be your family forever. Please donât forget that relationships require effort. Keep reading Godâs word so you truly get to know Jesus. Donât lose faith due to confusion. Keep seeking answers and you will get the ones you need. All it takes is you telling him âsave meâ, and that relationship has started.
âNow all glory to God, who is able to keep you from falling away and will bring you with great joy into his glorious presence without a single fault.â (Jude 1:24)
âNow all Glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.â (Ephesians 3:20)
AMEN!
