28/11/2024
Today, my heart is heavy.
Even though Liam wasnât discovered until the 29th, deep in my heart, I know today was the day he decided he could no longer stay in this world. The pain he carried became unbearable, and he made a decision that has left so many of us shattered.
One year ago, I couldnât have imagined how Iâd feel when this day came. Somehow, itâs been a year, but the grief is as raw as it was that day. Iâve tried to keep myself busy, but I find myself frozen, revisiting that moment, trying to make sense of something that will never truly make sense. I still catch myself wishing it wasnât true, struggling with the weight of the pain he enduredâa pain so overwhelming that this was the only solution he could see.
Liam, like me, was determined and solution-focused. He wanted to fix everything because thatâs how his mind worked. But the cruelest part is that he couldnât fix the pain he was going through. That thought has tortured me endlessly, and I know it has for so many others who loved him. The endless âwhat ifsâ play on repeat in my mind, and I know they do for you too.
Iâm so grateful to all of you who have reached out with kind words, messages, and love. It truly means more than you know. Thank you for holding space for me, for Liam, and for this journey I never wanted to be on.
If I can ask for one thing today, itâs to hold your loved ones close and never stop checking in on each other. Letâs all keep reminding ourselves and each other that weâre never alone.
Sending love to you all.
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