10/11/2022
I am struggling to get the courage to stream again due to outside influence and past friends that ruined my last ever stream i ended up deleting to the disgusting comments in chat, My main focus atm is my son and my new puppy Bear i dont feel there are people that would spend time to watch me atm and i dont have the courage to ask anyone to play anymore and usually just play solos and not talk to anyone so i dont know if i would talk much if i did stream, i do want to keep doing it because i loved building up a community and making new friends which is hard for me to do when living with anxiety, depression, ADHD, and also OCD and abandonment issues but i felt it was easy when streaming i am not able to fix any chemical embalances in my brain its a illness but i do thank the 2 people who still check up on me or make an effort i really miss yall but i do not have motivation or energy to put into streaming if im going to have no one there or to talk to there is really no point i love yall and im sorry i have alot of demons i have been dealing with and also not being able to stream because of moving and struggling mentally i am okay now but i still do not feel there is any point in me streaming as im not perfect at it nor do i get any assistance or help or get to talk to anyone for advice anymore, i hope everyone is doing okay too as i know everyone has their own struggles but just know i do love u guys and never stop thinking about how happy i was just vibing with you guys in chat and being there for you guys when i had the chance too x
Picture of my new addition Bear, My Hetrochromia twin
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Much love xx
From Ex Streamer Drib