DeeDot90

05/07/2024

This isn't something I would normally do but I am feeling that good and positive about myself lately that I am ready to share why I have been missing from social networking and posting alot less on my personal page.

The pictures you see are just over 1 and a half years apart... no bull s**t I cried when I see these.

I let all my past trauma and emotions take a hold of me and It dictated how I lived my life, my head was a mess, self confidence had faded. I didn't confront the issues. I lost myself to a point where I didn't even know who I was anymore...I hid away because my past and my head left me feeling worthless, no good for anything. That there wasn't a place for me in this world. I didn't matter. I gave up it's as simple as that.

But I did something in the hope that I could help people and make sure no one ever felt like I did, give them support and a place to forget about the real world.

I started streaming and put everything in to it and helped alot of people along the way, I am very very proud of that..I actually did something that took off and made a difference to people lives in a positive way, even when people said I would never make anything of it...I did it tho 😜

The fact is, it wasn't just a place I was giving others to hide from the world...I was hiding from the world and how I felt behind closed doors. Where nobody could see.
I was 100% genuine when I wanted to help people but I also factor in that it made me feel better about myself too, when I can help someone flip a mind set and start to think positive again was an amazing feeling and still is to this day.

But in hiding in the world I had created for me and others I lost myself to a point you can see in these pictures, I am poorly as f**k and it shatters my soul to see it.

What you see in one of the pictures is 5 years of me neglecting myself, my mind set and forgot about selfcare i had destroyed myself. The happy bubbly lad that I Once Was had gone in what seemed like a blink of an eye.

Changes needed to be made big time and I knew it.
I decided to stop streaming and take time for myself and confront my past issues and hand on heart it was one of the hardest things I have ever done. It's not a physical thing it's a mental thing and it required a strength that I didn't think I had.

What I am trying to say, look at how bad I was you can see it. Please don't ever run from things and hide away like me.

Take time for you! And yeah not everyone will understand the things you have to do on your healing process and that's ok.

As long as you keep pushing to understand your self and find the spark that was once there, then you are winning!

I am lucky to have a great family, friends and an amazing girlfriend that have all stuck with me at my lowest ever.

The changes I made, as you can see are good changes. Its paid off and I am at the rebuilding stage of my life. I feel absolutely amazing about my future. I am actually starting to like who I am and owning that s**t💪😜

It's not all sun shine and rainbows by any means, but I am happy.

I hope people that know me and have wondered where I have gone can read this and understand why I had to stop streaming, it just had to be done.
The pictures don't lie.

To my followers on my page...I appreciate you all so much and I am grateful for the time spent with you all, building an awesome community together.
Thank you.
Take care of your mind, its your greatest tool.

30/06/2024

Hi everyone, one of own Paul Blomstrom aka Mr Vegas has fallen really ill and is in hospital, i am going to post his just giving page set up by his friends and family. please if anyone can help then it would mean a lot to him and his family. we wish him a speedy recovery and sending love to his family ❤
https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-pauls-fight-and-road-to-recovery?lang=en_US&utm_campaign=fp_sharesheet&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=facebook&fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTAAAR1HfI7fZ2tjKn98rOrbrZhnD_P1lVzls4WYt20BVdy0ugS258IBUYjZPkc_aem_lbpjpnymw8APtRS_tMW3og

On June 6th, Paul was taken by ambulance to Summerlin hospital in Las Vegas where… Kim Larson needs your support for Support Paul's Fight and Road to Recovery

28/04/2024

Thinking about jumping on a bit of warzone tonight since I haven't been live in a while. Let's see if this post can spark enough reactions to get me on 🤪

25/03/2024

I AM BACK TONIGHT WITH A OPEN LOBBY ENDURO RACING!
Starting at Nurbg with a 8 lap race, think you have what it takes to take podium? Let's find out tonight! ALL WELCOME

15/03/2024

Back tonight...coms on final race of GTR championship and a open lobby to follow..so suit up and let's race!

13/03/2024

this is what's wrong with Facebook Facebook Gaming Live no wonder people are jumping ship, when is this going to stop? i have disputed every one and every one they have accepted. but yet it will probs still affect the pages reach. i need my OG'S to smash the reaction button and share buttons when can to try and grow my reach again. unless someone puts a claim in on this post 🤣

12/03/2024

Just want to take the time to apologise about last night's stream, it went down with 15mins of race left and I was chasing 3rd so I couldn't pause to restart the stream...but it was sooo close I just stole 3rd from DDR IT43 on the line as he ran out of fuel!! I saved the replay so expect me to do a coms to cover what looked like a epic race! Hope you all have a great day and keep a eye out for the coms ✨️

07/03/2024

Good morning everyone...so had an idea in my head for ages and want to get the opinion...I have had in my head since I started streaming about a podcast..this is why my page isn't DeeDot gaming...I want to branch out. It will be about everyday life everyday problems relationship issues and anything and everything that the world has to offer us today. With a chance of bringing people in on the podcast...it won't be the silly Deedot you see on stream but a Deedot that will get to the root of things...please let me know what you think and if you would jump in stream if inwent live with a podcast..many more ideas to come but this one I want to really get going. Hope you all have a great day 🙌

04/03/2024

Just want to say thank you all for coming in last night and showing support....we are back again tonight in the DMJ LWR WPR GTR event and would love to see you all pushing me to a podium 👌 see you all there hopefully

03/03/2024

I haven't had a open lobby night in a while, smash those reactions if you think I should tonight.
Also leave a comment and let me know what car we should run for a 1 make race if we do open a lobby 👌 hope everyone is well and you haven't missed me too much 😉

21/02/2024

Maybe if people weren't too far up their own rear ends or have their heads buried in the sand of oblivion and took the time to understand instead of judging, thinking it won’t happen to them because they think they have the ‘perfect family’, then life will be that bit easier for people who experience this.
This rings very close to home for me.
Not only myself but for family and friends.
The days of “it” being shut away and not talked about or even criticised should be over.
Yes, there are some that milk the system and others that don't know or understand how much help there is available.
Then you get the ones that want nothing more than to be "rid" of the shadow.
Unfortunately for most of us, it’s only in the most difficult moments of life you realise who are your true friends and the people who really appreciate you are.
It is also very unfortunate, most friends will send you a "like", but in reality they do not actually take the time to read your status if they see it's lengthy.
More than half will stop reading right here, or have already scrolled on to the next post in their feed.
I'm posting for anyone who has a friend or family member suffering a terrible mental illness and now I'm watching the ones who will have the time to read this post until the end.
This is a little test, just to see who reads, and who shares without reading.
If you have read everything so far, select "like" so I can put a thank you in your profile because ‘Mental Health Awareness’ is needed, just because you can not see it, doesn’t mean it’s not there.
People ARE suffering and even dying as a result of ‘Mental Health’ issues. This is real, it’s insidious and people need help.
Maybe it will even strike up a conversation with someone that wouldn't normally talk to you because they don't know how to broach the subject and this becomes their way to reach out.
Please, in honour of a family member or a friend who is suffering or has passed away from ‘Mental Health’, copy and paste this entire message on your page and also try to spare a little of your time with someone who may just want to talk (about anything).
Talking can help someone to cope a little more with their situation, keeping it bottled up just makes it worse.
Most people say, "If you need anything, don't hesitate to call me, I'll be there to help you". Yeh whatever heard that many a time ....at least I'm 1 of the genuine ones who will check in on people..
So, I'm going to make a bet that most who saw this post (maybe even read all the way to the end) won't, but I believe a select few of my friends will post this, to show their support for their family/friend who may be struggling.
Please just copy (not share) and paste.
I'd like to know who I can count on to take a minute out of their day and actually read my status then write "done" in the comments.
Thank you 💙🩵❤️

24/01/2024

Thanks for being a top engager and making it on to my weekly engagement list! 🎉 Deivid Matias, Scott Dobson, Jack Jones, Gordon Stroud, Derrick Noland, Sean Doyle, Keithy P*e, John Grayson, Shaun Harrison, Jay Delderfield, Mark Webb, Jason Warner

08/01/2024

VroomRoom Gaming is live jump in chat say hi 👋 doing dailies 👌

29/12/2023

Guess who is back for the night!
We will be live doing a charity event with DDR and many more teams...would love to see you all in and doing our bit to support the charity...links and everything will be put in stream tonight and would love all the support we can get. Let's do our bit..see you all later 🙌

25/12/2023

Would like to take the time to wish everyone across the globe a very Merry Christmas from the Dot House. We wish you nothing but good vibes and energy going in to the new year. Keep been awesome and I'll see you all soon for the charity event 🙌

22/12/2023

Let's go!

09/12/2023

Announcement post
It's been a long road streaming on Facebook with loads of ups and downs and have met some amazing people and streamers along the way, but after a long hard think about things and my personal life been a dad it's now come to a time to walk away from streaming. I have had one hell of a ride and smashed every goal along the way. I can leave with my head held high knowing I have created an awesome community that will continue to grow even when DeeDot is no more 🙌.
I am very greatful for all the support shown by 1000s of people along the way, with out you all I wouldn't have smashed every goal set. You have shown me good people do exist out there and have helped me see the good in people.
I will still be about popping in to streams as my personal profile when I can but the time for DeeDot to hang his keyboard up has come. I love you all and I will never forget this journey ❤️
Remember to stay strong, stay positive and never keep anything in, always speak up. You are not alone ❤️
Much love much respect
DeeDot90 over and out for the last time ❤️

09/12/2023

If you lose motivation then stay consistent
Consistency will bring back motivation every time.