Yang's Way & Life

03/04/2024

I'm sitting at my desk, thinking why humans are capricious beings.

One moment, they're hot; the next, they're cold. They like you today, then hate you the next. It's like being pinned 360 before being stopped just for them to decide to spin you once more in a different direction.

I don't get it. If you love them, shouldn't you wish them the best? Do you want them to succeed no matter how many mistakes they make? Or do you want them to do better, even if it means starting all over?

No one is competing with you in life. The only one who is, is just yourself—the future you, the you who has all that you've wanted, all that you have yet to achieve. So why? Why are humans so greedy that they do not want the best for those they call family or friends? Brothers or sisters? Son or daughter? Is it wrong for them to do better, finally survive, and breathe another day?

It really makes me wonder why be human at all. Why try hard to survive when some human hearts are so black?

My random ramble of the day...

Yang

02/04/2024

Storytime...

When I was younger, I had often gotten my blood drawn or gotten shots. I had always wondered why? I wouldn't say I liked needles. I would cry, make a fuss, and fight tooth and nail to avoid getting it.

But what my oldest brother said made me realize at a young age it was for my benefit. Of course, he bribed me; I also got candy and stickers from the nurses. After my first few times, it became a routine for me. I was okay with it as long as my eldest brother took me to get it done.

To me, my eldest brother was like my second dad. Though strict with me, he showered me with love that I couldn't get from our parents. Maybe that is why I fear and love him dearly.

Looking back, I can understand why I was always getting all that bloodwork. I have a medical condition that I now wish I had known before having kids.

Although it is normal for most Southeast Asians to have it. I wished my kids did not inherit it, but they did. Which makes it sad. I wished I had spent extra money to get genetically tested to understand my DNA better before having kids.

Even though I didn't, I wouldn't change the world if given a second chance. I would still have gone through it. But when I was a first-time mother. I wished I had more knowledge of what my children would have inherited from me.

So, learn from me. If anyone is going to or planning to have kids. Spend that extra money to get genetically tested and be informed of your body medically. Maybe it'll save you all the heartaches and nights of crying to yourself. I know it would have saved me much mommy guilt because I would have known what to do at the time I felt like I'd failed my children even before I could have had them.

Until next time...

Yang

20/03/2024

It's been a while 😅

I have been busy... with my kiddos.. it's birthday season... back to back birthdays.. 😅😅😅

So far... they're taking it well..

I have started to meditate 🧘🏻‍♀️ with my kids.. 5 minutes is the max for them 🤣

Until next time..

✌🏻 Yang

29/02/2024

Maybe I am feel a little down because today is the day of leap year. Feb. 29, 2024. I am more emotional than most days. It's like.. My soul, my spirit is crying. So, how do you stop the pain from hurting more than it should. Everything makes me want to cry. I hope my cycle is just nearby 😅🥺😭

💔 Yang ✌🏻

P.s. I'm okay with hot being okay.

18/02/2024

Upon hearing this song again after many years, its emotional impact remained strong, evoking tears from deep within my heart and connecting to my life journey towards becoming a shaman healer when I rise.

One day I will rise.

❤️ Yang

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28/01/2024

Finally, all done. It is the final one. 🤣 it's symmetrical 😂 I have problems with things being the same and balanced, okay 😅

Hmong Paj Ntaub 💙

I am Hmong

💙Yang💙

15/01/2024

I finished with my sample Hmong Paj Ntaub 😂👍🏻💙

Now it is time to make one without all the guidelines 😅

I have a problem with making things symmetrical 🤣

💙Yang💙

09/01/2024

Dream story...

So im thinking I was cross-stitching too much. I went to sleep dreaming about it... 🤷🏻‍♀️

I reached into my pink bag, which I usually used to put my threads and needles in. I don't know, but I would reach into it and eat, yes, eat, whatever I could put into my mouth. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

Whatever was in my mouth, what I had pulled and reached in for. I could feel the pins and needles. I would be able to reach into my mouth and pull out needle after needle.

Getting frustrated from finding needles in whatever 'snack' or 'food' I was feeding myself. I grabbed my magnetic pin holder. I reached into the pink bag, and the moment I pulled the magnetic out of the bag. There were so many needles. Once, twice. Each time I pulled the magnetic out, there would be tens, if not hundreds, of needles.

My eyes widen at the thought of my bag being filled with needles, nothing I could eat. Or should eat. Then I woke up.

Maybe.. It's telling me, dont trust people. They may look nice. Look like sugar. But in reality.. They're like salt. Sugar and salt may look alike, but they taste differently. Or.. Maybe my life is like sitting on pins and needles. 🤷🏻‍♀️

That's my dream I had.

✌🏻🙃 later.. Yang

06/01/2024

Hmong paj ntaub 🙃

When I was younger, I begged my mom to teach me how to learn to make Hmong paj ntaub. The patterns to the general knowledge of them. I've seen my mom, aunt, and sisters do it. But she only taught me the basics. Now, I am on my own; I have my daughter. I intend to learn and mimic patterns on my own. What I see and what I like will go down on the Aida cloths. Hopefully, one day, my daughter will want to learn; if not, maybe she will fall in love with it like I did.

I am Hmong. 🙂

❤️Yang❤️

25/12/2023

Happy holidays, everyone. Stay safe and warm. 😁✌🏻

24/12/2023

Merry Christmas Eve 😁✌🏻

08/12/2023

It’s been a while, but hello 🙃

I drew my best friend.

Yang ❤️

02/12/2023

I'm here letting my daughter draw...

Me: what are you drawing?😊
Manee: A ghost... 👻
Me: 😐😶 why? Where do you see the ghost?
Manee: in the house. 🙂😇
Me: 🫢🫣🫥

Send help 😅 life with kids.. I tell you...

15/10/2023

It's funny how people assumed your experience must be the same as those who came before you.

Yet at the same time. They don't like or agree for you to go on your journey because they don't believe you should or could. But everyone's journey and strength is different.

I want to heal, even if it's just myself. I don't want them to wait any longer than they should.

They must have felt as lonely as I do. They must have felt hurt like me.

I have them, and they have me.

✌🏻🥹 Yang

14/10/2023

I am taking a step into my journey. Talking to them once more, telling them about my journey. Yes, it's a lonely journey. Some rejoice, but others don't accept it or care, and there is one who will not allow me to be who I need and want to be.

At the end of the day, it is my choice; it will be me who will be hurting, it will be me who will bear the weight... so it is me all alone once more.

🥹 Yang

01/10/2023

I love this song. Please go listen to it.

I shake in excitement as I listen to the song. I can envision the journey, battle, and struggles.

My soul tells me, this is a journey worth listening to..

😊 Yang

Song: Txiv Neeb (Mus Nrhiav Nkauj See)Artist: Hue Chi ChangSongwriter: P. Xiong Co-writers: C.X. & C.Y.Producer: Vince XiongMelody: P. Xiong & Hue Chi ChangA...

20/09/2023

Crystals and more..

Another batch of amazing crystals. Most are to help my healing journey.
😅 I forgot what I bought, so don’t ask me the names of the crystals, towers, etc.

The only thing I remember is the 7 chakra bracelet and the flower agate Moon, bowl? and heart 😅 again I don’t know if they are what I remember when I got it.

Enjoy the short video.

✌🏻Yang

Another haul of what I bought… featuring my daughter.Music soundtrack is from iMovie; Quandry — Mark Allen

12/09/2023

New video on my YouTube Channel.

Come join me and my kiddos as we open the BOX 😉👍🏻

I got the package from Moon today! I am super excited, so come with me to open the BOX! My children will be with me, so go and watch as we open and do a litt...

20/06/2023

Lately, I have been feeling like the more I try the more it's all going to fail and all my work will be in vain.

Today isn't my day. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Yang

18/06/2023

Insomnia

Some nights are hard to fall asleep. No matter what, I try. I can’t stop my brain from thinking, “What If,” or “I could have done this,” or “If only I changed this,” my life would have been different. But my heart already knows what my brain refuses to acknowledge.

It would not have mattered if I had changed anything in the past because I am who I am today due to all the choices I have made so far.

Even if I knew that, my brain still likes to think about everything and anything. Thus, I lack sleep because I start to wander with my thoughts.

Sleep is foreign to me as drinking water is difficult to do 😅.

Yang

08/06/2023

Some days are hard, so how do you deal with it?