My Story - Becoming More Confident
Hey everyone, my name’s Colton Courtney aka “BlitzuCranku”. The story of how BlitzuCranku became a thing began with me and my cousin, Logan Mathis, a long time ago. And by “long” I mean about 5-6-7 years but that’s long for me since I’m a youngin’. Back them it was me and my cousin hanging out, making videos we thought would be cool, and making endless jokes that I knew were hilarious. He was creative and I was creative and the things we came up with were so funny to me that at some point the inkling of an idea started to form. Maybe I had what it takes to become famous. Not just in general, but for making things that make people happy. I’m not famous now or anything, but that was the hope and idea. That people would like what I made.
Over the next years through High School and College it manifested itself in many attempts of publishing different videos, memes, jokes, accounts, Youtube and social media posts, and finally ended up making its final debut in my creation of the Twitch.tv account, “BlitzuCranku”. It was a funny name based on a character I loved to use in League of Legends called Blitzcrank. Every time I would pick him I would shout in fluent Weebanese “Burrrrritsu Kurrrrranku!!!!” and laugh excessively hard at my own joke. It was a stupid thing that shouldn’t have made it out of the joke phase but when the time came and I managed to talk myself into finally doing something about my thoughts and feelings, it was what I fell onto. And to me, the fact that it was a funny side joke that I said every once in a while devoid of all seriousness made it perfect for what I wanted to do. I didn’t want this to be me sitting in front of a camera online and telling everyone how great I was or what I had to offer. Only to joke around and do what I love, to make people smile. And I hope, I seriously do, that that goal doesn’t die. I never want to do this for any other reason than that. If I’ve made you smile with any of my jokes or videos please don’t hesitate to reach out. I love to hear what’s working and what isn’t so I can continue to make what I create better.
I am sure I missed stuff in here about the story but I guess I should now elaborate on the title. “Becoming More Confident”... Yeah, sadly I have to admit that I haven’t always been confident in how funny I am. When I’m alone, walking around singing lyrics I made up to myself, those jokes always come out perfectly. But when it comes to projecting those thoughts into space, communicating them so that people understand me. Sometimes it just doesn’t come out right. And I care to much about what people think so my jokes aren’t what I am actually trying to say. Sometimes, it feels like no one really cares at all about what I have to say. But as cheesy as it is, I will never forget what my mom always told me. She told me that I could do anything. Anything in the world that I wanted to. As long as I worked hard enough. And so that’s what I have done. Since I started this channel about a year and a half ago I have been challenging myself everyday to be more public and honest, more decisive and more confident. To attempt to speak truly in my daily life and say what I think is funny regardless of others thoughts. But I didn’t start taking that seriously until about 6 months ago. Thanks to my job, I was able to purchase a new computer and start actively streaming more than I ever could. I started making Youtube videos, trying to reach out on discord and Facebook, and create the image I had in my head when I was little and thinking about my future. I didn’t stay consistent and I still don’t feel like I am to the degree that people expect, but I am so proud of myself for at least DOING IT! And over the past months, I have really noticed a change in my life. I have started to be more frank with people, make jokes I wouldn’t make around certain people around those certain people, and just be more open about what I like to everyone. It has made me happier and finally, MORE CONFIDENT. Streaming and this page have given me a change to share my interests, videos, and in the last little bit, memes, that I want to make or just enjoy from others. It has given me an outlet to share things I think will make others just as happy as they make me. My parents told me to find what I like, what I want, and make a career out of it. And I knew from a very young age that whatever I did, I wanted to make the world a happier place. And I hope that through this page I am starting to do that.
