14/01/2025
๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ๐ป๐ฎ๐น ๐ผ๐ณ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ก๐ฎ๐ถ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ถ๐ฑ: ๐๐ถ๐๐๐น๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐ต ๐๐ถ๐ด๐ด๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐๐ถ๐ณ๐ฒ ๐ง๐ฎ๐ธ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฎ๐๐
By: Keziah Divine S. Gutierrez
Dear Diary,
I always wonder, why do I keep on stumbling when playing outside when I was a kid? Why do I keep on tripping on something that cause me to fall on the ground? And why do I keep having bruises while I was just having fun? I remember, it was one fine afternoon, for the first time I accidentally tripped on a rock while running from my playmates. It bled, I got scared and cried my way home to my mother. It was again a fine afternoon, I tripped again but it was for the hundred time, I didnโt cry; instead, I just wipe the dirt in my wound and continue running as if nothing happened.
Then I realized, our clumsiness when we were younger is maybe a way for us to realize that life doesnโt just revolve on happy moments. Sometimes problems strike us unexpectedly. The first time we encounter struggles in life, we might feel that we are on the edge of a cliff, just one step from falling. We seek for people to catch us and offer their hands to save us from dangerโ away from sorrow. But as we got used in tripping and tripping over, it became less painful. The wound doesnโt sting too much, it became bearable.
Dear Diary,
Why do we find it difficult to let go of something or someone? Is being alone really a big deal? When I was in elementary, it was the first day of classes, my parent drove me to school. At first, I am not comfortable of meeting new faces but since they were by my side, I could feel that I have a back to hide and rely on. But when we reached the room, they let go of my hand and walked away from me while I was desperately calling for their names. Iโve seen their shadows fade in the brightness of the light. I was left alone, my heart shattered, I never thought someone I cherish the most will leave me.
But maybe that particular experience enlightened me that in life, no one can stay forever aside from ourself. There will be a point where someone needs to walk away for us to learn to stand in our own feet. Sometimes being alone gives us a room to grow and discover ourself.
Dear Diary,
Getting what we want is probably what we always wished for. But does that mean things will work the way we planned it to be? When I was a kid, I used to go with my mom in the supermarket, not just to help her carry the grocery, it is with the ulterior motive to get what the snacks I want. With just a smile and cute charm, I instantly get it. But when I got older, things changed. Now, when I go to supermarket, I canโt just sneak my favorite snacks in the basket even if I throw tantrums in the store, my mom wouldnโt just let me have those.
That struck me that maybe the refusal is a sign that in life we will face a lot of rejections. In reality, we donโt have a genie to grant all our wishes, instead we have our own hands and perseverance that will make things work for us.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever experienced neglecting someone or something because of the thought that it will never be gone? And have you ever felt the guilt of ignoring things that once became special to us because weโve gotten used to its presence? I have.
Back then, I have this little teddy that became my companion and sleeping buddy. I never let it out of my sight. But as time passes, I grew up and my fondness of the teddy gradually faded. The teddy that used to be my sidekick became a teddy that is set aside, forgotten and unloved. I always thought it will stay in the box where I left it, but as others say, nothing stays forever. I lose that very precious thing of mine with an unknown reason but it left me a feeling of regret.
The reality then dawned on me. Thereโs a bittersweet truth about life; we overlook the most precious things, only realizing their value once theyโre gone.
P.S.
โLife is a never-ending cycle of learningโ Even the little things unexpectedly give meaningful takeaways and let us grasps that in life:
We might stumble but not crumble, we let go but we grow, we might be rejected but we will be redirected and we regret but we never forget.
To be continuedโฆโฆโฆ..