09/30/2022
Hey there! Soo, for most people, today is friday. The 30th. For me too, but I've also just passed the 100 plays threshold on soundcloud. Add to that a limited visibility on instagram, 226 views on youtube, and I can tell you with pride and joy that I'm satisfied with myself. Granted, this won't shatter any records, but if you'd have told me this would happen on September the 30th, 2021, I'd have laughed pretty loudly.
That's because I had not commited to becoming , or trying to become, an artist. The seed was actually evolving, slowly showing itself through the dirt. I didn't know if I had talent. I didn't know if I'd get better "quickly" as I often do when I put my mind to something I believe in. I didn't know if it was going to be but a fad, another thing I'd give up on three months later. In short, I didn't know if I was an artist, or if I had the gusto, the glow, "the stuff" inside me.
I now fully accept that I waited entirely too long in my life before finally getting myself in a position to be touched by something so strong. I get comments that it's all I talk about. I sometimes get late before I lost myself fulfilling my urge to create. To produce. To build. To get better. To get a little bit closer to that stage, in total control of the atmosphere, making you and me both have the time of our lives because i grind hard to do so.
I also accept that this addiction (Ablet-addiction?)* is right up there in the highlights of my life thus far. I accept that I'm sometimes scared. That I sometimes shut down because the human mind does that resistance thing, especially when you feel like you're about to achieve yet one more thing. Mine does anyway, a few times a month, but I fall back in my fortress of solitude, recharge, regroup, re-ignite and get back to the grind of trying to live from my passion. Now THAT's a future I can envision. plan. Work towards. Get excited about!
And so I hope this message finds you, and plants a seed that you too can take care of all that weight standing on your neck with a heavy foot, keeping you to the ground. Whatever your dreams or passions are. If you don't know, better start experimenting before the sound of the last bell stops ringing and your journey here is completed. If it happens to be music, I'll even get you started and teach you what ~50 hours a week for a year thought me. It's actually quite substantial. Test me ;)
So this took wayyyyyyy longer than I wanted to allow for this post, as usual 🤷♂️ What I'd like, is for everyone seeing this to allocate 15-20 minutes today on a passion project. You'll remember how passion makes 15-20 minutes, turn to 150-200 minutes! Have a nice weekend, rest properly, take care of yourself and those around you, and if you feel like banging some energetic, hypnotic tunes, well... My soundcloud and my youtube pages are good places to start. You'll find a link a bit below this post to the last preview I posted. Or DM me to get one of the nearly completed projects I'll soon let fly! PEACE!
P.S.: Please consider liking, subscribing, commenting and sharing! This helps a lot in supporting me when I really need it to make more noise in this world. I still need actual food tho, as I've tried to quit, but I wasn't able to :(
