27/02/2024
Should we talk about being angry with God? I think we should.
The past couple months, a few unexpected things have happened, and life’s been really, really hard. The details honestly don’t really matter, life is just hard sometimes.
Side note, I’ve realized how important having a good spouse is, makes dealing with life a lot easier 😅
Regardless, I found myself being angry with God. I’ve been frustrated with Him before, but I wouldn’t say angry quite like this.
This isn’t one of those “Everything was really hard, but now it’s all fine and won’t He do it!!!!” posts. Because honestly, I still feel in the thick of it and life is still really hard.
For a while, I would feel angry at God and then shame/guilt for being angry with Him. Maybe that’s a vicious cycle you’ve fallen into as well.
But, in the thick of life, I’m reminded how brutally honest David is about his anger, depression, anxiety, and sadness in Psalms. I feel like if he can feel these feelings, so can I.
Our relationship with God isn’t meant to be a honeymoon phase. We don’t exist in a perfect world.
I think, at times, it is normal to feel anger or sadness or anxiety or depression because it allows our relationship with Jesus to grow deeper. You can’t learn to trust if you’ve never had to.
I say all this to say, what I have been able to glean thus far is that although life is hard, I’m still choosing to believe He is good.
I don’t know why He allows certain things to happen or not happen, but I’m still choosing to believe He is good and just and kind.
I believe He wants to hear when we’re angry or sad or upset. He is much bigger than our feelings and we can’t “overwhelm” or “offend” Him with our emotions, because He already knows them.
So, don’t shy away from feeling your feelings with God. Don’t shut down and shut Him out. Still choose to believe, in the midst of difficult things, He is still good.
