In Loving Memory Of beloved Kevin Paul Martin.

09/16/2024

If Tomorrow Starts Without Me (Saddest Poem Ever)💔💔
When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,

If the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me,
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,

While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,

and each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,

And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had
If I could re-live yesterday
Just even for a while,

I'd say goodbye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
would take my place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss coming tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,

My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne.

He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,

And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.

Though there were times
You did some things
You knew you shouldn't do it.

But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take my hand
And share my life with me?

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,

I'm right here, in your heart.

09/04/2024

Today will always be our day of dread knowing its the day God took you for himself.I know God takes his special Angels early but I wish he would have shared you a little longer for our child's sake at least. Loving you and missing u always.

07/15/2024

06/16/2024

Happy heavenly Father's day.

05/21/2024

Let us take a walk together.
We will meet on memory lane.
Fill your bags with memories
to bring to life again.

Bring along some flowers
for when butterflies appear.
Make sure you have deep pockets
for the feathers you hold dear.

Don't forget to bring a tissue
to catch each others tears.
and a bottle full of water
To wash one another's fears.

Let us tell each others stories,
about the young and old.
Let us meet them in the words,
of all our stories told.

Let them walk beside us,
or sit when we need to rest.
Let their prescence be known,
by reliving them at their best.

Let us walk to different places,
wherever you want to go.
A picnic in the park.
A sleigh ride in the snow.

Let us share in each others joys.
Let them live again.
As we walk together,
when we meet in memory lane.
Author Joanne Boyle Heartfelt and art Steffi Krenzek

05/15/2024

I can’t say I loved you. I just can’t
Because it makes it sound as if my love is past tense. Gone, finished, ended.
And that is so far from the truth.
My love is not in the past. It will never be gone.
I love you now. Still.
You didn’t take all this love away with you. It stays. It lingers.
Some days it jumps up and hits me in the face just to remind me that it is still here. Still persevering.
Some days it nudges me. Challenges me to keep going. Daring me to find the strength to get through the day.
But mostly, it just resonates inside of me with everything I do. With every step forward and every glance back. Every close of my eyes. Every breath.
My love is not dependent on you being here.
There is nowhere far enough,
and nothing permanent enough
to stop me from loving you.
So I will not say I loved you.
Because I love you.
Still.


Still' from 'When I Am Gone' by Becky Helmsley

05/10/2024

Heaven's Flowers.
Author Joanne Boyle Heartfelt

04/28/2024

Just so you know
after you die
I will not wonder
why you didn’t do
your dishes or
how long it’s been
since you
cleaned your
oven or microwave or
mopped your floors
or why there were
dust bunnies under
the bed and
behind the door

After you’re gone
I will not wonder
how you could
have allowed the
piles of old mail to
accumulate or
why you saved so
many bits and pieces
of this and that or
why you weren’t
more goal-oriented and
well-organized or
why your refrigerator
contained so many
expired condiments

When you are
absent from all your
familiar places
I vow to avoid wondering
why you didn’t
eat less and
exercise more or
why you waited so
long to stop smoking
or drinking or
whatever else was
simultaneously
soothing and
deadly or
why you took
whatever risk may
seem to have hastened
your exit or why
you left so much unsaid
unfinished or
unresolved

I will only wonder
if you knew how much
you mattered to me
just as you are
as you were when we
met in our temporary
human disguises and
laughed in the
dressing room of the
world at how funkily
our skin suits fit
at times

I will wonder and
hope you knew
you were beloved

I will wonder when
we last hugged
and whether you
felt how our
heartbeats
converged
and our bellies
bumped like boats
and then we
both sighed

04/24/2024

Absolutely ❤️

04/10/2024

My Beating Heart
I looked for you in memories,
like I was told to do.
I searched through hazy clouds
and i still could not find you.

I thought it was due to the rain
so I closed my eyes,
to stop the rain from falling
in the hope the wetness dries.

I went back to the times
we would sit and have a chat.
I couldn't find you there.
I wondered where you were at.

I then closed my eyes less tightly
and felt the rain eased
I found the fog cleared
the less my eyes were squeeze.

I was now in a field of love
and the sun began to shine.
I found a beating heart
and I realised it was mine.

I picked it up and held it
but only for a while.
I knew I had to put it back
for me to share a smile.

I felt it was still beating
slightly in my hand.
I looked up to the sky
as I whispered, "I understand"

My heart is where you are.
You took it when you went.
but leaving me without you
was never your intent.
J. Boyle Art by Steffi Krenzek

02/14/2024

They mattered…

Sara Rian Books

02/05/2024

01/15/2024