Yours Truly Dear Diary it's me again

29/10/2023

Romans 8:31
What then shall we say to these things?
If God is for us,who can be against us?

Philippines 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me

27/10/2023

Have you ever,ever wonder! why you were born?what's your purpose is in this chaotic world.Our minds are clouded by thoughts,questions! Most of them unanswered. It's a battle inside,it chaotic,no peace at all,then you wonder in all the chaos,betrayal, the wild thought,unanswered questions.. if you will ever..ever find your true purpose before you departure from this world. These are the unsettling thoughts that most of us have,go through everyday of our lives and the world, the chaotic world and its dirty people put a "word" on it.they named it "Depression".
The fight is real,things are not coming together our sisters and brothers are taking medication,medication that this,this dirty world says it numbs the pain and take all your worries away,tell me.. isn't that more deception? Isn't that more of being "captured"how can a pill,powder,syrup take pain away?it doesn't.
All along you've been a slave of the devil,a slave of unsettling bad,cruel thoughts.i know that's you going thorough the worst.but I think,I think that's because you're in dark and disturbing place of your life,but at least before this "medication"you were enduring all that while you were on your senses no influence whatsoever,but now.. now you're are dependent on a drug,a drug that going to make you a slave and an addicts. You won't function without it. hey I am sorry okay!.i am not judging you,you've been through a lot of things,bad things I get it. I get it that this drug has become your escaping boat,but wait,wait please hear me out.. Come on let's me tell you. You know all the bad,cruel,bad voices you've been hearing are from the devil.

20/10/2023

20/10/2023

Hey Sister
You're Loved!
You Deserve(d) Better

if I can get a chance to go back to my younger self i would change lots of things.Back then I didn't know how to counsel myself,didn't know how to navigate on my own and not rely on anyone nor seek their approval,all I wanted was to fit in,be seen,known and be loved not realising that while I was looking or searching for that I was doing it all wrong.Those I thought were giving me what my heart longed for, saw that as my weakness n took advantage of it. being young n out in the wild alone makes you vanurable to vultures. If I can have a talk with my younger self,I would tell her.
listen here girl. you're amazingly unique, don't push yourselft too hard n fast.watch out!, you going to fall and those you try to catch up with are not good for you.You don't need to be scared, HEY! take your time(the cycle of people you have now most of them won't even be with you in your adult life, they will leave,have they lives and forget you were even there ) so take a step back, breath and do you.you feel like no one understands you right? that you're not good enough,that you don't fit anywhere? that you don't belong?
listen! if I can tell you now that all of it doen't matter, none of it matters. not fitting sometimes saves you,from having dark past n lots of scares. I understand you're young and you feel lost,alone and sometimes those around you add to that and make it worse,some abuses you emotionally and physically. no one is listening to you, no one is asking if you okay, the list goes on and on.. I know! it hurt I know. but listen to me keep your head up n high, go to church,ignore the pain and laugh hard find your happy place within yourself,don't let them take your PEACE.That the only thing you should protect with your life.Your PEACE.

LOVE?
you want LOVE? well young lady,you cant force anyone to love you no matter what.
LOVE is a very complicated feeling yet so fragile and precious. LOVE doesn't have or goes with any condition(s) be on a look out for those with evil agenders their hearts are evil.

20/10/2023

SHES JUST HURTING AND IT HURTING THAT HER ACTIONS ARE HURTING THE PERSON WHO DID NOT HURT HER!

She doesn't know how to love!
She's always looking for fights!
She's draining me!
I don't know what she wants!
She's insecure!
She's jealous!

you've given her everything right but it's seems like you're pouring water on a ducks back... She says she loves you but her actions! her actions makes you question her words.

I am sorry
I am sorry you keep on bouncing into a wall and it hurts, But, But wait a minutes. all along she's been communicating,telling you what she needs but you were too focused on her actions and sideling her words, I know. I know what they say "actions speak louder then words" well let me tell you. NOT ALWAYS! everyone is different.

she loves you. YES! but she's hurt. she's hurt, maybe not by you BUT.. BUT she's hurt and she needs you, she needs your assurance that she's all you need. she needs you to listen to her, to touch her , calm her down when she starts to panic n over think whisper in her ear,tell her everything is gonna be okay. You're her safe place her peace, make her feel safe, than when she's safe she will let her gut down and open up to you, she's been through hell and back and it not easy at all,be easy on her she will tell you her fears. allow her to be vonurables. assure her that you not going anyway without her,that you will walk with her through the dark valley no matter what..

I am sorry that you're going through this, but man up and find... find her strength inside you to carry you both, whats you guys are going through is no child joke. letting go of abuse and traumer is not easy.. Hey listen! Hold her hand,so tight in a way that she feels your heart beat, that she feels love and comfort.

20/10/2023

Favor!
God's Favor!

Favor is what opens up doors no man can shut!

God's Favor!
Favor is what puts you in places you know,you have no business being there!

Can we talk about God's Favor?

Favor sets you in positions that you know you aren't qualified for💁.

Favor is what puts you axcatly where you're supposed to be to accomplish exactly what it is that God has set for you to come.

favor is what qualifies you, when you dont have the degree, or a diploma, when you don't have the connections, you're just where God has open up a door for you to be and even though people might talk badly about you or try to push you out of that place, you can not be moved, not because you manufactured your way there but because God's spirt has put you there. His Marcy speaks for you.
You don't have to market yourself because you've already been marked by the blood of our living almighty god.

TALK ABOUT FAVOR!
HIS MERCYFUL!
HIS KIND,LOVING & GENTLE
father to the fatherless
husband to the widows
provider to those in need.
his everything good.