Raiga

03/02/2022

Thigh high socks are the absolute vibe for life.

25/01/2022

Mama told me I was a God, "Don't get involved with mortals"

Keep my destiny in order

"When you're older, you will thank me for it
Don't get entangled with petty women who blur your vision. Keep your head steady for the final mission or the bigger picture
It's never you against the world, it's you against the mirror. Keep these thoughts in your mind tight like handcuffs"

24/01/2022

Finally some of my Twitch Sub emotes are coming in.

Ehhh? Ehhhhh?!?! Nani?!??!

20/01/2022

Decided to get s**t done today
Woke up and played Apex, had some great fu***ng games. 5am-7:30am
Just had my 2nd morning at the gym. 8am-10am
Work 11am -11pm
Stream tonight 12am-2am

Keep on marching on

18/01/2022

We did it guys! Thank you

18/01/2022

It's times like now, where the world sleeps, where everyones cares are being lulled off into Dreamland, that I'd just love to have someone to talk too. About anything and everything. I'd really like that.

17/01/2022

Laying in bed, cosmic bliss is flowing through my speakers.

13/01/2022

Wanna curl in a ball and watch some 90's anime with someone. The fu***ng vibe.

13/01/2022

Late night / early morning thoughts. 1/13

It's worthless to fight for someone. You don't get them back. They're gone. It's not happiness, just a form of concession that's twisted in its own way.
It's not heroic. Or romantic. It's false if anything.
I'm laying in bed thinking about how only a fool would fight to repeatedly convince someone to love you. You shouldn't have to do that.

12/01/2022

Finna start streaming EVERY DAY (kinda, or I hope so) from 12am to 2am Central Time. starting tomorrow the 12th 13th midnight. The joining of those two days. Yeah.

Mainly play apex. But I'm wanting to get back into DayZ, One Piece Pirate Warriors 4, Don't Starve Together, And Risk Of Rain 2. I'm also down for recommendations. Hope to see some of y'all there.

Peace

02/01/2022

There exists in this world something no one has ever seen.
That thing is very kind, and very sweet.
If anyone were to see it once, they'd probably want to see it again.
That's why the world chose to hide it, making it very difficult to obtain.
But one day, someone will find it.
And that someone will be meant to find it.
Because it was made to work that way.

Been rewatching Toradora since yesterday.
Still gets to me.

Happy Year of The Tiger Everyone. I hope y'all take care of me this year as well. 🙏

27/12/2021

The opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference.

this indifference is making me drown.

25/12/2021

5 am no sleep vibes.

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25/12/2021

Hey guys. Merry Christmas. I hope y'all have a good day today.

Much love

23/12/2021

What's some stuff I should be reading/listening to/watching?

I need more s**t to do on my down time that isn't sleep.

21/12/2021

The amount of you guys sending me love and messages makes me want to cry. I love you all. Thank you for being my friends.

The world can't be too dark with you people in it.

19/12/2021

Fell off the wagon after a few days. But I'm proud of progress. It's difficult to type. Thankful for autocorrect. Just drank so much. It's 4am, Im staring at my ceiling. It so dark and comfy. I could get used to this. I'm sorry for having to be this way.

I'll get back up, but for now let me drown.

15/12/2021

Haven't been eating much lately. Maybe once a day. Or I'll eat the next day. Fasting is weird. I feel more alert. I'm not hungry. It's like I don't even feel hunger. I thought about setting alarms to remind me to eat, but I'm curious as to how long I could go.

I drink hella water. Like I ain't even worried chief. But it's odd. No sugar, no processed foods, no carbs. I feel alright.

I feel alright.

14/12/2021

Took my dog out for a walk since all I do is stare at walls these days We went to this hill by my place where we could watch the sunrise together. My old boy got tired halfway through so I carried him like the puppy he was 17 years ago. Hes currently curled up in a ball next to me.

I haven't drank in 3 days. Progress.

13/12/2021

I cried today. I watched this guy as a teen and kinda fell off when I dropped off halo and I was sooooo fu***ng excited when he started playing Apex, I was so happy that someone I knew and watched was going to be playing the new game that I love. The sheer aggression and big brain this controller God brought to the table coming from Halo was out of this world. I mean nobody played like this guy. Nobody pushed like him. He shook up the game. It inspired the everliving f**k out of me. I watched everything he put out because I wanted to be him. Pro guides, YouTube videos, snippets on Instagram and Twitter, I devoured it.
Ill be destroying as bloodhound for the guy for awhile, may even switch my main. All I know is imma be fu***ng doods.

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12/12/2021

Stayed for a whole hour. Had fun. Didn't stay for the gift exchange or the contests because I can't socialize that much right now.

What kind of music are you into currently? Drop me some links. I want s**t to listen to at 4am

I've been drowning myself in ASAP.

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12/12/2021

Company Christmas party tomorrow. I'm forcing myself to go and have a good time.

I finished Arcane. Was honestly pretty good. Animation was pretty nice and the voice acting was fu***ng mint. Probably might start getting into League. Don't really know where to start to be honest.

Viktor absolutely mesmerized me.

10/12/2021

Hey guys. Took a social media break. I'm back now. I'm still up, drunk af. But I did go get help. I'm on this medication that I don't want to take. I'm human. It's okay to be sad. I just don't understand why I can't just talk s**t out, the solution is to give me more stuff to take. "Take this pill, it'll help you" nah man, I got a s**tload of unprocessed emotions I gotta unpack. Idk.

06/12/2021

can't sleep because my mind goes where my heart fails to wander. Ill stay up all night, I'll drink and smoke until my brain stops processing. Comfortably numb has never been comfortable.

I'm getting help soon. I don't want to worry you guys, and I hella hella appreciate your messages. Thank you guys for staying up with me. I'm getting help.

I love you all.

06/12/2021

Woke up this morning covered in caked blood in my face and hair. Must have had a nosebleed while I slept, my sheets and pillows are f**ked up.

I kept my blood on my phone because it seemed fitting since I hear Red is in style

04/12/2021

I told myself I'd post here more. Good or bad. But I didn't know it'd be this difficult.

Bare with me guys, I'm at a low right now.

Im still waiting for that next high.

03/12/2021

Dreamt JTFR was back.

He always took such great care of this place when I wasn't well.

30/11/2021

Every night my hair keeps falling out. I haven't eaten in the last 28 hours, but to be honest I'm not starving, I stay up all night playing games and when I'm done I lay in my bed and stare at my phone or ceiling. I don't remember falling asleep, I just wake up when I wake up. It's 4:15 am and the only thing I can think to do is crawl in a shower and just let the water hit me until it's not hot anymore.

I forgot, I totally ate a carrot like around 1am or so. Idk. Someone hold me.

26/11/2021

Let the peacock fly

25/11/2021

Happy Thanksgiving Guys. I'm thankful for y'all. Thankful that y'all still show up despite all my bulls**t and woes and the highs and the lows. I really didn't want that to rhyme. Anyways peeps, y'all be safe out there.

Much love,
Raiga.

I DONT UNDERSTAND I DONT UNDERSTAND

24/11/2021

What does it take
To have the person you love
Love you back?

It's definitely not a coincidence
But it's not inevitable either
If the little things that happen in regular everyday life
Can build into a special relationship

Then I'm sure that
When the time comes
As if it were predestined

You'll naturally be pulled together

23/11/2021

I want to move away and breathe new life.

Where do you guys live? Do you like it? Do you enjoy living there?

I'm open to leaving the country as well as long as it's not too much of a hastle to move.

I need to breathe different air guys. I'm drowning here.

22/11/2021

I stay up until the only ones that are awake are me and my thoughts and vices. We'll look at eachother and exchange a few words but we all know how it ends.

22/11/2021

It all feels so heavy sometimes guys. Sometimes I worry I'm not strong enough, but if I keep putting one foot in front of the other I'll be alright... Right?