The Rabbit Hole: Adventures in Awareness Expansion

13/07/2024

You heard it here first, all my faithful and fellow philosophers of the weird and wonderful ways of our Universe are invited to accompany me to China where I'll be based in Shanghai for a year (unless I get kicked out or hauled back to NZ 😅).

My reasons and intentions are detailed in this first episode, and I look forward to entertaining you all over the next year as I observe myself and others, and share what I'm certain will be humbling deductions... 💯🐇🕳️ 💖

Episode 1: Introduction & My Velvety Matariki Intention What the hell is The China Experiment Vlog, and why is this a thing? 🤔🤷‍♀️✨ A Wee ...

07/07/2024

The fewer words said about this the better... 😉💯 🐇🕳️ 💖

I don't have much to say about this really, it's more about questions to ponder while digesting a seemingly uncomplicated equation. Nothing ...

30/06/2024

I have no clue what research I was doing, or why, when I came across this classic written over nine years ago... but I'll be damned if the words don't still pack a punch! 🐇🕳️ 💖

Recalling the scene is enough to give me goosebumps, and the cold sweat of having to acknowledge I've still got a lot of 'work' to do in this space. But I'd rather share my shame than hide it, so here it is... 😅🙏🤪

There is no way to articulate what happened to me; at a minimum, it was deific. I still feel awe when remembering the experience and tears f...

23/06/2024

Right, I'm literally giddy at releasing this one... what a topic to tackle! We could shoot an elephant through the gap between perception and reality at the best of times. Add in another layer of complexity between OUR perception/reality and those of OTHERS... Now we've got a deep rabbit hole to explore! See you on the other side. 😅🙏🤪

I’m fully aware that my constant pursuit of a deeper knowing and expansion of my human consciousness has made me, and will continue to make...

26/05/2024

I'm gutted because I had a fresh and gnarly one for you all this week, but my blog has decided to pack a sad and I wasn't able to insert the links and word formatting that I feel is the hallmark of The Rabbit Hole. 🐇🕳️ 💖

In the meantime, please enjoy this re-release. According to the numbers it may have been missed by many of you, likely because I sent it out over the Christmas/New Year's period originally... it's a 'fun' one, trust me! 😅🙏🤪

I love how one random moment on a row machine can make me pause and reflect on... Who I am based on how I act Who I am based on who I think...

12/05/2024

This is an actual letter I wrote to my beloved sister whilst ugly-crying, inspired by a song she had sent me... it's a 'fun' one! 🐇🕳️ 😅 💖🙏🤪

Dedicated to my sister, my Heart, and published with her permission. 🙏💖🐇 That song, that f*$ song you sent me… Good god damn did it...

28/04/2024

Yes, it's been a hot minute, and there's no other way to describe the nutty AF roller coaster I've been on than this profound realisation. I know that's a bit click-baity, but this one will deliver in more ways than one. That's a promise! 🐇🕳️ 😅 💖🙏

My Sunday started off like all others, a fortified coffee (Cappuccino sachet + a heap of extra instant 😳😵) and tarot reflection, then to ...

25/02/2024

We're facing a harsh truth this week... People can appear to be real a*holes, people can be lost to their own s**tty behaviours and inner darkness... and it sucks for all of us. 🐇🕳️

The best we can do in such situations, so far as I can tell in my limited experience, is to use this as a lesson and a motivation to engage with and explicitly engage with our inner light. But let us not fall victim to the logical fallacy that these people are truly evil... life is simply not that simple. 🤪😅 💖🙏

Events at play in my personal life have put my 2012 definition of a ' Good Person ' back in my face to confront those thoughts in a decidedl...

04/02/2024

It really ought not surprise anyone that I read tarot, a Gypsy will be a Gypsy afterall... 🤔😅🤷‍♀️🐇🕳️

In this short musing on one particular card, I hope to convey the true essence of what tarot healing is for me (instead of the creepy and bulls**t-ridden carnival misperception). 🙏💖

TRIGGER WARNING : This post touches on aspects of my Disordered Eating and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) . Please proceed with kindn...

28/01/2024

This week we're exploring the intentional use of our precious human energy and considering how much determination is too much determination... 🤔🤷‍♀️🐇🕳️

One of the whimsical concepts that takes up a considerable amount of glucose metabolism in my brain is the idea that many people have pheno...

20/01/2024

Who hasn't observed themselves doing something whimsically ridiculous... like yelling at your phone in public? 😂🤪🤷‍♀️👀

Join me in having an epiphany-stuffed laugh at myself. 💖🙏🐇🕳️

I love how one random moment on a row machine can make me pause and reflect on... Who I am based on how I act Who I am based on who I think...

14/01/2024

I am BEYOND STOKED to release this one! 🥳💯.

An odd occurrence struck me nigh on 4 years ago when I contemplated the seemingly odd behaviours of a new colleague, and why they felt so closed off and, well, Prickish. 😅🤷‍♀️

Now, everything that life has taught me about human nature and psychological safety ever since has been building; allowing me to create this amusing and befitting analogy... 💖🙏🐇🕳️

Growing up I had a pet hedgehog aptly named Sonic. Sonic pricked up and was afraid constantly at first but with repeated attempts he grew us...

23/12/2023

Uhh, the trigger warning for this one probably tells you everything you need to know... Maybe save this one for a day you're already feeling a bit s**tty. 💖😅🙏🐇🕳️

TRIGGER WARNING: This post touches on aspects of my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and Disordered Eating within the context of my marriage's demise. 😳

It is deeply vulnerable, brutally honest, contains a lot of unedited F-bombs and may be a bit F-ing BLEAK on the whole (akin to listening to "I Know It's Over" by The Smiths 😅😭). I wrote this to sate my own need for healing as a way to express and process my grief. My intention is to openly share a very apt example of how profound emotional issues can lay submerged in our subconscious for prolonged periods of time, how they might present as elusive self-sabotaging behaviours, and to contemplate what the hell to do with them when they finally come bubbling up to the surface.

TRIGGER WARNING : This post touches on aspects of my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and Disordered Eating within the context of my ma...

10/12/2023

Hot off the press, a fresh one!🕳️🐇💖

Gosh, how to explain this one... A coach becomes the coachee perhaps? 🤔💯

An intriguing exploration of triggers, hints to what lies frozen within the depths of our inner icebergs. 🥶🧊😅

A seemingly 'ordinary' coaching session threw me down a massive rabbit hole... 🕳🐇 I listened to my coachee with growing unease as they de...

26/11/2023

Apologies for last week's miss. I MC'd a wedding and didn't get time to go down the Rabbit Hole, but this week I'm back with a refreshed and updated article from 3 years ago, delving into the topic of what being 'Good Enough' means and all the weird and wonderful ways we might tell ourselves we aren't... Definitely not as linear as we'd like it to be! 🤪😂🙏💖🐇

Also, just as a reminder... The key to the Rabbit Hole are the LINKS in bold blue text. Click on these to navigate to other articles/resources related to the linked word... Have fun. 🕳️🐇

Dear me, what ever will I do with myself... barking at the heels of 36 and not satisfied with who I am and still not sure if I'm happy. Same...

12/11/2023

How could a silent electric motor spark anger? Why do dogs sniff each other's butts? What enables me to 'read' a room? The answer, in my humble opinion, is feedback in all its weird and wonderful forms. 👂🤯🕳️🐇

I've also added some awareness-expanding questions to consider at the end of the 'Whim' articles... Introspection is hard, allow me to help. 🤪😂🙏💖

I returned home from a business trip once to find my car parked in a different spot. Drawing the logical conclusion that my neighbour (who’s...

05/11/2023

Out of necessity, or perhaps laziness 🤷‍♀️, I've created a whole new style of post... intro 'Whim of the Week...'! Intended to be short, relatively amusing, thought-provoking and wonderfully random.🐇💖

What to do when I’m keen to write something, anything really, to cultivate and reinforce my habit of creative expression through writing and...

30/10/2023

Another re-release this week, complete with fresh updates, because this gypsy prioritised time on Mt. Pirongia over writing this weekend. 😂🌿🙏

Oh the wind, I don't think I'm alone in getting frustrated with its unrelenting and pushy presence from time to time.... I wonder why? 🤔 🐇💖🤯

Ever since I could remember I've disliked the wind blowing on me, and that dislike escalates to near rage while I'm running. In fact the win...

23/10/2023

I've attempted to dust off this relic of an article and breath some new life into it...

Have you ever had an epiphany but worried that it would slip your memory... lost into the abyss of our grey matter along with high school algebra and 80's song lyrics?

You're not alone, only the s**t I worry about forgetting is existential... 😂🐇💖

I love Sudoku . Indeed, it's my favourite game to play whilst having lunch at work or distracting myself from turbulence and screaming babi...

15/10/2023

I'm not sure how to preface this one... Guess you'll need to read it and make up one of your own 🤣💖🤷‍♀️

Despite my OCD's insistance that I keep a clinically tidy and militantly organised inbox, these words have persisted for three years; most o...

08/10/2023

Phew, it's been a wee while. I've got plenty of reasons and excuses for why I've fallen off the wagon, but no matter! Here we are, ready to explore more mind-bending psychological and emotional human conundrums. This week's publication promises plenty of both! 🐇😝

Esoteric Hypothesis: If we were as****es more, than we'd be A ssholes less. Firstly, I've googled, ironcial is in fact a word... 🤓 I've men...

22/08/2023

Smooth waters make s**tty sailors 😅😉🙏

25/06/2023

OMG, I just discovered (because I googled it 😂) that a horde of bunnies is called a Fluffle... How f*ing cute is that?!

So, my dear fluffle, here is another blast from the past newly brushed off and re-vamped with Rabbit-Holey goodness for mental and emotional stimulation. 🐇🙏💖

NOTE: This will be my last email for awhile as I travel Iceland and the Mediterranean with my Sister and eldest Neice, YAY! Hoping to resume with some fresh new meaderings in early August. Until then, keep well and continue to lean into those weird and wonderful questions along The Spectrum. 😉😝

I've already touched upon the enigmatic expanse of confidence , yet feel something remains amiss. I hadn’t yet sussed out what constitutes...

11/06/2023

Allow me to take you back to where it all started... 💖🐇🤔🙏

A change. No, not simply a change, a fundamental shift . How am I ever to articulate the transition from who I was, to who I am, to becomin...

05/06/2023

Ah, the Power of Choice; I can think of no other topic as deserving of a Rabbit Hole! 💖🐇🤔🙏

More and more I find that one of the greatest potentials we hold is our Power of C H O I C E . I wrote this entire article before realising...

28/05/2023

An interesting celebration of turning up my Heart and turning down my Brain. 💖🐇🤔

What a period of self discovery! I not only accept but now readily embrace my... how to put it... well, Self, I suppose. I describe myself...

16/05/2023

07/05/2023

Here's a great question... 🤔

How often do we stop to consider whether we're thinking our feelings, or actually feeling our feelings? 💖🐇🤔

EQ Vs. IQ Disturbingly, during an Emotional Intelligence (EQ) Leadership Workshop, I realised that I had been unknowingly deceiving myself...

30/04/2023

An intriguing deep dive into the multiple facets of patience, and what it really is... 💖🐇🤔

Back in 2015 I wrote a definition for Patience , stated as: An awareness and acceptance that one has no control over the external component...