14/11/2024
SOME GOBELAS ARE CRUEL ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY SEE A PROGRESS OF ITHWASA....
I had a very good relationship with my thwasa who stayed ephehlweni for more than 6 months while she was travelling due to work as a results i had to do extra work for her so that she can be on the same level with those i teach during the day..She was different from my other thwasas as eversince she was ephehlweni she never dreamt my gobela"mkhulu wa hae" she always had dreams about me and other thwasas.
I was there for her through out iphehlo,i remember when it was her nthwaso,i was not in the yard arrived late,my gobela called me when i rrived and he was so chilled and said"lethwasana la hao le o boleletse h**e o tloela hoja nthwaso and i told her its ok if thats what she feel"....i asked him how can you say that baba,she can't give up now after paying everything just because they had a fight with family.
I sat her down,remind her everything i told her when she started her journey and went back to some of her dreams which meant what was happening she then understood then continued with ntwaso.I had to sit a family down,explain to them that thwasa is not wrong and they are not wrong is just evil spirits which want to block her way and they understood. I rushed to my ancestors and phahlad for her.I had a very good relationship with her family and after nthwaso they said"Bye gogo,see you at home on her home coming ceremony. "
I did everything for her "infiso,kamokenya nyoko, ka moquqisa/ho moisa hae e se ka mosebetsi",ka molaya ngwanaka ka ndumbeng etc..."She use to visit me and tell me how is home.Within 5 months she planned home coming ceremony and told me about date,i told her that date is too close to dates where my gobela will be busy"i was not in good terms with my gobela and they knew it",i gave her a date and told her to tell my gobela about it.He agreed and she was very happy that i shifted her date with a month earlier as she was in a hurry for that ceremony.
After telling my gobela,she wrote me a long essay where she told me my gobela said she should choose between me and other thwasas"bafo babo",as if i come my gobela and other people from mpade including amathwasa of gobela will not come,it will just be me and her and things won't go well as i don't have mpande so as a family they decided to choose my gobela and thwasas,so he told her to block me so its a gudbye.She said thank you for everything its not easy for me but family said how can ceremony be done by only 2 people.That was the last time i heard from my thwasa.
My gobela made a home coming and there was a dream which was strictly telling her what i should do at her home coming ceremony in her indumba so she remind me about that dream and said my gobela said is not a problem,she will just phahla for it.After she cut ties with me,she was followed by badlucks to the extend that some of thwasas who were part of ceremony would call and beg me to intervene but she never called so i had nothing to do.I just wonder my gobela how did he feel when he sees my thwasa suffering after all he did to her.
I just wonder what did they tell family about my absence as i was known by most of family since invuma kuva,i did it alone though she was child for my lobola and my gobela was to go with me but he refused to go just told me what to be done so obvious they asked where i was as i have a blood of being loved by adults.
My gobela if you can ask her about the journey of that thwasa,he knows nothing as even his own thwasas i was the one putting effort on them.
Even on this day i still say"NGIYA BONGA GOBELA WAM,UKHULISE KANZIMA NAMHLANJE NGI'INYAKA,NGI'IBONA IMPUMELELO."
Ukuthwasa is not an easy journey even after you finished iphehlo.....
Leseli👏
