07/04/2026
Like any artist, I decided to paint a picture tonight when history is at the crux of a pretty significant crossroad. During primetime viewing, our military will be ordered to eliminate a civilization from the face of the earth during a four-hour window tonight if they do not agree to our demands before six o’clock mountain time where I live. If what the entire world has been told over the last few days holds true, our lethal military might, strength, and power will come down full force on their country in a four-hour window if Iran doesn’t freely let oil through the strait tonight.
As a longtime military man—a basic, simple soldier at heart—this kind of talk creates emotions in me that are difficult to explain. So I drew a sketch on my iPad this morning of the painting I want to paint. If it turns out, it will be the lead image for my very first chapter where I talk about me wanting to be an unknown hobbit who paints in obscurity in his old age. The image is of me when I was just eighteen years old living in the town that smelled of dead fish about forty miles from the ocean in Oregon.
I am wearing the clothes required of box boys working at Roth’s IGA on the corner of Hill and Nineteenth Streets, not far from the Boy’s Club where I spent my time as a young boy. We had to have our hair cut short and wear blue jeans with a white short sleeved shirt and a clip on green bowtie. The railroad tracks were not far from the store. So when I worked on the weekends, I would go down to the tracks where an old hobo lived in a tent during my lunch hour. I’d bring him a can of Campbell’s soup to warm up over a little fire next to his tent.
I’d sit and read a book while he fussed with his belongings while mumbling about his adventures riding the freight cars as a homeless creature. I was always attracted to the rail yard, even since I first lived near them when I was six. I would dream of just running away by jumping on one of those cars with him to a destination unknown. I guess that is why I liked in there with the smell of old grease and oil soaked into the rocks. It was a door to an escape that I chose to never take, at least in that war. I felt the comfort, though, to sit there in the atmosphere of danger, risk, and fear.
I don’t know why talk of basically obliterating a country today makes me think of this image of me down by the railroad tracks reading a book while wearing a green bowtie. Yet it does. It makes me feel safe.
—Beamish