29/09/2021
Chapter 3
I can’t believe it’s 3am and I can’t sleep I can’t stop thinking about this boy I don’t know but I just like him , especially the way he talked to me , the way he looked at me honestly for me is the little things that matter .
Damn tomorrow it’s Saturday and I won’t see him since I’m not going to school yuks but we move.
On weekends I usually spend time with mama and my brothers , Sunday we go to church after we go and see granny and have lunch there , there’s really nothing interesting about my life I’m not really an outdoor person as I’ve said I like my own space, I love reading , spending time on social media and watching YouTube videos, i wish to have a YouTube channel one day .
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It’s Monday September 13th already and trial exams are starting soon .
I meet Ntando and her friend Zandi we chill they have been asking me why I’m smiling and I’m not saying anything honestly I hate announcing unless it’s guaranteed I don’t want to give them false hope .
Shoot he said he will come and it’s second break already but he haven’t came , I feel so sad this is what I hate about dating you get mad over the simplest things and that actually ruins your entire day . But ah maybe he will come after school I don’t know but I really wanna see him , I just want him to take my number at least so we can talk on the phone this guy seem so slow yaz I wonder why he is not doing the things he is supposed to do .
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TUESDAY
He didn’t come I’m so mad at him maybe he was studying since trial exams are starting and matric can be hectic as they say , but they say “people make time for who they love .” Maybe he has a girlfriend it’s just lust , he is probably lying I don’t think he find me attractive lol one thing about me I will assume and worse part I assume the worse things crazy? But that’s how I am
WEDNESDAY
I can’t believe I haven’t seen him in like forever let me just forget about him and focus on my studies , I feel so anxious and I really hate feeling like this but anyway we move it’s obvious he doesn’t like me .
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Ntando : hey chommie I got me a hunk
Me : girl you lie who is he ?
Ntando: Thato he is from mountain high , I don’t know how it happened it was love at the first sight I guess.
Me : I’m so happy for you baby enjoy and be happy .
Mbongeni: Yeah be happy
Me : why are you Ears-dropping ?
Him : I’m not ,you guys are just loud
Ntando : see you later girl
Me: no don’t go
Him : yes go
Me : wow
Him : hey Princess
Me : hey prince
Him : oh okay I can tell you mad
Me : No why would I be mad ? You are not my boyfriend mus
Him: yet
Me : whatever ( thing is he kept me waiting deep down I want him to just hug me , but what he did is not cute at all .)
Him: Im so sorry I know I said I will come I have been busy you know what give me your number I’ll come and see you after school.
Me : I don’t know and you are right I’m mad .
Him : I’m sorry baby
Not this guy giving me butterflies the way he says baby knocks me down , one thing about me I hate being called by my name especially if I’m attracted to you .
I wrote my number on his phone he left and I went back to Ntando I told her everything she’s happy for me one thing about my girl she’s so supportive honestly I love that for me , friends are supposed to be supportive.