Bethany Crouch

04/02/2024

Join me and sound healer Madi Rane this Wednesday at Radiant Light Healing Center in Gold River for an evening of deep relaxation.

https://www.radiantlighthealingcenter.com/special_events

12/01/2024

Halo Sweet Souls,

WOW, LIFE!

WE ARE ALIVE! And I gratefully choose life. It is quite the journey, indeed.

The last few years have rocked my world with a wealth of opportunities to learn about nurturing (my own) mental and physical health.

Big Takeaway: the body holds the key to peace of mind.

The body has its own language, its own way of communicating. The most loving thing I am doing (for the whole of me) is learning to “hear” what my body has to say, and how I can best respond, with care. This, in turn, creates peace in my life.

After receiving a stage3 breast cancer diagnosis in July2022, I intuitively knew that I require a whole-human approach to health. Meaning, I see the cancer as the body’s white flag, a symptom of deeper issues. Through this knowing, I sought and continue to seek deeper understanding of the mind-body connection.

(My health is doing fabulously well while my journey toward a cancer-free body is ongoing.)

The art of Somatics is described as a mind-body approach to life that helps increase body awareness.

For me, establishing a mind-body connection and learning my body’s language provides a path to creating (and sustaining) well-being, peace of mind, and authentic connection.

Synchronistically, my soul sister, Cherie deFer, has been studying and preparing to teach Somatics to the world. This February, she and I are teaming up to offer two, one day immersive workshops, into the world of Somatics.

These one day workshops (choose from two February dates) are designed to help us all navigate the ebb and flow of challenging emotions and situations.

In a warm, supportive environment:

- Cultivate tangible tools to enhance. mental and emotional well-being

- Learn the practical benefits of Somatic practice

- Build your own Somatic practice

- Walk away with an understanding of the window of tolerance, how the nervous system works, and how to effectively regulate your nervous system when stress strikes

Because Cherie loves me dearly, she is giving the proceeds from these workshops to support me during my continued cancer care. 100% of the donations collected will go to my treatments.

We look forward to sharing the world of Somatics, with you!

Please consider joining us for these special offerings.



WHEN:

Sunday Feb 4 from 9am - 5pm

Saturday Feb 10 from 9am - 5pm

(Arrive between 8:30 & 8:55am)



WHERE:

The Refuge at Corazon Del Oro

Loomis, CA



PLEASE BRING:

Yoga mat, comfy clothes, note-taking supplies, sack lunch, a curious mind



REQUESTED DONATION: $121 (limited space / register early)

If anyone in your life may also benefit from this offer, please pass it along.


To register, visit www.Bethanycrouch.com

16/06/2023

A recent inspired conversation closed with my friend Brook Larios saying to me:

"The art is in the process."

Yes, yes, it is.

And... I can choose to see myself, and each of us, as life's unique expressions of art... in process of becoming.

Every
Single
Moment

Just all of it.

Every perfectly messy stage is itself, art.

My life, my personal art installation.

I like this vantage point.

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This week, I delighted in joining creatives Katie Knipp and Andrew Gayner for their art in process. I like to imagine that by the time Katie's fresh single and accompanying music video (in which I got to participate) get released, I will be celebrating big gains in my healing journey.

I believe! I trust! I know!

It feels tender to be captured on camera during this raw moment of becoming.

I'm grateful for the opportunity to play.

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Thank you for the continued messages of solidarity and support. Thank you to those who are able to support my fundraising campaign (link in bio). If I haven't yet thanked you personally, please know, I intend to reach out!!

12/06/2023

Living my life like it's golden- Jill Scott
✨️ (Because it is!!!)

C A N C E R ... such a nasty word carrying the most heartbreaking implications and inspiring such fear, rage, and hatred. Understandably so.

I get it. I see this side. I do. Likely, all of us have been or will be impacted by cancer's reaches.

And... because it's here, and because it feels unsupportive for me to go to war with something happening within me, I choose a fresh lens for this situation with which I now roll. Because I must, for my own mental and emotional well-being, be positive and grateful.

I choose gratitude for what's happening inside me. I choose to harvest every every every nuggest of a gift from this experience. Extract the nectar!!

My perspective seems to be different than that of most. Hear me out... I LOVE what this diagnosis is doing for me.

Cancer ignited me. Cancer is the electric current sparking my being into life. Cancer is teaching me so much about living in this body, being human... forgiveness, love, compassion, grace, humility... tenderness. Cancer is inspiring all the necessary conversations because now is all there is. (AND let me be clear, I'm actively removing the cancer from my being because while I do appreciate its gifts, I prefer it exit, gracefully)

There's so much I can (and will!) share about this journey.

I have time.... I believe this. I know this in my heart, not because I'm clinging to and fighting for my life.. but because I'm genuinely loving my life, and I feel life loving me back in big big ways.

For now, I just say thank you for your messages, your love, your prayers, your kindness, and allllllll your good vibes. You seriously rock. Thank you to those who have had the ability to help me feel held through the gofundme effort. It's all goodness. Such goodness.

Inward and onward, we roll!

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(PS Foothill Skate Inn has an awesome summer skate pass deal! Thanks to my skate loving friend Tom for sponsoring mine and this video! ❤️ 🛼 )

04/06/2023

I am alive!

Right in this moment.

Heart beating
Blood pumping

A L I V E ❤️

I am a human!
And I am alive.
And I choose it.
I choose Life ... and Life is choosing me right back. It's a relationship, a two-way street.

I WANT TO LIVE!!! LIFE, DO YOU HEAR ME??? I CHOOSE YOU!!

Getting very, very clear on that critical detail, I have discovered, is a key part of navigating anything that threatens life, be it diagnosis or heartbreak or mindbreak or all of it at once.

And with that... I've also discovered that the time for Playful Ridiculousness is now.

I am embracing ridiculousness and enjoying every just every moment of it. Because sometimes there is sadness, and sometimes there is resistance and sometimes there is despair, and you know what!? Playful Ridiculousness is a fantastic antidote to feeling caught up in the heavy seriousness of lived human experience.

May you, too, find your way to some Playful Ridiculousness, sooner than later.

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Thank you, my sweet friend sister house mate Abi, for inspiring so many laughs and so much joy... and all of the ridiculousness.

Thank you, community, for your continued support as I raise funds for all the various treatments and care. I am so grateful. All support is welcome!

Access the fundraiser here:
https://gofund.me/e4dd90f3

Learn more about my last 5 years here:
https://youtu.be/lA7uPpfXGdg

If you, too, find yourself in need of some unconditionally loving, non judgemental support, find my friends Joe & Denise who offer donation based services:
www.newparadigmoflove.com

31/05/2023

Something magic is unfolding.

In addition to the added benefit of taking myself, and life, so much less seriously...
..I'm discovering... cancer is a catalyst for connection through honest expression..

In the last week, as I've reentered the land of public engagement... I'm hearing from friends with whom I haven't had contact in decades, friends from high school, college, my Up With People castmates and host families, former coworkers and bosses, people whose business or creation or story I featured on the morning news, former loves with whom there's been heartache and estrangement, I'm hearing from people I love dearly and people I've just met, viewers from the TV news days, family members I haven't spoken to in years...

Yes, sure a "life threatening" diagnosis seems to carry a special urgency, and I'm happy for that, actually. Because, yes now is the time. While we're here.. while we're alive. Now is what we have. And I embrace the healing from all angles. I welcome the prayers, positivity and good vibes.. just all of it!

Thank you for walking with me and cheering me on. All support is welcome and felt. It all matters!! ❤️ For those who are contributing to the fundraising campaign, thank you for helping me cover the costs of my treatments. It feels good to allow myself to be held in this by you in all the various ways... and I know that's part of the medicine.

It's good.. really, really good.

May my healing
Be your healing
Be our healing

I love you.

29/05/2023

In life, I have discovered... there are a great many things we may prefer not do.

I would prefer not navigate cancer.
I would prefer not have suffered a series of crises stemming from sexual abuse.
I would prefer not need help.

And yet, here I am.

And this is reality. As The Work of Byron Katie teaches, to argue with reality only always creates suffering.

My reality reveals that I can no longer walk this path in isolation. My reality shows me that I need support from my community.

If you have the ability and heart's desire to contribute to my healing crisis opportunity, I humble myself and gratefully, joyfully accept.

I look forward to emerging renewed with wisdom to share, prepared to participate fully in the life game, yet again.

May my healing
Be your healing
Be our healing

Thank you.
I love you.

This is a link to my public expression of raw vulnerability about where I have been since leaving TV News in 2018, and why, I am now at the end of my savings as I have been working to recover myself.

https://youtu.be/lA7uPpfXGdg

This is a link to my gofundme healing opportunity

https://gofund.me/e4dd90f3

Thank you for witnessing me.

My journey, as documented on Facebook Hello Beloved. I am experienci… Bethany Crouch needs your support for Bethany's Cancer Crisis Opportunity

29/05/2023

Uncomfortable Truth:
This is a trigger warning.

The call on my life for vulnerable public expression goes beyond sharing the cancer journey.

Doctors say there's no way to know what caused cancer to grow & thrive. Maybe that's true from their vantage point. From where I stand, I'm clear on how and why I'm now living this experience. Suppressed trauma and disease are linked. The brilliant work of Gabor Maté reveals this daily.

For 5 years, I've been piecing together the puzzle of my personal brush with madness, preparing to tell a story only those closest to me presently know. I will reveal this story for my own healing, and because I believe my healing is your healing is our healing. And, I believe it's a story whose time has come for illumination. My story is a story more people than we possibly realize share in common.

We are the only ones who can choose to stop the decline into collective psychosis by declaring the story end now.

With that, I desire to do no harm.

If you feel intuitively unprepared, on any level, for any reason to read or hear about the below subjects, please elect to stay away from my social media until you feel ready. If you need support to navigate anything that may arise for you, please visit my beautiful friends at https://www.newparadigmoflove.com/ where they offer donation based resources.

Help is available.


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Together, we can

28/05/2023

Do y'all remember this gorgeous angel of a woman? For years she fed our minds and bellies through her beloved Green Boheme restaurant. The brilliant Brooke Preston is reemerging with new live and online offerings centered on deeply nourishing the mind, body and spirit. She's partnered with our friends at the newly opened Radiant Light Healing Center in Gold River to offer a 6week immerive course on healing and using food as preventative medicine. She is also hosting classes and dine and demos at the 5acre organic farm she stewards in Loomis.

Visit her online here:
www.VibrantBalance.Life

When I received the diagnosis in June 2022, my inner knowing began whispering to me Brooke's name. Because I was in shock, because I was folding in on myself, because asking for help felt impossible, I delayed calling her. The voice grew louder.

Upon connecting, it was clear that something beyond either of us was working within us. As I had prayed for help, Brooke had prayed for someone to help.

I can't make this stuff up.

Brooke has been walking alongside me and holding me, as together we navigate this multi layered healing opportunity.

While she may not have a specific diagnosis, we are finding that, as I heal, she heals. It's an unintended consequence, part of the process. It can't be helped.
Healing begets healing.
(Like trauma begets trauma)

If you or someone you love has a diagnosis or would like to learn how to prevent one, Brooke is the WOMAN.

Learn more about Radiant Light Center - EESystem here:

https://www.radiantlight.center/

28/05/2023

My face on YOUR LOVE!

I've had the biggest smile radiating all week as I read your words and slowly slowly respond to each of you. Thank you for reaching out and sharing your hearts, your sorrows, your joys, and your sameness. Thank you for encouraging me to keep sharing. I guess my story is giving to us both, I love that.

Increasingly, I am of the perspective that there is just One of us here, and we are only ever always just reflecting ourself back through the other.

Exploration into nonduality is giving me A LOT in this season of deepened presence and uncertainty as I embrace the concept of nonattachment ... to my body, my ideas, my things, my way, my relationships, my life. To anything. There is nothing of this world we keep. It all goes away. (Although... I can imagine the limitless love I perceive us to be, of which we arise and which return, forever endures ❤️)

In her work, teaches about the intrinsic human compulsion to seek for a sense of sure-footedness, certainty, groundedness... but becoming comfortable with the inevitable groundless nature of existence is one way we offer ourselves peace. I experience breathing into the pressing discomfort of not knowing as an act of compassionate self-love. I trust that I am held in Creator's Infinite Love, and beyond that, I'm on a need to know basis 😆

This life is a relentless training ground for non attachement practice.

Along the way, together, we walk.

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for all the beautifully supportive, caring, loving messages of connection!

I feel you! ❤️ I love you!

24/05/2023

Regarding my angst and resistance to vulnerable public expression, my soul sister reflection inquires pointedly, "What's the worst that can happen? Is it worse than cancer?"

(Your candidness equally stuns and amuses me, , and I love you for pushing on me.)

What do I have to lose? What haults me from showing up? I was so public for two decades, and then so not for 5 years.

Ashley Taylor, another soul sister who has walked with me for half our lives, spins the query... asking, "What's the BEST that can happen?"

In that moment, it's clear: No matter how exposure is framed, fear paralyzes me.

Of what am I so afraid?

Death doesn't scare me. It's life... I'm afraid to let myself live. I'm afraid to participate in the game again. I've been believing a story that I don't know how to do it... as if it's possible to get it wrong... like I can fail at being alive. The truth is, I do feel like I failed at life. Starting over terrifies me.

Into the fear I must go.

Is resurfacing publicly worse than cancer? It may feel harder in this moment, but no, that's just the ego.

My doctor said to me yesterday... "Bethany, you're learning to be human."

And I know she's right.

I will be brave in the face of both cancer and life.