16/03/2023
⚖️ Let’s talks about being authentic.
So for the first time in my career I felt at a point that I’m being “too much” in a certain business environment.
Let’s be honest here, I’ve got a lot of driving force. Tons of it. Can share if you need it. And it’s been my success factor for life. However, recently I’m feeling that I need to “tone it down” to fit. And being adaptable and enjoying a new challenge, I actually tried it. I tried really hard, I failed. I learned.
I learned something new about myself. About what I believe to be my core values and believes. About what is the power of my driving force.
Does it fit to every environment? Of course not. Do I need to fit to every environment?…
Me, hating to be a quitter, wants to say - I should at least try.
Me, having all the experience and knowing my strongest points - I have to say.. no.
I struggled today, but I made a decision. And it is to be my true self. Regardless if it fits the others. Because I know for a fact that there are plenty of those who need it, who come to me for who I am. Who tell me to “keep going because it makes a difference”.
So I’m making a conscious decision to stick to my authentic true self. An emotional, direct, brutally honest self. I accept me for who I am, knowing exactly what are ups and downs of it. I’m learning to love myself for who I am, not just loving myself for what others love in me. I’m learning to be proud of myself without others being proud of me. I learn not to seek validation, which used to be my main motivation before. I’m finding myself. I grow.