01/29/2025
I was just off work, and the first thing my son wanted was to go to the store, there was something he needed.
‘I’ll be quick Mom’.
The last thing I felt like doing was going to a store.
I had a lot to do.
But in the car we go.
I stayed in the car, and he went in to get his item ‘real quick’.
I watched through that window, my beautiful son staring at something for the longest time, arms hanging straight down at his sides, his beautiful mind analyzing every angle of every outcome of every decision.
I went in a couple times to ask how it was going, reminded him the dogs needed to go out.
In the end, I surrendered to the outcome.
I sat in the car and watched as he struggled with his decision.
Then it hit me.
He’s not struggling - I AM.
He’s taking his time to make a decision.
He’s weighing every option in his head, pros and cons, the butterfly effect one purchase might have over another … he’s taking his time, and he’s ENJOYING THE PROCESS.
He’s not the one struggling.
I’m struggling to find the patience I KNOW I need to afford him. I’m struggling not to rush him.
He came out to the car with his purchase.
He stopped and looked in the window before he got in, and the look broke my heart … it was a look of expectation …expecting me to be mad. Frustrated. Annoyed.
He knew he’d taken a long time… after the fact.
During the process he’s so hyper focused, I’m not sure he notices anything else to be honest.
But he knows afterward exactly how long that took, and he’s expecting me to not be happy about it.
I looked back into his beautiful big brown eyes and smiled….and he got in the car.
‘So what did you end up getting’? 😊
His eyes lit up and he talked animatedly about his purchase.
How different that could have gone, had I reacted like the jerk I’ve been at times in the past..
Instead we had a really nice drive home.
He teaches me everyday.
Not just about , but he literally makes me a better person, one with much more , and I’m working on the part every day.
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