23/11/2022
M in BAM here. I have been refraining from posting anything while I sat in what it felt to lose a damn good father/wingman/cameraman/friend and giving respect to his family who will be dealing with his passing for years to come. I'll do my best to spare the sadness and focus on the light.
I'm still not entirely sure how I really feel about all of this, but I do know that Brandon touched a lot of lives and brought a lot of really amazing people into my life. For that I'm forever grateful and will cherish the times we had together and the friendships gained.
Being free is something a lot of people take for granted and Brandon lived his life free. Forever a goofball and, energy matched energy whenever we hung out. Amping each other up to the next stupid thing we were doing. Being spontaneous and just fu***ng sending it!
I am thankful that we hugged it the f**k out at Tilted. It's always been love but, those who know me will tell you I'm tough on you if I love you. Sometimes that comes with distance, sometimes with violence, but always from a place of love. I sincerely hope he knew that and that sometimes I have to distance to save myself. I will work on being tougher in those situations. (my lesson from this)
I know all he really ever wanted was love...and A S**T LOAD of it! I can see from all of the posts over the last couple of days that you were loved by many. I just hope for all the right reasons and for all the good things you did during your stay here on this f**ked up floating rock orbiting the sun.
In the coming days, I hope each of you that were touched by B will also think of the family that lost a dad. This is where his heart was at when his mind was at ease. And, now that he is resting easy, it's where his soul will be...with Hayley and Gavin.
BEAR HUG your fu***ng friends, live a little and every once in a while do that thing you talked yourself out of. Jump off a roof, break something, shake hands with a stranger, love with your whole being and live a little. You get one trip, make it a good one!
Rest easy brother. I'll see you out in the universe sometime. We'll go f**k a karaoke night up and make a stranger laugh until they p*e themselves. You are NOT allowed to sing Sound Boy though. One Love - Spread It!!
