19/06/2024
This Juneteenth is an interesting day for me. I can finally and honestly say, "I'm tired of filmmaking." It really feels like a job at this point. Spiritually, the industry promotes pure hell, and we condone it. It makes me sad. By this time of the year in the past, I would have written five scripts and made four films. I haven't written a line and only filmed one day. It's not fun anymore. I'm grateful, don't get me wrong!!! I have made mediocre films on a mediocre budget and good money. It's because of Christ and supporters willing to overlook the things I couldn't control in the films and enjoy the content. That's blessings on top of blessings. I felt like this all year and reached the point of saying it today. If I'm not completely doing it for the Kingdom of God, why am I doing it? Even when I try to do it that way, it doesn't feel like it. Weird? I should be excited about my next film, but it feels like work. Thank GOD I'm working with a great group of people on this next film. Laughing and joking with them is all I'm really looking forward to. Maybe a week from now, I'll feel completely different, or maybe not. Side note: I would love to coach youth sports for a living.
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