22/01/2024
Freedom flowers
Freedom today means more than it did to me in 2005 I was depressed in 2005 so here we go this is a continuous poem or writing to the one I did and 2005 called freedom
Freedom is something that's earned and worked upon,
Love is something that should be waited on and be patient with just like we're patient with God and and faith that good things will happen
So the original poem I wrote what is freedom so what is freedom to you,
I know I have lost a lot since 2005 blocks my mom and 2013 I've lost several cousins since then I lost an uncle the biggest thing about losing people is when they don't die or they don't pass and you don't talk to them I haven't talked to my nephew in 2 years almost to me that's worse than somebody passing away when it wasn't really anything you did on your end you know they just choose not to talk to you. So again freedom to me is a life with positivity, God, good friends and family around, in the original poem I also wrote about love, back then in 2005 I didn't know if I find love my nephew hadn't come along yet and I was in a pretty bad depression but now that I found Love I have planted my seed in 2016 and it is grown a lot we'll see where it goes it is bloomed and my thing is love like this is something that doesn't come very fast we are building the foundation, that will never crumble
We both have a rough past that we have to get past before we can proceed. And I understood this when I signed up for it, just in the last almost two years for this situation me and my sister have been going through I thought I had patience but my patients ran out. But remember there is love out there for everyone, remember Rome was not built in today neither is love, remember love has to be worked on by two people not just one, so it's 100% of both parties every now and then you see this couple that's been together for 60 years that's the foundation that they built their relationship on with God and trust and patience and they were best friends to begin with, as I do love my two nieces and nephew still I hope to see them again one of those nieces I have never met, so I'm still asking for prayers that I at least get to meet my niece and have a like reunion with them or just simply come home but I think that's going to take a lot of prayer from a lot of people and a big miracle we are still needing supplies and stuff to get forward with this,
April 13th of this year 2 years of this situation
I appreciate friends and family that have helped us thus far and I have kept this quiet long enough on what our situation is about so eventually I will be making videos on my YouTube channel rocking Express to me about the situation I will not be managing any names if I do I'll change them like I did last time. If that's what I got to do to get help is tell about the situation then I will I thought for a long time I wasn't legally able to talk about it but if a lady can go on TV on channel 16 in Joplin Missouri and talk about our situation and not mention any names I should be able to do the same thing I've spent 46 years of up and downs going to people that I thought were friends and people that were truly my friends and the people that are my friends now are truly still friends sisters and brothers in Christ more like it I appreciate all of you I just recently got a card from a well a birthday card for my friend and I appreciate that I had a good birthday this last 15th of January just for people being there I had the last day I feel like cooking so I did those of you wonder why I had to cook my own meal that's between me and myself and I LOL but again freedom is always things yes it took me almost 20 years to figure this out but I was depressed back then you know I was young see those of you that don't know, I have had a pretty rough time with women over my lifespan and I've had a few fake relationships online that I don't want to talk about I don't think they count but in real I've had two really good women that understood my situation the first one I was with one month I took her out to the homecoming dance and her family talked her into breaking up with me, it's funny though I talked to her mom on senior trip we went to Florida in 1996 and she didn't know anything about it, but that's okay we find out things later on that we didn't know anything about, we find out something about our parents we didn't know we find out something about our siblings we didn't know, we just pick up and we go on and we just keep leaving life the life of God means everything a life with Jesus means everything so but finding love for me has been a treasure in itself I've also had to rework with my love with for my family you know I thought I had that one lined out but you know we all have our problems with family we fight with family but actually finding love with somebody you might be with for the rest of your life that is hard especially when they're already damaged goods but with God's restorative love they can become where they can love again God's love is very powerful and we must remember God loves us no matter whatever situation we are in I just hope everybody has had a wonderful weekend and a blessed weekend and I hope this encourages you you know remember you are worth it the world is a better place because you're in it. God has our back and we can use the power of prayer to help people and help ourselves become selfless not selfish work on ourselves so we can be all we can be for others that's something we sometimes forget we're taking care of a loved one we let ourselves go that's not good, or situation stresses you out and you get to where you don't care you feel like everything you do is not enough but then you have to remind yourself there is nobody higher than God and God isn't going to let anything happen to you that is bad and it's something happens there is a reason there's a reason why God wanted to happen there's a reason why he didn't step in but in my situation I hope he does step in there's a whole lot of evil and delusion and lies that have been wrapped up in our situation that said agency believes a whole different story but I'll explain all that my video when I get ready to do it but people you all got to understand what a person is going through whether it's me my sister with this situation or it's Jack Black that lives down the road you know we need to stop assuming okay we need to stop judging, I had somebody tell me one time when you're assuming you're making an ass out of you and me, soon I want to talk about a lady that everybody has assumed that was bad I have got to get special permission from her but her story should be heard if I can get the permission and not say any names etc I have a lot of stories that can be told I love telling stories one day I hope to write a book I have a few author friends that is inspired me to start writing things and eventually I'm going to I just don't know how I'm going to publish them just yet I don't know if I'm going to do video logs like I thought about doing some but there's also a way you can make ebooks and give them out online or sell them okay just remember God loves us all but there's sometimes we have to let all the baggage all the worries all the negativity and put it all in one cart and say God it's yours please take it away we don't want it anymore and have faith and trust in God things good things are going to happen I pray you all this weather that everybody is doing okay I am hearing about in neighboring towns that their Waters pipes are busted and they don't know when they're going to be back up or university that isn't far from me has had busted pipes and they don't know when they're going to be back up online either so I don't know how much the people is being affected and going to college or university whatever it is down there but, everybody needs prayers whether it's with just losing a loved one like I have or just send her prayers of their situation I'm not very political but I have started a new campaign no I'm not running for president but we need to quit waiting for somebody to drain the swamp we can do that on our own by going and voting in November or whenever voting comes up whether it be your state county local people your federal people it's time for a major change as techies like to say it's time for reformat it's time for a reset as it's called now it's time that people wake up here in Missouri gas is to something a gallon I heard in other places it's 8:00 that's BS I do understand with it being in Alaska and places like that you have to haul it up there and blah blah blah okay that's understandable but in places that you got nearby refineries at in the south and there's still that much over there like four or five dollars a gallon yeah that's not good, okay as I come a close remember God loves you remember freedom is a big thing especially with God and I pray that if you haven't found love that you will find love soon or if you found love you got it built on such a strong foundation that it won't crumble for those of you that are rebuilding your foundation I will pray for you I know several couples right now that are rebuilding there foundation and they need prayers they really love each other but it didn't work out living together so they're working on getting things together all right well I'm going to let y'all have a good evening and you have fine today and a better one tomorrow
Train 2024
