31/08/2024
how does it feel to be always liked but never truly pursued?
its really sad.
Knowing that I was able to meet their standards, expectations, and needs, but it still wasn't enough to make them stay, is truly sad. It's a painful realization, even though I'm grateful for the people who contributed to my growth.
The idea of being someone who's always liked but never truly pursued hurts because it feels like I'm more than qualified to be kept by them, but not qualified enough to make them pursue me romantically. It's like I wasn't worth it, as if I wasn't one-of-a-kind.
One day I realized that everyone has their own preferences and boundaries. Some people are willing to keep you in their lives but may not choose you romantically. I would rather choose myself and give back the love that I was given to those people who would rather choose to lose me. I'll wait and reserve that love for those people who might fight and pursue me someday.
Letting go is hard, but I would rather fight and find my own happiness than be stuck with someone who gives mixed signals and fleeting feelings without being ready to pursue me. It's okay. We can't force people just because we like them. Maybe rejection is part of life, a lesson to teach me to grow and stand up again after a storm. There's always a rainbow after the storm and rain.