Poetry by Amanda Collado

12/02/2024

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12/02/2024

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11/02/2024

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26/10/2023

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25/10/2023

You didn’t want me you needed me
08.02.2023

All I ever asked was for you to tell me you didn’t want me.
I begged for it like a dog wanting a treat, drooling at your feet
I needed it like I needed my next breath so I could breathe ,so I can move on freely.
I needed to hear it because some how I thought it would bring me closure
Somehow I thought this wouldn’t be my fault
That it’d be on you, but it always has that’s what I failed to realize
Somehow your actions always guided my reactions
Walking in doubt, walking on eggshells in my house
A house that was supposed to be a home
All it became home to was insecurities and doubt
I put water on fires you created and the ones I created you put gas to a burning flame and let them go enraged
All the ash and all the debris you’d leave me with to try to salvage and maneuver through
Id take what I could like the belief hope and trust over your manipulation condensending ways and lies
You didn’t want me you needed me.
You needed me to control
You needed me for your blame
You needed me to use as if I was left over s**t in the sink, washed down thru your disposal
And I spin and spin as you twist my thoughts, my words, my love, my body, my spirit, my very being to benefit you.
You’ve gained while I’ve just given relentlessly
Feeding a monster with a bottomless stomach that will never feel full.
I stayed not to change you but to try to help make you a better man and not even for selfish reasons of my own.
And see you do have your good, but the weight of your past and your history is to heavy for me to carry anymore.
I cannot be there for someone who constantly pushes me and then to only yank me back so violently.
For I am a better women for loving you
You brought joy love and peace scattered all in between and now I just need consistentcy.
My sanity, my self respect and my peace are slithers of what is left that need to be pieced back again because I have given to much access to a boy trying to be a man that said I wasn’t enough.

27/07/2023

I won
06/18/23

I won.
I won the heartbreak while you hit last place for not giving a f**k and being okay with things.
I won in loving to hard when you had it easy.
So many accomplishments in loving someone so much, to much to the point I forgot to love myself too.
Somewhere in there or at least in the in between.
I won in caring too much, while you cared just enough.
You cheated by having me believe some how deep deep deep down you felt what I felt about you for me.
I won the “I love you more” even though I was the only one competing.
I won in the I’d do anything and everything to make it work, all while you did nothing to stay in the race.
I got stuck in the end holding the trophy of love lost to a man that never truly loved me in the first place.

25/07/2023

25/06/2023

Bluebird
04.30.2020
Every time the blue jay comes it rains.
Debbie downer heart disarray.
Programmed to think blue is grey but if you look at the bluebird he’s happy to embark on his days.
Even if it rains, pours, or storms he continues along his way.
Resting in the comfort that the storm will fade and he will fly again in the suns rays.
So be like the blue bird knowing that things can change and that certain things are temporary.
Things just aren’t always what they seem.

25/06/2023

Thank you Darrae Norling ! Can’t wait to read and get inspired ❤️