30/03/2022
My baby is getting married on Saturday- and I am not ok! It’s not really the fact that he’s getting married that has me freaking out- he’s ready, his fiancé is amazing and I love her! The match was literally made in Heaven…. By Jesus because I have prayed for Him to guide my boy for his entire life. So no worries on that front.
I guess what’s so heavy is that it is a season change. As we walk through this life we also walk through different seasons. Our own childhood, and adolescence. Young married life with young kids. Older kids- high school, college. Then weddings and grand babies! The changes are always a little hard to deal with, throw you off kilter. A ‘new normal’. Our last season change had the STOP button pressed and right there we have waited for 5 years. You see, we were in the smack dab middle of a season change- 2 kids in college , the baby was a senior in high school. I had graduated and started my new career, things were looking up! Until…. That night. You know the one. The darkness that snuffed out a bright light. One October night, my baby went to heaven and our lives stopped. Since that night, we have been in a holding pattern. Like a plane that cannot land because of unknown circumstances on the ground. We’ve tried to land, we’ve even tried to do a FORCE landing to no avail! The Pilot has had us circling and circling and circling. Waiting, trusting, believing that our best days ARE NOT behind us. The waiting has been hard, but it’s all part of that refining process. Hard but doable because of His strength. Because of His grace.
So, Saturday my baby gets married. I know he will be the most handsome groom in the history of grooms. His bride - stunning 🥰 their life together will be blessed- because of and in spite of the season we’ve been stuck in. The season is changing (and I’m not talking about spring either!) and every time a season changes my heart seizes because it feels like my boy in heaven is getting left behind. But then I remember - the more seasons that pass, the CLOSER I am getting to Him and to him. Thank you Lord for your grace for every season - thank you that you have walked with us in the waiting. I’m eagerly anticipating what You will do next! Congratulations to Evan and Katie 🥰
