30/12/2024
Real Talk:
Hey!
Nesto here, I wanted to talk about what happened to the group and where it's headed
Towards the end of 2023, I was burnt out, frustrated, and ready to tear down everything that the group had built for the past 10 years.The vibe between all 3 of us had vastly changed compared to the earlier years of BTG. This was mostly because we had different priorities in our lives, which is pretty normal as you get older but we never really had any conversations around how to deal with that. So we didn't communicate well, I got frustrated and it started to become not fun to make videos. It became more of an obligation, especially after one of our videos exploded to over 400k views. There was this sort of personal pressure on myself that stunted my creativity. Once that happened, the group basically slowly broke down. Me and Jared got into it because we had creative disagreements, plus it became really hard to schedule or get a hold of Jared and Loyal due to their outside priorities. Ultimately, Jared and I couldn't see eye to eye so he asked if he wanted me out and I said yes because I saw it as the only way to move ahead with the group. In hindsight, I could have handled that better but I've apologized to Jared now and we have no hard feelings. We patched things up and he's been back in the group for a while now. With Loyal, we also got into some disagreements because I wanted to end the channel and Loyal didn't. We both settled on that I would just quit the group because it was stressing me out and he would take control of it, but the door would always be open if I wanted to come back. So that was last year.
This year has been pretty hard on a lot of us. Me and my Mom dealt with a painful and traumatic death at the beginning of this year. Things will never be the same, but we continue to recover day by day as much as we can. I turned to learning how to create mods for a few of the video games I played during this time to cope and it ultimately led to me missing creating things.
Around April, I talked with Loyal and he was cool with me joining again. So I returned and started making stuff on the 2nd channel. I was really intimidated by our first channel having over 3k subs and accidentally falling into the racing game genre of YouTube so much, that I didn't want to have anything to do with it. So I made silly dumb clips and amateur style videos on the 2nd channel which reminded me of what BTG originally was like. I had fun again with making videos just for the fun of it, instead of researching and trying to make every video appealing in some sort of way to the algorithm bu****it. I started streaming again and enjoying it as well. My creativity started coming back and despite it not being everyone's cup of tea, I started enjoying the stuff I wanna make. Basically, a s**t load of BTG Chan lore stuff lol and talking about games I like regardless what people think about it.
This is where I wanted to talk about what's next with BTG. I have no fu***ng clue if any of us in the group can keep this going. We keep going through hardships and stuff that always slows down this hobby for us. If I'm being honest, I've put probably $15k into BTG over 12 years and made like $200 profit 🤣, but I don't regret it cause it's s**t I wanted to do. I know I can't keep dumping money into BTG because of life and the economy. Plus I start school soon. Is it a failure or a waste of time to others? Sure. I'm 34 and probably people imagined this much time put into something with no return is a failure. I wouldn't disagree with that logic, but for all of us. The original plan was always to make a bunch of fun stuff we thought was cool. So we can look back and be like, yeah we did that s**t and had fun. I've heard multiple times from others who care about what we do, that we've succeeded. Which makes me so fu***ng happy to hear that. So yeah, if it ends again or keeps going just know we tried our best to do whatever we do and had fun with it. We hope whatever we did brought you some joy too.
Oh yeah I almost forgot to mention, I'm fu***ng happy that we also got to pay artists who helped make our brand and vibe of BTG what we wanted. Thank you so much to everybody who took on our commissions. Photography, logos, assets, art, voice work. Seriously, fu***ng thank you. Could not have got this far without you all helping us.
Plus of course thank you to all the fans that support us. 12 years later, it still blows our mind anybody likes anything we do lmao.
2025 Roadmap:
I'm streaming again on the BTG twitch channel, I do it like every 1-2 weeks on Saturdays and sometimes randomly throughout the week. Just playing whatever I'm into. So swing by and say hi
https://twitch.tv/btgplay/
I'm working on a game collection video with Jared, that should come out in January. Looking forward to this one since Jared has a bunch of stuff I'm not into but I know people would enjoy.
Then next up, working on a BTG-Chan video about skateboarding. Bear with me, I'm telling you it's going to be interesting. If you're weeby and like skating, then it's gonna be good.
On the same note, I'm trying to wrap up the ideas I had planned for BTG-Chan by the end of this year. There's the skateboarding video and one last cool announcement that is going to be bittersweet but something I've been planning on for years.
Lastly, Im working on a sort of weird video that involves the Dead or Alive fighting game series. Y'all might not enjoy this one but it's something I have to make.
Oh yeah of course 2nd channel will be chaos. Mostly stream clips, vlogs, and random s**t I find I want to archive or talk about.
Sorry for the EXTREMELY long rant but I had to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading if you got this far and see ya later.
-Nesto
Making dumb gaming videos since 2013 BTG Crew: Nesto / Jared / Loyal
