Brett’s Apraxia Story

07/06/2023

So little energy. Yes, the body does keep count.

06/22/2023

Sorry haven’t been very active on this page. Mainly been sharing my adventures on Apraxia Story

06/22/2023

It really says a lot about a society who will throw their resources towards searching for millionaires/billionaires while ignoring the pleas of the indigenous looking for those who gone missing.

06/14/2023

This sums me up after working an 8 hour shift when I did retail

Today I spent more spoons than I had.

That means tomorrow I may well wake up without energy. I might be sad. I might be short-tempered. I'll definitely be stressed.

In a perfect world tomorrow would be a resting day. That won't be possible. Too much junk to do.

I'll try and sn**ch a few restful moments when I can. And drink all the coffee in the world.

Em 🌈
AuDHD SLP

P.s. My whole take on spoon theory (created by Christine Miserandino) can be found here:

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=109385945333764&id=100087870753308

06/10/2023

From my main

Words cannot say how thankful I am right now for the temporary housing. However, I must find a place by October 7th. I’ll be starting my G0F*ndMe tomorrow

06/09/2023

Update: I am now in temporary housing. I am off the streets for now

06/07/2023

Yep

“LOVE IS NOT ALL YOU NEED.

☀️You need mutual respect.
☀️You need support.
☀️You need trust.
☀️You need boundaries.
☀️You need people to be there when it matters.
☀️You need space to grow and acceptance when you do.
☀️You need people to show their love in a way you can understand.”

- Nedra Tawwab

06/06/2023

EDIT: I am re-applying for section 8 housing in my new area

Update: I did find temporary housing yet I must keep long-term in mind. I am on the section 8 housing waiting list which may take up to 4 years

In the mean time, I cannot say where I am or where I am going for safety reasons. I may not post as many photos to keep my location on the down-low.

06/06/2023

It’s disabled not “differently-abled.”

06/04/2023

I’m learning that it is okay that not everyone will like my opinions, perspectives, thoughts and feelings. And that is okay

06/04/2023

A summer drizzle takes on a whole new meaning when you are outside.

Luckily, I was able to find temporary shelter.

06/04/2023

I WILL NOT disclose any further information, identity or details about the person I left from out of respect for their privacy.

06/04/2023

“It only takes one” act of kindness to help make someone’s day. These actions really do add up ❤️ (Red heart emoji) Even the smallest kindness can really lift a person’s mood

Today as I was leaving the hotel. Someone opened the door for me and I nearly bursted into tears. After ending up on the streets 4 days ago as of now, any glimmer of hope, support and care really goes a long way

I cannot empathize enough my appreciation towards everyone who is helping out from food, a place to stay, hotel rooms and a listening ear. You all are really making my day today!

06/04/2023

Please be weary of anyone claiming that they know how much I have in my bank account. This person is blocked from my page

06/04/2023

I use to take hot showers for granted.
I use to take warm meals for granted.
I use to take shelter for granted.
I use to take a place to sleep for granted.
I use to take clean cloths for granted.
I use to take everything for granted.

Until I didn’t know where my “next thing” would come from.

06/04/2023

I cannot thank everyone enough for your support and kindness over the last 48 hours!!!

06/03/2023

I tried starting a G0 Fund me as recommended but I am unable to get the web-page to load correctly on my phone.

06/03/2023

Thank you so much for your help ❤️

Hey everyone listen up!!

We have someone in our community, Apraxia Story Brett’s Apraxia Story, in need of mutual Aid. Yall came through for me and kept me okay, so let's see if we can do the same for them!

They are currently homeless and in need of a safe place to sleep! Please like, share, and if you can donate to their cause!

Let's make sure they are safe!

VM is Tessa-McEvoy-2

Goofy pic of my Stelly for the "rhythms" of fb.

06/02/2023

The moment you become homeless, the world looks at you in a whole different way.

06/01/2023

I am officially on the streets and it is terrifying. I did learn the importance of leaving progressively controlling situation. Yet it is a scary realization as it begins to get dark and it’s time to start looking for a bench.

06/01/2023

Thoughts and prays don’t do much when it’s your first night on the streets.

05/19/2023

It’s honestly depressing how my disabilities will most likely keep me in poverty. My Apraxia of speech often makes me not come across as serious in job interviews thus significantly reducing my chances of an acceptance letter. Don’t forget my Autisic stims adding to my “childish” demeanor. And now I have not one but two “punishing” aspects

05/17/2023

Yep

05/11/2023

Yep

RSD is a B.

05/11/2023

Depression, depression and more depression. As someone once said, “depression is like a snow storm. Sometimes you do not have the energy to shovel. Other times, you can shovel just fine. And when you don’t shovel, the snow builds up.”

Right now I mentally feel covered under a snow drift. Inside a stagnant sensation washes over me while I try figuring out what my life really means and why certain things happen.

I am honestly going through some major transitions which aren’t easy as an autistic individual who lives for predictably all while missing my cats. I find it strange how quickly my life evolved over the last year after fleeing an unhealthy situation

05/07/2023

It’s ok to grieve the life you once had.

05/03/2023

...Aaaaaaand the review was taken down....

Edit: I did remove my review

Update, as you maybe aware I left a Google review about the Colorado Neurodiversity Chamber of Commerce. It was about how one of the board members and a social worker strong-armed me into giving them my mother’s phone number.

I glimpsed over and noticed that they were in a group text with my unhealthy adoptive family even though I expressed how dangerous they are. I also added into the review that the social worker shared private information to my family without my consent

And that the social worker stated, “I know that it is an autisic thing not to give me eye-contact. Did you change your undergarments?” moments after I shared my story

At the end I added: I noted that I did their logo for free. A common occurrence as an autisic individual to get their work exploited

Now I am no longer able to find my review

05/02/2023

I would be very weary of the Colorado Neurodiversity Chamber of Commerce. One of the members and a social worker took me in after a Roomate situation didn’t work.

I was at the social worker’s place when she strong-armed me into giving her my mother’s number. (Keep in mind that my adoptive mother isn’t the emotional healthiest person).

So I agreed and give her the number. I am also Autisic and conditioned to say “yes” my entire life after hearing, “it’s all in your head. The music isn’t that loud” constantly. I also wanted to keep good status with the commerce too. Soon I discovered the social worker in a group text with a board member, my mother and herself.

I caught a glimps of a text which read, “I’m glad that Tessa is with you instead of Las Vegas Nevada (revealing my future plans along with breaking patient privacy laws)...And that Tessa will live with one of my friends.”

These two individuals also promoted the “family first” narrative along with the idea that, “conflict deepens relationships.” The social worker began mimicking my mother when it came to hygiene. “I know that it’s an Autisic thing to not give me eye-contact. Did you change your undergarments?” while she held-up a pair.

This occurred moments after I told my story. Still, I heard that I need to see both sides of the narrative rather than get all caught up in my head. They also told me that my family are the only safe people since I am Autisic

I nearly ended up living three miles away from my mother.

04/30/2023

Tonight I am proudly burning bridges after what happened over the last few days: (don’t forget the s’mores 😋)

04/30/2023

I would advise anyone to be careful of people who try pushing their agendas onto you especially when it comes to reconciling with toxic individuals. The other day I discovered that someone wasn’t who they seemed.

This particular person strong-armed me into giving her my mother’s phone number. Knowing me, as an autistic individual conditioned into subconscious saying, “yes” everything felt right. I could not bring myself to say, “no” due to the intense pleading along with the narrative, “you need to look at both sides of the story. Conflict only deepens your relationship.”

The exact same thing happened at my aunts house back in New Orleans when I heard, “the ab*se is all in your head.” At the time I instantly agreed with my aunt thinking that I would avoid conflict while increasing my likelihood of seeing a therapist

Instead, my mother forced herself into the room saying, “it’s time for an intervention,” moments after I asked to speak with a therapist. My family also noted that they knew what’s best for me and that my autism prevented me from reading the situation

Going back to the original person, they wanted me to live with one of my mother’s “safe” friends. And give up seeing myself as a victim. I soon caught myself fawning. Meaning that I happily agreed to the living situation while forgetting that toxic people often agree to boundaries to lure someone back into the relationship

During this instance, I felt extremely pressured to comply. I could not see a way out. I began to wonder if the abuse was really just in my head. And that all my good traits came from my adoptive mother

Side note: turns out it’s against the law for a social worker to disclose adult patient information with a third party including parents: exactly what this social worker did to me. She shared personal details directly to my mother