14/02/2022
The last two weeks have been some of the heaviest I’ve ever walked through with a loved one. Our extended family experienced an unthinkable tragedy that will take a lifetime to recover from.
Out of respect for them, I’m not going to share details about what happened. What I will say is that it was profound for me in many ways. I would like to share that part with those of you who follow me and have been so kind to ask where I’ve been recently.
Grief is illuminating. Out of immense darkness, grief shines a light on what really matters. For me, the grief I witnessed help shine a light on what is really important to me. What I believe the Lord is truly asking me to be faithful in for this season of my life.
Since becoming an entrepreneur, I’ve had some wonderful experiences, increased our family income, and met some amazing people. But I’ve also felt myself more often than not putting my husband and children on the back burner. I’ve been giving them my leftovers instead of my best. I’ve allowed social media, content creation, email marketing, zoom calls, phone conversations, and customer care take over so much of my time and energy. Part of me loves it. It’s a creative outlet for me, a challenge I have loved taking on, and it also allowed me to be part of a community I’m thankful for. But a bigger part of me knows it’s not worth sacrificing what I KNOW I’m supposed to be giving my best in - caring for my family, discipling my boys, serving and supporting my husband, caring for our home, caring for our animals, and nurturing my worship ministry.
For now, I’m choosing to surrender entrepreneurship and focus on things that really matter to me. This is not a criticism of work from home mothers. I see you, and I think you’re amazing. I just know myself well enough to know I can’t balance it all and do it all well. And I want to do the most important things REALLY WELL.
So, I’ll still be around - sharing our family life, some encouragement for mamas, and our house project coming up. But, my perspective and focus has changed drastically. It feels like a burden has lifted, and I can breathe.
Lastly, please pray for our family in Kansas.🤍
