25/12/2024
HERALDING JOY | All I Want For Christmas
By Belledandy Yuan
Snow falls to the ground, lights glitter on the large Christmas tree in the square. I remember the day I found my handsome husband in this very place, the ring in my hand symbolises that—a snowflake design adorned by blue and white diamonds. I look back up towards the people in the town square, there were couples having fun in the snow, and families enjoying themselves with their kids. They all run around, having fun, but when I look at myself through a store window. I see myself alone, without my husband to keep me warm and cosy this winter season.
This is the third Christmas I won't be with him. My dear husband is away from me again, not by my side. It makes me a little disappointed for the season, yet I have no choice but to endure it because he's probably missing me too. I just wish to see him this season and tell him how much I miss him around to decorate the Christmas tree or prepare the gifts for our family and friends. I miss his home cooking and famous dishes that taste like heaven. I just wish he was here...
As I walk the town's snowy streets, I find a small store. Cosy and bright, just like the light adorning every shop and home. I look up the sign to see what store it is. It read "Antique Memoir" and had Christmas items lined up in front of its store, seeing as nothing really could go wrong from entering the warm shop. I opened the door and was greeted by the ring of the doorbell on top of the door and the shop owner.
"Welcome to Antique Memoir, a place where memories find their new home. Is this your first time here?” She greets me in her festive attire and smile. The owner seems just as beautiful as the store. It’s a truly whimsical place to be in, every corner is like a blast from the past and filled with small and large trinkets. I am in awe of how many antiques they’re able to acquire.
“Ah- yes… It is my first time in this store,” I reply, copying her smile. “I’ll only be looking around though, so don’t expect much from me.” My eyes dart from one place to another in the store, finding so many things that I find interesting. Each trinket getting better than the last.
“Oh miss, I assure you no pressure.” The girl laughs, “But we never had a customer leave this store without a bag in their hand.” She seems to fit in the store well like she was made to work in this place. Like a porcelain doll that takes care of the precious items around, every part of this antique store just keeps putting me in a state of awe. It’s so whimsical. Even the owner is whimsical.
“Then I hope I won’t be the last that comes out without a bag in hand.” I joke back, she seems to be friendly and I’m already at ease. I continue to look around, asking about every item that interests me. The owner, who I found out the name of, which is Riabelle. She’s not the owner apparently, and just takes care of the store as the owner is busy looking for more antiques to sell in the store.
Riabelle leads me up to the second floor, which they had to my surprise. More things to ask and be amazed at. She answers all my questions, not a hint of annoyance on her face. This amazes me too, either she’s good at masking her annoyance or she just loves her job, in this case, I can tell that she loves being the store’s caretaker as she tells me her own stories working here.
I find a snow globe on the shelf full of it, but it just seems so special. It had the same colours as my ring and had a couple in the middle of the globe. The man in the middle looks exactly what my husband looks like. I guess what Riabelle said about not having a customer ever leave without a bag in hand is true.
“How much is this?”
“We’ll have to check it downstairs. Come with me and we’ll check at the counter.” Riabelle replies and brings me downstairs to the counter, it had so many small drawers behind her, all labelled in cursive writing. She brings out a large logbook and starts looking for the tag on the snow globe, flipping the snow globe to look at the bottom of it. There I saw the last name. Riley. My husband’s last name.
“Excuse me, but where did the owner get this snow globe?” I ask curiously, it might have just been a coincidence but it's not bad to ask, is it?
“It came from Belarus, I was told that it was found in a small warehouse. The owner loves going to places that you don’t know existed. He just walks anywhere his feet take him, I think that’s how he got ownership of this snow globe.” Riabelle replies, shaking the snow globe to let the glitter float around and fall to the ground.
“Warehouse, huh? What an odd place to find a snow globe...” I laugh, seeing to it that it's just a coincidence. Nothing too special and besides who wouldn’t want a snow globe that looks exactly like you and your husband, might as well take it. “So how much is it?”
“Well you’re our only customer today, so I think I’ll give it to you for free.” Riabelle smiles and went to pack the snow globe, putting it in a clear plastic box and into another box larger than the plastic one, putting packing peanuts in before placing the plastic box with the snow globe inside. She ties the larger box with a classic ribbon on top, before placing it in a paper bag.
“What’s your name, dear?” She asks as she takes a letter out of one of the many drawers behind the counter.
“Why do you ask?” I raise a brow, not expecting my name to be asked.
“A certain surprise, that’s all.” Riabelle only smiles, a sly grin painting her face.
“It’s Selina Riley,” I answer.
“Selina Riley…” She repeats, writing down my name in the letter she had just taken out. Riabelle opens another drawer, grabs a navy blue envelope and seals it together with a wax seal. She places the two letters in the paper bag before handing the bag to me.
“The white envelope is the letter of authenticity, while the blue one should be for your eyes only. I mean it. Please do not let anyone, including your loved ones, see the letter inside.” She tells me, giving me a warning too.
“Why can I not let anyone see it?” I ask.
“Then your gift shall disappear.” She replies, stern with her words. I nod, promising her to not let anyone see the navy envelope.
As I leave the store, I give Riabelle one last look.
“Thank you for shopping here, Mrs. Riley, I am the caretaker of this store. My name is Riabelle, thank you for shopping here at Antique Memoirs” She exclaims, bowing down. I gave her a small bow too before leaving.
As I enter the cold streets of the town, I realize how late it was and hurried back home. I look back at the antique store and see that it was gone and replaced by a rundown shop. Was I dreaming? But the paper bag is in my hands, it must have been an illusion.
As I arrive home, I close the door and remove my shoes. My tired body immediately slumps down on the couch, grabbing the paper bag and taking the snow globe out of the multiple boxy prison it has.
With the snow globe in my hands, I shake it, letting the snow fall to remind me of a familiar scene. The time when the stranger I now call husband asked for my hand in marriage on a whim. I was attracted to the man, so I said yes immediately. It was a quick decision and even if he’s not with me every day, I have no regrets it saying yes to him.
I grab the navy blue envelope and open it, reading the letter inside.
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To my dearest wife,
I’m sure you’re disappointed and sad that I’m not at home for this season. I think we can both agree that we miss each other. I’m sorry for all the Christmas seasons that I missed with you and I hope that one day I can make it up to you under the mistletoe. I hope that you haven’t regretted the decision to marry me on a whim on Christmas Eve because I don’t and I’ll make sure of it. I hope my missus can be happy every day and in all seasons, but it seems I keep making you sad, don’t be too unhappy. All I’ve been wanting for a gift all these years was to be with you on Christmas day, I know that’s your wish too. I’ll be home before you know it, just you wait. I’ll be there by your side to keep you warm and cosy, so wait for me at home, my dear wife.
From your loving husband,
Conner.
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A letter from Conner? How were they able to get this? That’s odd… Nonetheless reassuring that he’s still alive. I hope. I married a soldier after all.
As I see the clock strike twelve, I look down at the letter and up at the picture of us two on the wall. Even with the letter, I can’t help but keep missing him. My husband. Conner Riley. Thinking that I should go to bed, I stand up from the couch to hide the letter somewhere inconspicuous and display the snow globe on our fireplace mantle.
Merry Christmas to me, I guess.
To my discontent, someone rings the doorbell at this time of the night. I sigh and check the person at the door first, before slowly opening it. My eyes widen as I realize who the person at the door is.
“Surprise, my dear wife. I’m back home.” His voice tickles my ears. He’s home. Conner’s home.
My eyes tear up, looking up at him with so much delight. I couldn’t even keep my tears from falling so I just pull him close, embracing him tight.
“I miss you,” I mutter out.
“I missed you too,” He says, returning the embrace. “Can’t have the missus be sad for the third Christmas in a row, made my Captain hurry the mission just so I can be with you.”
I smile softly at his words, my tears still falling from my eyes. Conner cups my cheek and wipes my tears with his thumb, shushing my sniffles with a soft chaste kiss on the lips. He slowly lets go of the kiss, looking me straight in the eyes with the most genuine smile I ever know.
“Merry Christmas, Mrs. Riley.”
– Fin –
Illustration by Andrea Niere