10/05/2024
Heute mal ein Beitrag in Englisch... Ihr habt alle google translate, falls das ein Thema sein sollte. Es geht erst um einen inspirierenden Künstler, danach um meine eigene Story. Ein selten langer, persönlicher Text. Ich hoffe er kann jemanden, außer mir selbst, bei etwas helfen.🍀
Warum in english?! Ich habe keine Ahnung!
Lasst euch darauf ein und habt hoffentlich
eine gute Zeit.✌️
!!Trigger warning!!
This new series does something weird to me.
Feeling like, there is still something important to do here. His story, explained by himself is a hard one.
But its more the way he's telling the Storys.
At the end of every Video there is a song ❤
There are 8Vids at the moment.
Ren got this 2nd Channel beside his bigger channel, where the hits we're released.
Ren is an artist from the UK. Sounding Something between Oldschool Hiphop and Pop Rock.
The story telling ist pretty hard, but If you're stable and comfortable rn, give it a try.
If not, there will be other ways, to get you. This ist just what i wanted to do, after listening to some of his stories. Give it to people, whom it may concerns and maybe could help in life. I hope so.
Found him just a few months ago, suggested by the YT algorythm. Didnt know, what to think about him and his music then, but now.... I'm pretty Sure it has something to do with this time here and now.
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Now its my turn
People like me walked through their lifes, without knowing what it is, that makes us so different. Why we dont feel home anywhere. It is part of life to get through trauma and overpass deep valleys and high cliffs. There is nothing in this life, that gave me more motivation, than doin several kinds of arts.
Drawing, writing, Rap and singing, producing and even buildung Blocks. All this has a really therapeutic aspect to me.
When i was younger, i did not feel right, did not feel loved or accepted. (Exept from animals... Animals allways used to be nice 💗) And wenn i got in the mid 20ies i went from the silent,calm and sometimes to cheeky boy, to an allways-under-power-guy and i never knew, where to put all this energy.
This Phase went on till 2021. Then there was a break... I had a depressing phase, starting by realizing, that i need Money , a Job and a way out of all the madness corona and politics gave us.
I cut down most of the acquaintances i made, even friendships where very rare outlived at this time.
It took me nearly a year and Lot of being alone, to get back on my feet. My girlfriend and a small handful of friends helped me geting through all this.
But there is more.... I still wanna smoke and drink more than i should sometimes. I still not feel right and being on the right planet.
I'm searching for a new, meaningful Work,... Again....
Like over 10 times in the last 15 years.
I dont want to be a big star, with millions of people listening and expecting something...
I dont want to work for a company without soul ether.
I dont want to blame anybody or myself for anything.
I dont want to waste all of the time i still got.
I want to make a difference. Whatever this means.
I think it's time, to put all these things and understandings in art. To get it somewhere, where it can help. Myself and everybody needs some help sometimes.
If you meet your best friends, or family or even somebody new... Allways be kind, dont expect everything to flow easily. Dont blame anybody. Do the best you can to stay comfortable. And guess what?! All your friends do the Same, every day.
Everyone has his own inner fights and conflicts. Respect that!
Try your best. If it's not "enough"
(whatever enough means !) .... Try again later.
Like a game. Take a breath, take a break. And then light up like a f...ing easter-fire at night.
When its dark , there is also light. Stay open to see it.
We'll going nowhere, .... Till we accept who we are. Dailly, period.... Take your time.
You are loved.
Stay safe
All the best, to you...
you'll hear from me soon again.
Gunnar
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