10/07/2024
I'm going to be very vulrable for a minute.
My health has been s**t lately. I am fighting to figure out what all is going on. I have been fighting with insurance, finding a doctor, getting to said doctor and everything inbetween. My Mental health is S**T. Although I would never harm myself, I just feel like the world would be better off without me. I feel like I am a burden to my family and everyone around me. I cry to myself so much. I feel like me being sick just hurts everyone around me. I can't take my kids to do stuff. I know it is affecting them, I feel like a failure. Know that I love and appriciate everyone, but my brain just keeps telling me im a burden to EVERYONE around me. I have reached out to my doctors and they are working with me. Part of MS and other things is depression and such. Just know I am not a perfect human, I am miserable in my own body atm, I am trying hard to figure out what is going to happen. I am SCARED, I am hurting, I am broken. I am sorry to everyone that I have ever upset or anything with my actions. Just know I am trying daily to just exist in this world with these health issues.