07/01/2024
2023年,自己經歷了深刻的內在轉變。這一年不同於以往,從追求名利轉向尋求心靈上的滿足。從2022年末開始,陸續許多斷捨離,不僅包括物質上的,包括自己的一些書籍還有衣服等,現在比起以前就好像輕鬆許多,更感更重要的是與過去的自己和解。也有機會參加斷捨離團體的志工走訪朋友家,接觸不同的斷捨離案例,這些經歷讓我體會到了那些看不見的能量(力)的神奇之處。
也開始對吸引力法則、種子法則、傳統經文等產生了興趣,甚至成為了我工作時的背景音樂。
慢慢體會到何謂用力轉向借力,才發覺我已經太習慣緊繃而不會放鬆,從追求刺激和精彩轉向欣賞平淡穩定的美好。養成了記錄感恩日記的習慣,也特別在2023年都跟過去的上司們道謝。
成為了我反思和感悟的重要工具。冥想也成為了我的日常習慣,幫助我保持內心的平靜和清晰。對於金錢的看法也有了新的理解,相對於以往好似會擔心錢花出去這件事,特別是在正向順流中花錢的快樂,這讓我心中感到更加踏實,對感覺心中有了踏實感, 以往的匱乏感消失不少。
在身體方面,我也越來越清楚地知道自己需要改善的地方。常常不該它出力卻幫倒忙而導致的緊繃肩膀,以及年輕時練舞留下的舊傷膝蓋中,逐漸找到了改善的路徑。
夏天感謝朋友推坑去報名游泳班,有陣子找回早起的習慣,喜歡五點多就到公園和泳池的感覺,尤其游泳時更跟自己的全身更有連結,也慢慢的更把身體部位列入自己的一一感謝清單,才知道我之前有多不愛自己的身體,現在也把武術當作保養身體的方法,也特別感謝老師們,師兄師姐們的教導,之前對武術完全不感興趣的我,卻覺得它備有有很深層的含義和文化,尤其是”往內求不往外求”相較於以往接觸的西方文化(街舞音樂等)有了新的體悟
語言學習方面,相對於早期接觸的中英日韓德法西語言,2021年算正式開始範圍延伸到東南亞語言,2023年很幸運的也陸續有陪我練習泰語,印尼語,越南語,俄文的夥伴,算是有了另外的開花結果。以前覺得會十個以上語言是不可能的任務,結果一轉眼自己已經跨過這道門,而且愈來與覺得掌握語感這件事情(有點像是掌握樂理和音感相對的跨學習樂器也是效率大幅提高),2024希望在達到也幾乎生活上沒問題的還有俄文,阿拉伯文,甚至又開始有以色列朋友聯繫接觸的希伯來文
這一進步不僅來自於我對語言學習的熱愛,也得益於那些一直在線上活動中支持我的朋友和語言組織。我甚至很幸運有在些團體分享了我在語言學習方面的經驗和心得。
“對於各個不同國家的人要跟他聊什麼瞬間打入他們內心”
“或許我們的教育常常抄寫,中文為母語的我們很依賴視覺,但或許你沒發現你最擅長的不是視覺而是其他感覺....“
工作上從前幾年的遊戲領域->區塊鏈遊戲領域轉向->AI領域。
這個轉變讓我感到更加踏實和專注,我開始更加關注AI如何解決實際問題。不得不說遊戲+金融有點變成操之過急相對於短線,幾個月就出現一波新遊戲也消失了許多新遊戲,現在開始工作上也比較有看長遠的心態而不受短線思維影響
從2022傷官->2023食神->2024走回正財
我帶著這些經驗和學習,期待著進一步的成長和變化。廚了繼續提升專業技能之外,同時利用靜態的力量和修行來深化我的個人內在且優化自我紀律,繼續在語言和AI領域探索新的可能性,並在新的一年裡,繼續走在自我發現和成長的道路上。
疫情也算是比較平穩了,今年也希望有機會在訪歐美矽谷見海外的朋友,同時也預期可以慢慢量化學語言的成就感了
在動和靜之間找到平衡
在緊和鬆之間找到平衡
在腦和心之間找到平衡
在快跟慢之間找到平衡
某一次和外國朋友的訪談中,他問我怎麼學會那麼多語言。我當時就直接回答說,老實講,我也不太清楚,可能就是因為我很想打破世界的界限吧。但說真的,我不是那種會愛看書的人。我沒有那麼勤勞,但我卻會讓周圍的環境來提升我的自制力。
知道自制力有點欠缺,利用環境來給自己施壓。像是家裡有些健身器材,像是健腹器、啞鈴和滾筒,但我幾乎很少用,所以我下的結論我還是得去戶外健身房才行XD
至於修心的部分,繼續和集體意識接軌。
所以,我還在努力營造一個好環境,直到我能把自制力真正變成我的一部分上
有點像上面平衡的”快”跟”慢”
以往覺得快其實並不一定真的有比較快,甚至用了很多力並不輕鬆
某次游泳前輩給我建議有雷同,用以前的游法游得快但沒辦法太遠
真正要做的是像某些老人怎樣慢慢輕鬆的不知不覺游了一公里這樣的訓練方式
其實有些話年輕時聽沒感覺但好像有點慢慢領悟聽進去的感覺了
2023年跨年,我做了點不一樣的事,沒有像往常那樣出去玩,而是選擇在線上和朋友們一起寫下願望,然後冥想和燒掉它們來顯化。說實話,我對這個「顯化」這個詞越來越有感覺了。比起過去,我發現我的內心想法變成現實的速度似乎在加快。
從AI的盛行就能看出來,現在人們可以快速地作圖、做影片、做遊戲,這都是顯化趨勢的例子。所以,現在我反而更重視向內看。我也希望自己能更深入地向內探索,顯化出更豐盛的外在世界。
In 2023, I experienced a profound internal transformation. This year was different from the past; I shifted my focus from pursuing fame and wealth to seeking spiritual fulfillment. Starting from late 2022, I embarked on a journey of decluttering, not just materially – including books and clothes – but also reconciling with my past self. I even participated in decluttering groups as a volunteer, visiting friends' homes and encountering various cases, which helped me appreciate the unseen forces of energy.
I found myself intrigued by concepts like the Law of Attraction and Seed Principle, and traditional scriptures, which even became my work-time background music. Gradually, I learned to move from exerting force to leveraging it, realizing I had been too tense and not relaxed enough. I shifted my focus from seeking excitement to appreciating the beauty of simplicity and stability. Keeping a gratitude journal became an important tool for reflection and insight, especially in 2023 when I made it a point to express my thanks to former supervisors.
This process also brought a new understanding of money; rather than worrying about spending, I found joy in the positive flow of finances, bringing a sense of security and diminishing previous feelings of scarcity.
Physically, I became more aware of areas needing improvement. The tension in my shoulders caused by unnecessary effort and old dance injuries in my knees slowly found relief. I'm grateful to a friend who encouraged me to sign up for swimming classes last summer. Rediscovering the habit of getting up early for swims at the park and pool was delightful. Swimming helped me connect more with my body, leading me to include each part of it in my gratitude list. I learned how much I had neglected my body before. Now, I even consider martial arts as a way to care for my body, appreciating its profound cultural significance, especially the principle of 'seeking within rather than without', contrasting with the Western culture (like street dance and music) I used to engage with.
In terms of language learning, beyond my early exposure to Chinese, English, Japanese, Korean, German, French, and Spanish, I formally expanded to Southeast Asian languages in 2021. In 2023, I was fortunate to find partners to practice Thai, Indonesian, Vietnamese, and Russian, marking a new phase of achievement. The idea of mastering over ten languages once seemed impossible, but now I've crossed that threshold, realizing that mastering language intuition (akin to understanding music theory and ear training) significantly enhances learning efficiency. In 2024, I hope to achieve fluency in Russian, Arabic, and even Hebrew, thanks to reconnections with Israeli friends.
These advancements are not just due to my passion for languages but also the support of friends and language organizations in online activities. I've been fortunate to share my experiences in these groups, discussing topics like engaging with people from various countries and realizing that our education often focuses on writing and visuals, yet we might be better attuned to other senses.
Professionally, I transitioned from the gaming industry to blockchain gaming and then to the AI field. This shift has grounded me, focusing more on how AI can solve real problems. The frenzied pace of gaming and finance, characterized by short-lived trends and the rapid emergence and disappearance of new games, has now given way to a more long-term perspective in my work.
In 2024, I carry these experiences into the new year, looking forward to further growth and change. Beyond enhancing professional skills, I aim to deepen my inner self through stillness and meditation, improving self-discipline, and continuing to explore new possibilities in language and AI.
With the pandemic stabilizing, I hope to travel to Europe and Silicon Valley to meet overseas friends and quantify the sense of achievement in language learning. Finding balance between action and stillness, tension and relaxation, brain and heart, and speed and slowness is my goal.
In a conversation with a foreign friend, when asked how I managed to learn so many languages, I candidly replied that I wasn't entirely sure. Perhaps it stemmed from my desire to break down global barriers. But honestly, I'm not one to hit the books hard. I rely more on my environment to enhance my self-discipline. Knowing I lack discipline, I use my environment to push myself. For instance, I have gym equipment at home, like an ab trainer, dumbbells, and a roller, but I hardly use them, concluding that I need to work out outdoors or in a gym.
Continuing with the theme of internal exploration, I maintain my connection with collective consciousness. Thus, I'm working hard to create an environment where I can fully integrate self-discipline into my being, like balancing the 'fast' and 'slow' aspects of my life. I've realized that speed isn't always efficient and can be strenuous. A senior swimmer's advice resonated with me: swimming fast doesn't mean you can go far. The goal is to train like some elders who swim slowly and effortlessly, covering a kilometer without realizing it.
Some wisdom I heard in my youth is slowly making more sense now.
The last few hours of transitioning from 2023 to 2024, I did something different. Instead of going out, I chose to write down wishes online with friends, meditate, and then burn them to manifest. Honestly, the concept of 'manifestation' has become more meaningful to me. Compared to the past, it seems like my inner thoughts are transforming into reality faster. The prevalence of AI demonstrates this, as people can quickly create graphics, videos, and games. So now, I'm focusing more on introspection, hoping to delve deeper within and manifest a more abundant external world.