Intuitive Living Podcast

24/07/2024

It's 2024 (4 years since the original post) and I am still learning what is okay to ask from another person as far as needs and boundaries go. How much freedom to we deserve to have in relationships? What does respect look like for each of us? How much of "allowing someone to just be themselves" is healthy, if it's unhealthy? Here is the original. Let's not be afraid of change, if we can help it. It's so much better than the eruption. From 2020:

Skipping Over Hard Feelings/Spiritual Bypassing
This is a theme that keeps showing up so maybe we can talk about it. As a matter of fact, this has been showing up in my life in a bunch of ways lately!
I am going to share a personal story to illustrate how this is showing up for me. This idea of skipping over our hard feelings can appear in many different forms, of course. Here’s one of mine:
I was in an unhealthy long-term relationship. My pain wasn’t heard in the relationship. There were behaviors that were damaging that continued to go on. My coping skills included the idea that I cannot change anyone, but I can change my own thinking about the behavior/person/situation. I can control only myself, and that is what I focused on. What wasn’t healthy is that I was MAD AND SAD, and there was nowhere for that to go since I wasn’t heard, so I “put it away” because I had a lot of things to take care of day-to-day. This way of thinking and behaving on my part also made it so no one had to take responsibility for the s**tty behavior going on. I would say, “It just is what it is.” We are “supposed” to love and meet people where they are and for “who” they are, even if they are engaged in s**tty things. Right? My unhealthy way of bypassing the s**t was to just run the show at home and ask as little of him as possible. I clung to the idea that people are free to be who they are. We can’t force anyone to heal or get better, we can only work on ourselves. All of these things are true, but there’s danger when we can’t or don’t find a way to deal with and express our hard feelings.
Guess what happens when the volcano gets too full of boiling hot lava beneath the surface? Eventually, it is going to erupt, one way or another. We either develop unhealthy coping skills that hurt ourselves or there will come a day when the whole thing erupts.
But the fact is this: If we engage our emotions, things are going to have to change. Period. We are terrified of this. This is uncomfortable and will include not only our own hard feelings but likely other people’s as well. And we like to avoid those even MORE than our own sometimes.
I am still in therapy to help me with processing my hard feelings that come up now and then (in regards to that particular situation). I watch my thoughts in all areas of my life to make sure I’m not trying to bypass tough emotions. I believe in personal freedom, but BOUNDARIES are important. I’m having to double down and work extra hard to learn what is appropriate to ask for from another person as a boundary. I am not good at that yet. I’m still unlearning and relearning.
We are humans. I hope that you are healthy enough to be pi**ed when you are pi**ed, and be able to express it in a healthy way where you are heard. I hope that if someone hurts your feelings, you are able to share that with them without feeling like it’s wrong to feel hurt. I wish for all of us that when we have really, really tough stuff, we can look at it without feeling like spiritual failures. We don’t have to put up with crappy behavior just because we once were the same way. There are people who take way more than they give. We bleed for people who don’t really deserve it but they will let us do it as often as we want to in the name of “support”. Boundaries matter! WE MATTER, OUR OWN FEELINGS MATTER.
May we all continue to look at our stuff and engage with it. We need to heal before we can really do well by others.
Emotion= E(nergy in) Motion. If we let emotions move through us, they will dissipate. We can work with them to empower ourselves. Empower= Emotional Power. Engaging will cause change- in us and around us. But if we have pain we aren’t sharing, it is only hurting us and we are also keeping others stuck in their crappy behaviors.
I don’t mean to sound preachy. I’m dealing with this front and center right now. Sometimes it’s positively exhausting. I feel lost a lot of the time. But I am worth it. You are worth it! It’s 2020, and it continues to feel like the world, the Universe is BEGGING US to get healthier, especially emotionally. It’s what we came for.
In Love, Light and Trust that this process is worth the work,
Nicki
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23/07/2024

Love your Elf! This week we talk about nature and elementals and how to connect with them. It's a nice break from the noise of the world, come hang!

Are you a believer in Fairys, Eleves, Leprechuns? Join us this week as we delve into the other realms and discuss the energy and importance of the Elemental ene

09/07/2024

It's a very small world if you have never traveled. It can feel like the place we live is the ONLY place. It can feel a lot like anyone who doesn't live there has no idea about life or what is "right" or "wrong", or how to deal with issues.
By 'travel', I don't mean we need to go far, although seeing other cultures and getting a feel for how BIG the world truly is can be helpful for gaining perspective on where we live, who we are as people.
There are 8 billion people on the planet. It would take 256 YEARS counting nonstop to reach that number. We have 195 countries on this planet. Out of those, THIRTY ONE are considered "first world countries" that have a strong economic and governed status. We are lucky that we live in one- that is an assumption I can safely make since you are reading this. "Lucky" is subjective, there are places even here that are hard to survive in.
Big, strong countries come with issues, of course. Everyone is right about everything, learning to hear the "other side" of any issue is not easy. We insist on laws for all instead of understanding that life is not the same for urban places as suburban places as for our rural friends. Those distinctions alone are like travelling far away sometimes. Things are DIFFERENT in the city than they are out in the country. Life is DIFFERENT if you have expendable income and/or great insurance and can go to any doctor you wish. Life is different if you can sit at home without a job because your perfect opportunity hasn't shown up yet.
It's not like that for most of the world.
But it can feel like it.
I like to think about this sometimes when it feels overwhelming here, as election years sometimes do. We might be a BIG country, but even within this one country, there are so many different landscapes and ways of living and being. Religions can tell us we are the "right" ones, or that believing a certain way is THE ONLY WAY home. We can interpret words to mean different things. We can be made to feel separate from God and one another.
So much of how we feel and think comes from where we were born, to whom, how we were raised, what church we were brought up in, and our coping skills with all of it. If we have been anywhere else, seen anything else, known anything else. For as big as the planet is, it's also incredibly small.
We are in a galaxy of BILLIONS of stars, 100-400 BILLION of them in this one tiny galaxy. There are an estimated TWO TRILLION observable galaxies, but there are many more than that that we cannot see, because it's ENDLESS out there. We are TINY, SMALL, NEW...our lives are short and fast, and we are still VIOLENT. Our damage is measurable, the effect we are having is as well.
Notice something beautiful. Do something kind, anything. Practice having grace for something or someone, yourself. Try to feel how fast this live actually is, how much we waste and take for granted. Go for a walk. Say thanks to the Universe, to your partner, or kids, or pets, of the trees.
It's a big and small world, and we are not the only ones who are "right". Let's try to do no harm, do our best in our own lives without hurting other lives. What works for me might not work for you. Your skill set is different than mine. There is room for us both, for all of us, if we can stop feeling defensive and afraid.
As Steven Georgiou/Yusuf/Cat Stevens says, Baby, baby, its a wild world.
We are here together.
8 billion strong, but One Human Family.
Shine on, as tiny as we are, we are also big and we need you!

02/07/2024

A Short Course on Attachment Theory

We like to talk about this on occasion because the way we grew up and how we attach to others affects our entire lives. When we learn how our unhealed wounds play into our lives to this day STILL, we can make decisions about healing, if we want to. When it comes to spirituality and metaphysical concepts of Oneness, it can be appealing to skip over healing the things that hurt to get to places of premature forgiveness, or ideas about karma etc. Attachment theory can help us learn about ourselves so we can move more authentically towards some of those spiritual concepts.
We will share a little about each attachment style, and leave you with some resources to learn more if you'd like to. This is, to be sure, a very short version of each.
Different people and practices have slightly different names for these.

Secure: If you grew up feeling heard and validated as a child, you likely have a secure attachment. With a secure attachment, asking for your needs to be met comes naturally, it is easy for you to hear others without becoming defensive, and you know your boundaries. You may tend to lean anxious or avoidant, but it isn't when you operate from mainly.

Anxious: When a caregiver is inconsistent, we go through an early loss as a child, and/or abuse of any type occurs as a child, we can develop an anxious attachment. This means that our main concern is being abandoned or rejected. Symptoms can include a high need for reassurance, being fearful of intimacy, difficulty setting boundaries, and having a hard time trusting others. People pleasing often has roots here.

Avoidant: When a caregiver is absent, unresponsive, emotionally unavailable, neglectful, or doesn't allow the child to show their pain and emotions, we can develop a coping strategy of the same. In order to avoid emotional pain, we withdraw from closeness, avoid hard conversations and have boundaries that are too close and tight, not allowing anyone in.

Fearful Avoidant/Disorganized: When a child fears their caregiver while also needing to depend on them long term, disorganized attachment may form. Usually children in this position begin to find ways of feeling safe and meeting their own needs whenever possible. In adulthood, unhealthy relationships tend to feel more familiar, and thus 'safe'. FA's oscillate between severe anxiousness, and withdrawal and avoidance in relationships.

Why is this important? If we wish to live intuitively, we need to learn how to connect with our intuition instead of from the place of our old patterns of behaviors and fears. It's worth learning about.

There are several wonderful resources about attachment theory. One of my favorites is The Personal Development School. Here is the link to the quiz: https://attachment.personaldevelopmentschool.com/quiz?utm_source=google-search&utm_medium=cpc-lead&utm_campaign=18002521897&utm_term=&gc_id=18002521897&h_ad_id=669666125029&utm_content=personal%20development%20school%20test&gad_source=1&gclid=CjwKCAjwyo60BhBiEiwAHmVLJYkNOps55RfrVmTNIZXk1nbDWS1K-y5wJE6AHnr38wegUinbqRqhfhoCI5AQAvD_BwE

Learn, Live, Love!
Nicki

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24/06/2024

You gotta hear this! Join us and meet Madeline Evergreen, a Human Design reader and instructor (she is even if she doesn't call herself that!). She has a super cool story about how she ended up doing exactly what she is meant to do, and she's BRILLIANT at explaining Human Design- which is the COOLEST modality I have encountered. It literally maps out our individual soul plans- it's brilliant. Go Listen!

Join Nicki and Bobby this week as they welcome their guest Madeline Evergreen. She shares her how her journey of seeking health, balance and well being led her

21/06/2024

Jeff Brown is a favorite author of mine, and this is one of my favorite pieces. So many people experience this dynamic that I just had to share it here. It's titled: How To Prepare Emotionally For The Death of a Difficult Parent
-Nicki

11/06/2024

PODCAST TUESDDDDDDAY! This week we take on the giant effort of decoding FORGIVENESS. We all know it's healing, but it's complexity and depth can be tough to traverse.
Forgive everyone everything??? Come hang with us! #

Join Nicki and Bobby this week as they traverse the depths of forgiveness and what it takes to embrace this practice to allow for moving forward and lightening

31/05/2024

"Good" vs "Bad"

I was going to write about the Herophant today. The Hierophant has morphed from one who interprets the mystical or religious mysteries to a modern day "teacher" of sorts.

But my brain, that wants to challenge everything, immediately started in. "Any interpretation of anything is through that person's perception or it's what they want others to hear/follow/believe/think," my brain commented. I sighed. "We need to be careful about what or who we listen to." (including reading this, btw!)

So I tried another approach. Maybe the trick is to run everything we take in through our own filter, give it a good intuitive YES or NO according to our own hearts, to see what is true instead of blinding listening to a "guru" or...anyone! That felt closer to the mark. But then the bigger picture came in.

Although we can mostly agree about what is "right" or "wrong" at a basic level (or maybe not even then!), things get really sketchy one degree out from that. And if we are each living from our own set of what is "right" or "good" for us, but we aren't all in the same place and certainly haven't come from the same places physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually, those barometers move an awful lot. Maybe they don't exist at all outside of ourselves? Someone who is starving hungry is going to act differently than someone who has no food insecurity. Someone who has grown up being abused is going to act differently than someone who grew up with their self esteem intact. Someone who grew up in a rural town has a completely different outlook and life than someone who grew up in the city, All the laws and rules truly DON'T fit the same.There are a million examples, and this is just in AMERICA. We have it so good here that we can really hurt ourselves and others with the abundance of options and choices we have.

So by 6:30am my brain had melted, but another idea dropped in for me to try on.
When we talk about ego- which is neither a good or bad thing, we NEED our egos- we come to the conclusion that BALANCE is an important aspect. Again, if we have too little or too high of a sense of ourselves, certain behaviors tend to immerge and they may not be beneficial for ourselves or others. My brain, of course, wanted to know what THAT might look like, a "balanced" ego. Okay, brain, let's go to work!

A balanced sense of self might present like:
1. A person who has boundaries which are neither too tight nor too loose with others.
2. We will feel okay about speaking our own truth without making others "wrong" because we understand that no one thinks they are "wrong".
3. In that light, if we recognize that people are being hurt in the name of someone else's "righteousness", we can do our part to help if that is in alignment with our egos and hearts.
4. It's easy to recognize our egos when we have been insulted in some way. We don't feel the need to reel it in if we have been complimented or flattered or appreciated, but we will know balance when we understand at the deepest level that those things don't matter and aren't about US, either. We often want to wrap those things around ourselves and say "Yes, they SEE ME and KNOW WHO I AM." At some point, perhaps we will know who we are enough to understand that any good or bad thing another says about us doesn't matter and isn't real, it was their experience of us in that moment. In a different moment in our lives, had they been there, they would walk away with a different feeling about us. Sometimes even moments before. Have you ever been completely irritated, and then walked into a meeting where you had to present yourself a certain way? Which you is the real you?If you see clients, you have to be a certain way....but do they see or hear you at home? Is anyoe privy to the thoughts you have or the behaviors when "no one is looking"? Therefore the compliments and praise are as null as the insults and criticism. At some point we may arrive at that conclusion.
5. So is there really any good or bad? Aren't we all each at different times, according to our own set of beliefs and moral codes etc? If we want to help someone, let it be not because we are righteous in our beliefs, but because we see their human pain. It's pretty clear that here on Earth, there is no "winning", there are too many players and too big a scale of what is what.

My brain is already telling me that this idea of mine isn't right or wrong either. I am already coming up with different situations that are just "wrong", and I cannot understand how anyone on Earth could think some things are okay. But I grew up middle class, and had enough of all the basic things that make life livable, in a safe suburban city, in AMERICA.
What do I really know?
What do any of us?

May our hearts be full. Have a 'good' day! ;)

Nicki

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27/05/2024

Happy Memorial Day! It's PODCAST Monday! Come hang! I interview Bobby and he shares the most interesting stories. Also, the Netherlands have passed a monumental law regarding human euthanasia. It's so fascinating and complex to think about. Let's go, we're waiting for you! :)

Join the crew this week as Nicki turns the tables on Bobby and interviews him on some of his history in becoming a practitioner and they also discuss an article

22/05/2024

There is a section of path where we walk, where in one area much concrete is disrupted by plants growing up through it. Each time we see it I feel so happy that it hasn't been "fixed". I am sure that it was hard, hard, consistent work to break through a layer of concrete like that. These are plants that will not be stopped. Life cannot be stopped. We may leave these current suits but we go on. Life goes on. All things are possible. It can be no other way- look again at the picture! These babies broke through to the sunshine!
Things can be rather simple. By simple, I don't mean to imply that we should skip over the hard, uncomfortable things. Just the opposite. If we are willing to go through the hard, solid, tough things, a little at a time....freedom to grow will surely be ours.
Happy Spring! Ever upward!
Nicki

14/05/2024

It'sssssssss a PODCAST!!!!!!!!
This week Bobby shares what he knows about our higher heart chakras...what that means and how it functions. If anyone here is prone to a panic attack or two, we also discuss which chakras get whacked out of balance, causing them.

Join Bobby and Nicki as they talk about the moving into the higher heart and our eveolving chakra system and how panic attacks can show up in our energy system.

01/05/2024

On our last podcast, we talked about Self-Awareness and ego and how it plays into...well, everything. I think that Self-Awareness is one of the most important tools we have available to us as a path to growth. I'm talking about the US that is here on Earth. I'm not speaking about the calm, perfect All-Knowing part of us that we each have and can tap into during different meditations or practices or is the goal of enlightenment. I'm interested in the Earth us, who came here to have experiences and learn more about Who We Are by feeling, and dealing, and healing.

The three pieces of Self Awareness that fascinate me the most are:
1) Accepting ourselves for who and how we are right this minute, including every imperfection, whether physical, mental, emotional, whatever, as well as any mistakes we have ever made.
2) Having the ability to watch our thoughts and actions and notice where our walls are, how awake our ego really is and the ways we choose to feed it what it wants so we can feel okay. In other words, understanding where we can still grow. And,
3) Gaining the tenacity to do the sometimes painful work of growth through telling ourselves the TRUTH, and then taking actual ACTION, consistent with our goals.

If we find ourselves unable to consciously do these things, the kind Universe presents situation after situation for us to practice it. If we want.

There is something very important and massively empowering to own ourselves in all of our wild colors in the here and now. It's what makes us each special, individual, and interesting. This IS part of our ego: we are each a person and my skin holds in my parts and yours does for you, and therefore we are TWO individual people. It is incredibly healthy to be aware of what we are made of and why. How were we raised? What did we witness, what was done to us, how did these things help form our ideas about ourselves? TRULY loving who we are right now is not only healthy, it can help us with the next part (if we choose). Disliking ourselves often leads to resistance...notice the energy shift in something like trying to lose weight because we hate our body and can't stand how we look vs choosing to eat well and get exercise because we want our body to feel better and be able to do more.

This next part can be hard because it requires that we TELL OURSELVES THE TRUTH and it's not always pretty. Somewhere along the line, we reach adulthood and find ourselves striving to make enough money to live somewhat comfortably, and maybe we picked up a partner who likes us for who we were when they met us and we, them, and maybe there are kids and all of our time and attention goes to holding it all together.Even just one of those things can take our full attention. We can choose to focus on the people at work instead of our own truth and growth. IT can be wildly hard to notice that we are growing apart from the person we once thought was our forever person- relationships in general are the biggest triggers for growth IF we let them be. Too often, we don't. Acknowledging things we discover about ourselves and how they may not serve us well is a BIG DEAL. Discovering the WHY behind it, using our voices, learning boundaries and how to say HEY, THAT IS'T OKAY WITH ME is important. Just when we think that this is the hardest part....
3) Doing the work! Is something irritating? Can we find out why? Can we TALK about it? Can we own what is ours and what is another persons? Part of the reason this part is so hard other than actually owning our crap and sharing that information with the people affected is that we are TRULY affected by other's words and deeds. While we might react to certain things because it is truly about our own past interactions, it's not always just on us. The other person might be avoiding their own stuff, they might dodge taking responsibility, they may say hurtful things expecting that we will just give them grace, a million situations. It is not always 100% on us to keep ourselves happy by changing the things that hurt us into a different thing so we can feel comfortable with others. That is people pleasing to the nth degree and it's not healthy or okay. Spiritual bypassing or a very manipulative person can twist things around so that it IS our own fault, always. It IS our thinking, it is US. It isn't always. Doing the work will help us recognize these behaviors in ourselves and others so that we can further understand Who We Are Now. And just like that, we end up at #1 again.

Maybe that's the wheel of life? Learning to love ourselves enough to be honest so we can grow and change, and love ourselves through that, too.

No one NEEDS to do any of it. I'm sure we spend lifetimes just dinking around, letting time pass and not being concerned with our words, thoughts, deeds. There is a lot of that happening around us now. It can't be forced, and it's the magic of Earth- we have this place to come do some pretty harsh things. Once we have done that enough, we may feel like we can be of some sort of service to others, to animals, to Earth. Our understandings may grow. We may understand that we have plenty to give, even if it's just our understanding. We can have our healthy boundaries, love ourselves, and do what we can to add to instead of take from others and Earth.
Earth, this place, was set up this way on purpose. When Earth has had enough of our taking, she will let us know (looks around) ;)

Let's do a loving thing today, for ourselves or aother. Noticing a beautiful flower counts, patting a dog's head, comforting someone who is hurting, especially if it's ourselves...there are a million ways. Let's just pick one today!

Round and 'round we go!
Nicki

23/04/2024

Hey now! Come hang out with us as we discuss the almighty, important EGO! We need our egos, and we do better to be aware of it, as well. We dive into Caroline Myss's book "The Creation of Health" during our self-awareness discussion.

Join us this week as we chat about self reflection and our Ego. One of the biggest challanges in learning how to listen to your Intuiton is to understand when a

08/04/2024

Happy Monday!!! We had on a phenomenal guest yesterday! I can't wait for you to meet her! Her name is Claudia and she is one of the most lovely souls. She helps connect parents with their baby's souls, whether the baby has been conceived, miscarried, let go, or is having a hard time being conceived! All her contact info is in the comments. Go meet her!

Join us this week as we welcome our guest Claudia Rsenhouse Raiken, who is a world expert at facilitating communication between the parents and the baby in the womb or with the souls planning to come, still not conceived, and even those that were miscarried or aborted.  Claudia share some of her st...

02/04/2024

How Does Mental Health Play Into Spirituality?

I am regularly challenged by the question that I just asked. For those who don't listen to our podcast, I am going to introduce myself to you.

My name is Nicki. I have grown up with a condition called PMDD (PreMenstrual Dysphoric Disorder). Whether it's from the never ending coping with PMDD while growing up or my own complicated brain, I also deal with a touch of complex PTSD. That sounds like a major thing (it is, lol) and while I have struggled greatly, I also think that both things are far more common than we realize. As are anxiety, depression, and a whole host of other hard mental diagnosis.

I have gone to exceptional lengths to save my life. I have had multiple surgeries and am in therapy TWICE a week. EMDR and "regular" therapy. I am on estrogen, and I cannot mess up what time I take it. I cannot take herbs and have to be careful about which plants, veggies and fruits I eat because I am so sensitive to phytoestrogen. No matter how spiritual I am, it does not erase these challenges I work with.

I am oversharing a bit because in the spiritual world we hear things like "Our thoughts create our reality." which would mean that I have somehow done all of this to myself. The PMDD makes me suicidal. It's ugly. Also, anyone who has suffered from abuse of any sort, whether it's emotional/mental physical, or sexual is NOT at cause of their suffering. Trying to heal from those things takes so much work! It is easier and so common to obtain an addiction or cope in another unhealthy way than swim around in the pain of these things, not to mention the cost involved with getting help. It is simply out of reach for many people.I am so unfairly privileged that I get to have so much help and therapy, and take spiritual courses etc. Most people don't.

I understand that we can get stuck in a place where we are not standing in our power. There is an element of taking back control, and doing everything we can to get ourselves into healthier spaces that IS up to us. Our realities DO shift when we make different choices, whether it's leaving a job or relationship that we are miserable in, to simply using our voice to ask for forgiveness or tell someone why we are hurt.

But I cannot say it enough- victim blaming and shaming is not okay when it comes to trying to heal. Positive vibes only is BS. If we are constantly uncomfortable in our heads or bodies, it's because there is stored stuff in us that needs help finding it's way out. Denying it keeps it stuck. Working to rewire brains and working to figure out what programs are running in there in the first place is HARDDDD.

We are not manifesting more pain by diving into our pain to get it worked out. It's pretty well known that many physical symptoms can be traced back to emotional ones, and once we start looking at BOTH things, we can start to get somewhere. (None of this has helped reduce the torture of PMDD when it happens, in case you wondered. I can't spiritualize or therapy it away. Is it my fault? Am I doing it wrong?)

Another concept I want to acknowledge that falls under this also- the idea that if we just see ourselves as healed, we will be. The pain in this is that sometimes, for no "good" reason, miracles do occur. And we can sometimes believe that whatever it was that that person was doing, is THE answer. That cancer will be cured if we do this, that and the other. That mental illness can be wiped away if we are touched by a certain healer. That energy work can help rearrange someone's genetics, helping them see, hear, speak, walk, whatever. I don't believe that we have to see all of our pains as GOOD, or as LESSONS that we deserve karmically. I do believe that we can CHOOSE to see silver linings or notice that our compassion for others' suffering has increased due to our own. But there are situations and conditions that are so painful, or borne of so much pain that only an as***le would insist that 1. we are at cause for the things done to us by others, especially when it comes to abuse and being violated in any way and/or 2. that we continue to suffer because we aren't seeing ourselves as healed the right way and are blocking our own healing.

Sorry this is so long. I want you to hear this- if you or someone you care for struggles- we are not forsaken. We are not left out by Source. In fact, I happen to think that those of us who have to work so hard to watch every thought, who want to heal from the very beginning layers of Who We Are, are snuggled in a little closer even, because we need to be. Because we hoover closer to the edge sometimes. Because the darkness wraps itself around us too tightly now and then and we have to work harder to claw our way back to the light. I see you and I CHEER YOU ON. It's okay if you can't think yourself out of it with affirmations. It's okay if "raising your vibration" isn't in the cards today. It's okay if you don't give a rat's ass about ascending your energy today. Sometimes we need a minute. I will sit with you when you do!

PS You now know this about me. I also love Jesus MADLY, care for animals and humans who cannot communicate well, talk to trees, bust clouds, laugh my head off daily and will run towards the emergency instead of away from. I'm saying that these things that I have to deal with do not stop me from being Love. IT DOESN'T STOP ANY OF US. They both exist. Learning to LOVE ourselves so we can LOVE others doesn't mean we don't have s**t days. Not crapping on other people when WE are having a hard day is a perfectly spiritual goal to have.We are Love even when we are in our nightmares.

PPS- if you don't listen to our podcast yet, go do it! The link to the latest one is in the post below this one.

Hang in there! It's okay to struggle. Our lights still shine!
Nicki