30/12/2020
As we approach the end of 2021, I’m grateful to the Almighty for giving Team MLC the strength to withstand business unusual.
My plans to recentre& refocus on work early this year were thwarted, but we endured through the lockdown, as I pushed away all the nonsense that was dragging me down, to make sure that all holes were plugged in our little ship.
But there were more nonsense to deal with, which set me back, messing up my head. 1 by 1 we faced the ‘attacks’ which were either direct or very subtle.
I’ve been told that I overthink things, I make assumptions, I sit on my hands & do absolute nothing, I’m heartless, I’m unkind to others, I’m ungrateful, I’m hurtful, I’m selfish...well I’m just this horrible person.
Funny how these ‘stories’ have a way of surfacing. The world is really small.
I’m tired, exhausted because I know what I’ve faced, what’s been told to my face & some of what’s being said at the back.
The zoo is thriving, the animals are healthy, my plants are healthy, my company is healthy & I’m on track, God willing.
My depression is still ugly at times, and I’m trying to deal with it. I’m blessed with understanding clients who know what I’ve been through, yet supportive.
I’m blessed with loving family members; concerned neighbours & intelligent friends, a strong supply chain; a robust small workforce who keep the machinery at the office & home well oiled; almost daily home cooked meals for all staff; kind landlords; strangers who are good souls; I’m truly blessed.
We’re still operating in unknown territory but my mantra is “no stress”. I know how damaging It is emotionally and physically.
There are always angels to help you even when your face is being ground in the mud. For me, it was a cesspool I’ve still much crap to clean off myself, and not many want to be associated with a dirty, foul smelling creature but there are those who do...and for tha I am grateful.
There were time I was myopic, but someone handed me a telescope; there were times I was blinded but an unseen hand put a stick in my hand; there were times I was hungry & someone handed me some home cooked food...there were times I was crying, and Leonardo my cat comes & sits on my chest & insist I play a cat game video for him...there were times I was alone & ill but help came along in time to rush me to hospital.
What’s all this to do with running a business? Everything...because it starts from home not house.
Yes, I’ve been labelled a mad woman who’s life is overrun by dogs & cats. Well, these fellas kept me sane & I’ve learnt a lot from them. Yes, another borderline between sanity & insanity.
I’m spite of all this, my team achieved recognition not for 1 but 3 awards in 2020.
COVID-19 is still rearing it’s ugly head. With so much punches in my life already, I’m barely breathing.
To those who are thriving, fabulous! To those who are worried, have faith & figure out what’s best. Ask for help, at the right places, not randomly.
A vidanthist told me this when I was in my early 20s...
Our life is a train ride, with stops where people get on & off. Some have shorter rides, some longer. Some ride with you to the end of the track.
God bless your lives & homes. Cherish life as we all enter 2021 with hope, a little more enlightened & a spring in our step. 💜❤️💜