11/01/2024
So today am gonna be a little vulnerable.🥺
I composed this piece about four years ago on my birthday.
Typically, my birthdays are ordinary🤦 but this one stands out as the worst. 🤧
Some family member was scolding me about how i just want to sit around and be on the computer, making beats that ain't contributing a thing to my needs.
He talked for hours and i never said a thing cause of you know that thing ati ''Ulibe Ulemu why uyanka ba kulu.'' 😏
To cope with the situation, I put on earphones and immersed myself in creating this musical piece. It seemed he never noticed, he continued to speak. That night, I felt miserable, and there might have been a few tears shed. 😭
Since then, whenever I've felt extremely low, I've always revisited this project. It serves as a reminder that in life u really need to have something that makes u wanna stay alive, even when the world is super pathetic. Am glad have had that something. And for me its music.
After a couple of years, I found a job that kinda paid some bills, but it made life feel monotonous, revolving around work. I eventually made the decision to quit and return to being a producer. Despite others thinking it was a bad choice, I have no regrets. I firmly believe that life is more about pursuing what you love than anything else. 🤷
Today, feeling exceptionally low, I decided to pen down these thoughts.
Maybe someone can be healed with this 😩 anyways...
You know, it took me a lot of courage to be vulnerable and open up about this personal experience, i mean am not this sentimental on a regular.
If whatever that you do has been a significant source of solace and inspiration for you and it provides a meaningful outlet for self-expression and a way to navig*te through challenging times. You should keep on with it...
It's important to prioritize your well-being and pursue what brings you fulfillment. Choosing to follow your passion, despite societal expectations, is a brave decision. Life indeed becomes more meaningful when you engage in activities that resonate with your true self.
Everyone's journey is unique, and finding purpose and joy in what you do is a crucial aspect of a fulfilling life. It's not always about conforming to external expectations, but rather about living authentically.
Thanks for reading....
Ani Mello
