12/19/2024
Woman💔 in one's life! As they are What I Lost, A Presence that is continually Absent since when I was 13yrs Old. Iya ni Wura! Iyawo ni Alabaro, these two are missing in me😭!
The pics on the left represent me on my bike and the pastor about hopping on my bike. The pics on the right represent Me imagining looking at Mum dying, and at a different future time I grow up still watched my wife dying...😭.
I was heading back home yesterday from work with my dirty bajaj bike, I decided to carry passenger while heading home and use that as pocket money. As I was riding, a man stopped me to carry him for a little token, he indeed asked me of the Tfare, I told him it is just N200. As he was about hopping on my bike, he said I shouldn't carry a woman with him. I replied "Ha, will you pay N400?" He declined... Actually this pastor isn't a stranger to me with that his statement. Infact many Okada riders have known him of "not allowing a woman ride bike with him" and he won't pay a charter fee🤷!.
The first day he said so to me, I was thinking he was going to a mountain and doesn't want woman body to tarnish his anointing while going and coming back from the Holy mountain, but Of course, it isn't so with the reoccurrence yesterday.
With some hearsay I got from riders at that junction, those riders backbite him so much and asking one another that "didn't he have wife or daughter at home that he so much dislike a touch from women?"
When he said it again to my hearings yesterday, I felt like støning him. Why? Because I always see myself as "Obinrin ri mi sa". You know they always call pikin wey him Papa die at birth "Babarimisa". I think I should be called "Obinrin ri mi sa"🤷, meaning "Woman are running away in my life😭".
It has been a great agøny I am fïghting not to rúin my life, (loosing a Mum at 13yrs, and loosing wife after 5yrs of marriage)😭🤷.
There are some Jealousy that can't leave my life. I am always jealous when I see a mother gisting with his grown up kids and I am always jealous when I see a married couple walking together or hug each other while parting journey.
There was a day I carried a woman with her teenage child. The boy sat in the middle on my bike while his Mum sat at the back as I am riding. As we proceed, they were both gisting and lovingly talking as if they are couples. The mother love the boy so much❤️! I kept shut and didn't act as if I am listening to how the boy was narrating stories for his Mum. I continue riding but cr¥ing in my heart of absence of Mum I felt at that moment!.
Another day I was so jealous was when a man came to park to carry his wife coming out of a cab that brought her from Abeokuta to Ibadan. The man had actually been waiting for arrival of his wife for over some minutes at park. As the lady came out of the cab and sight her husband, she ran and hug her husband. It was like a movie to everyone one of us at park that day. But down deep within me, I wasn't happy and depressed of what I lost. Those sweet memories of how she always walk me out while I am going to work😭, the kin hug she did give me whenever I come back from work😭, the anticipation we always both have whenever I am away that continually long to seeing each other soon😭. Whenever I come back at home fully, Omo! The full gist of how it went when I wasn't at home😭! The intimate atmosphere of not wanting to leave me and we both wanting to touch each other 😭.
This yesterday scenario really saddened my heart, that, so, some men really háte seeing or being touched by another woman? Is it that he doesn't have wife at home again? Note: It isn't that he doesn't want to be touched by only young ladies ooo, even Old woman, He hàte to sit with old woman on bike too🤷!
Plssss, which church or doctrine is still teaching to run away from Eve or anything called vvoamn😭
May God heal our heart!
May God help us to forget all our agonies!
Hmmmm😭😭😭😭😭
© TeramayoTv
