20/02/2024
There are people in my life that are no good for me, yet I still have moments where I miss them.
I used to push our memories away. They hurt too much, so why spend a moment thinking about them?
That pain, whether I was thinking about it or not, stayed with me.
“I can’t believe they threw me away like that.”
“I can’t believe I was stupid enough to trust them.”
“Why did I let them in to begin with?”
These intrusive thoughts brought me no benefit, only anger and sorrow.
I had to change the way I reflected on these people in my life. Not only to relinquish my pain, but to see MY part in the fallout too.
Thanks to therapy, I was given some new questions to ask myself.
“Who were they when we met?”
“Who was I when we met?”
“How did we change and get to where we are now?”
These questions allowed me to take a step back, remove my emotions for a moment, and instead, reflect on our own individual journeys.
Almost every time I asked myself these questions I ended up with the same affirming conclusion.
“We are not good for each other anymore.”
I know it. Maybe they do or don’t know it. But I myself am determining that this person is not healthy for me anymore, nor am I healthy for them, and that’s ok.
The more I sit with these thoughts, the more I can accept where I’m at now.
Instead of pain, I now see that it can be a pleasure to miss someone. It means we had something worth missing, and y’know what, that’s special.
To all the people that I miss, I hope you are well. With a little love (and for some of you) a LOT of growth, our paths may cross again. If not, I hope you get the opportunity to think fondly on our memories, as I often do. ❤️
-Taylor