Coffee Over Suicide

04/12/2024

I just dropped a guy off to drug test for his probation and he asked me “will you hold my cheese?”
I thought he had a soda 🤣

30/11/2024

To the guy that blocked me because he thinks I kicked him out of the meeting over zoom on Thanksgiving, I didn’t. Your video froze, we waited over a minute for it to unfreeze and then you were just gone. No one kicked you off, I’m not sure why you would think that.

30/11/2024

Depression makes the bad things feel worse. It colors your reality with a patina of grey. I’m going to fight like hell to survive the next several years. I’ve worked really hard to become this version of myself and I’ll be damned if anyone or anything will send me back to being a suicidal mess.

09/11/2024

09/11/2024

I broke down this morning and cried all the way to work, screaming in my car. Then I wiped my eyes and got to work.

19/08/2024

If things work out, I'll be getting my first tattoo this weekend. I've always avoided them because I just never really understood the draw. I like to be the one in charge of when and how I am noticed. I can walk into any room, anywhere and blend in to the background. I don't usually wear designs or logos of the things I like unless I am going somewhere I'm VERY comfortable with. I realized recently that this is a result of a lot of conditioning from a very early age that liking the wrong things can invite violence from strangers at any time. I don't have that fear anymore, but I'm still wired that way. It's good to recognize these things so you can decide if they need to be reinforced or dismantled. I'm always rewiring this ol' house to clear out the ghosts. 🤘

26/06/2024

Picture from a great night.

22/06/2024

There is a lot that I can’t talk about when it comes to my job. I can tell you that I was trained to restrain people who could be a danger to themselves and others in a safe humane manner. I was trained how to react to violence and aggression. I have extensive training in how to treat someone in crisis and assist with coping skills. I know not to take anything personally.

I’ll just say this.

Today was a challenging day.

04/06/2024

I’m going to be honest with you. For the past month and a half or so my depression has been at its highest peak in years. Just crushing me. I can’t find joy in so many things. I feel like I’m bad at everything. Bad at communicating, bad at friendship, bad at partnership, bad at anything creative. Just bad. Last night I came to a strange realization. Maybe that’s true sometimes. Maybe sometimes I’m batting 1,000 and I’m just bad at everything I try for a day… or a week… or a month… so what? You’ve been good at things before and you will likely be good at them again. I’m not garbage. I’m compost.

09/04/2024

My silly friend.

08/04/2024

Today I became CPR/First Aid certified. Just one more tool in the toolbox. Out for a walk listening to music, trying to calm the voice in my head that says “it’ll never be enough”. I’m louder than that voice most days, but when I’m not, I get up and go do what needs doing anyway. I didn’t used to be like that, so I’m proud of myself for always being on the lookout for growth.

28/03/2024

Graduation day. I have passed the Peer Support Specialist program at CAPS Academy. Certification here I come.

02/03/2024

Comedy show was incredible last night! I am so lucky to have found these incredible people.

20/01/2024

Recording across the country! So thankful for my brothers and sisters in and for the continued excellence on display here. So grateful.

09/01/2024

It is my girl Ripley’s 10th birthday 🎉

24/12/2023

Merry Christmas 🎄